So I went to the doctors today (again). She told me my OCD symptoms have started to sound more like they were symptoms of Schizophrenia. She also recommended me to start seeing a specialist because my condition didnât look good at all. I can see that she was genuinely super worried for me and Iâm thankful that she was there on my journey of recovery. However, the moment she mentioned the word âschizophreniaâ, my heart literally dropped and I just could not comprehend anything at that time.
I then told a close friend of mine aka someone i thought i can trust and rely on about what happened and he basically told me to stop thinking about all this, and proceeded to ignore me. I had to deal with someone else because he hated the fact my OCD symptoms were not improving. Now my close friend is doing the exact same.
I keep experiencing multiple shutdowns by people just because I have a mental illness. I get that sometimes they probably donât know how to deal with the situation.....but it just makes me really upset...
My mood keeps fluctuating as well, and Iâm starting to lose motivation to do a lot of things.
I just want to feel happiness for a minute, is that too much to ask for?
