Meet Me On The Borderline

I 📢 have 📢 no 📢 motivation 📢 to 📢 do 📢 anything 📢

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I disappear sometimes. It’s my thing.

Do you ever get some crazy and violent intrusive thought about throwing your phone or attacking someone, so you put your phone in your pocket or cross your arms tightly or something, just to make sure you don’t do it??

I do this in the car, I start to imagine just swerving it off the road or straight into a building to kill myself but then I realize, hm, I really just want to only hurt myself and if I do that, then it’ll cause traffic and people might be late to work or lose their job or something just because I decided to be an idiot, or if I’m walking on the side of a bridge, hmm I could literally just jump off right now for no apparent reason just because I can. It’s literally the worst. 

ive come to the conclusion i’ll never be able to be in a relationship without destroying it.