tcc

A lot has changed, a lot is going on, but for some reason my fear of someone I know (or even my tc himself) finding my blog has gone up exponentially so it scares me to update.

I want to give accurate stories but I have to change them up a bit so that no one recognizes it, but they’re just so perfect by themselves I don’t know how to change them.

IDK man, I’ll make the decision soon wether I want to start updating again or not. No bullshit this time, and I know this community is dead but a bitch still need an outlet.

Ah haha, fuck.

We’re together now <3

SG and I started dating halloween and we agreed not to do anything until next year when I am of legal age, but BOY OH BOY do I simp for this man.

I haven’t had a boyfriend since EIGHT FUCKING GRADE, even then it was middle school and that shit don’t count. I can’t tell you how happy I am to finally be in a relationship, especially with someone I really like. He’s tall and funny and sweet, the only thing is that our sense of humor isn’t exactly the same and that’s probably where the age gap part comes in. But yeah a lot of jokes I make go right over his head lol. We just built dfrnt 👊😔🤚

I also cannot express how EXCITED I AM to have a boyfriend during CUFFING SZN!!1!1!1 Fuckin CUDDLES and HOT CHOCOLATE and CHRISTMAS MUSIC?? FUCK YEAH I’m so fucking ready. I’ve never had this before and after years of being touch starved because of trauma and trust issues, I finally have someone and it is so nice.

The hardest part though is keeping it all to myself. I can’t really go around telling people I have an older boyfriend cause that’ll raise some eyebrows and I’m not tryna get my boy in trouble. (Let me explain that it’s not illegal to date anyone, it’s illegal to have sex with a minor, but as long as the dating is strictly dating it’s fine, but it’s obviously still sus)

So only 3 of my friends know I have a boyfriend, but only one knows the truth and she’s the only one I can talk to about it. WHICH IS SO HARD. I’m finally happy about something in life and I don’t mean to boast it’s just tHIS IS A NEW EXPERIENCE TO ME. 8th GRADE. WE DIDNT EVEN HOLD HANDS. 8TH GRADE. ITS BEEN YEARS. And this is what tumblr is for :)