まるで犬さ

i am never where i want to be or where anybody else wants me to be, and even though i'm better than last week, last week's bar was on the floor so i just keep inventing and meeting new bare minimums that don't mean shit

something malicious is happening

wanna play stupid horse game but noooo. theory final

bro what is going awn

what if i was freaking out all the time

i fear that something malicious is happening and i am powerless to stop it because of my own fear and incompetence and the gnawing sense that i am less than any other option. however i have things to do and pieces to practice and papers to write

could've been a pro in life if not for the everything

haven't drawn in so long it makes me nauseous