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here is me typing my minutes away. i do not keep my fingers on the keys theyre supposed to be over, and i guess thats what puts me at a disadvantage, especially if i'm not looking at the keyboard when i type.

anyway, today's alright. since i blazed a but when i woke up, i don't quite remember the day too well. i mean, i do, but it's also like a blur. like it was a hazy dream and i just woke up from a very long nap. it may also feel that way because i am, in fact, tired. well, not really. i just feel slightly sluggish. like i don't have a lot of energy in me. i'm trying to change my mindset and attract-slash-bring happiness and motivation to me, but i feel like when i try to, it's not real. like my efforts are faked. but then again, fake it til you make it, right? so here i go, i'll try again: i am noticing a feeling from within me that i personally would not like to be experiencing right now. i am positive. what is this feeling-and-or-emotion trying to tell me? is it telling me to change a habit i have in my routine? it is telling me the vibes i am feeling from work right now are a bit off? is it my head trying to change things up because i've been doing so well for so long? maybe it's part of my spiritual awakening - if i'm even experiencing that right now. they say there's a lot of highs and a lot of lows.