Old emotional stuff and pictures i took

love you tiny

cause i just want you for my own

cant wait until you visit

the music is coming. soul is something that can be captured like a wild animal and we got a zoo

but it may be what i needed the most. maybe i could ride with her

Now things are different Sometimes I still miss it Sometimes I deny the truth Sometimes I still miss you Who am I kidding I miss you all the time But I'm still not forgiven For leaving you behind I left my love for my passion And now I'm just smashing All the things that remind me of you Your moves I left without saying how I really felt And now I'm left with the cards that were dealt I was too immature to say the words I really meant Covered my heart with walls of cement Cause I didn't wanna again But I still did

Northern California

Cali

Do u know why I never called you? U want to know? I stopped my self everytime I'd pick up the phone and dial ur number but I'd always hang up b4 it rang. I stopped because I knew I couldn't be there for u I stopped because I knew if u told me ur problems I couldn't solve them because I couldn't be there I knew I never would be able to afford to fly back until Christmas I knew I wouldn't be able to look you in your beautiful green eyes and tell you I love you for an entire year So I decided to distract myself Nothing worked Nothing ever worked Countless nights watching the few stars in LA wondering if u were watching them too Wondering if u were wishing for the same thing But how would I cope knowing you u were living some of the best and most important years of your life without me I'd just write Hour after hour, day after day, week after week, month after month I'd write about you Write lyrics bout your sunkissed skin And your big beautiful eyes that shined like the moon I'd write you countless letters if never send cause I couldn't I wrote song after song and erased them cause they weren't good enough for you Then I wrote 3 songs that I felt described your beauty in sound 3 songs that would make your heartbeat 3 songs that might make you love me But then I arrived back home And I never got you alone And you never asked about my music And you never asked me what I'd doe You were ever so cold It's like your heart had frozen when I left And you didn't care And you never listened The end

And I see you waiting for me Thanks I miss u 2 Let me serenade you went I get back with songs I wrote about you That's what u want right? Attention?

I did it U'll see

A crush from a far Like wishing a star It didn't happen I want to believe But I was naive And let it happen Why I let you go You stayed in the snow And I left it I wish i would've stayed Cause I just stole ur heart And kept it I'm sorry that it's true I'm sorry it was you

I would sneak into ur basement So we could hide under blankets Tried to be silent as we fell in love in the summer But then fall came around And u were never in town I lost u

What happened to congrats What happened to support What happened to "just friends" Cause if we were just friends U would've responded & u try to hard to be misunderstood But u kinda remind me of goodnight moon; easy to read

What do I want with this ever so precious life of mine I feel as though I've been wasting a lot of time Time spent on tryna decide If I wanted to fly Fly away too the moon with you on my back Fly to the skies we'll never look back Hopefully this would make up for all that I lack Cause sometimes I wish that I could be black Wonder if I made all the right moves Or if it even matters where I move Cause I'm gifted with passion in tryna pursue The route that leads the fastest too u Fuck it I'm going to bed

Candy makes me happy Weed makes me happy Thats it That's sad Music used to make me happier but now there are expectations Expectations I will fill but will it make me happy at the end Are the lyrics actually what I'm feeling

I miss everything & everyone I really question if it's worth it Or if I could can do this Was I trippin Or did I make the right decision What's the point of living When I'm so different