I was about to message you saying that I was relistening to “Arsonist’s Lullaby” by Hozier and it reminded me of one of the greats so much, only to find it as one of the first in the playlist 😭 as I was listening I kept thinking that the fire they kept referring to could either be interpreted as jannik’s desire to be The Great, but also his desire for Carlos. Did you interpret it differently? Or is just the vibes that match? Will take this occasion to once again congratulate you on the Carlos version, could not stop reading. You really are magic with words ✨
the fact that someone just randomly thinks about a fic of mine while listening to music is so bizarre lmao
i honestly think it's both! because jannik's desire to be one of the greats and his desire for carlos are VERY intertwined – basically merged together: the same fire pushes jannik to play tennis and to pursue carlos, he can't be the greatest without beating carlos and he can't have carlos without the tennis of it all because it's the fundament of their relationship
and i don't mean to say that jannik thinks of carlos as a trophy or something – absolutely not! but his want to be one of the greats isn't really about trophies either, or not just about trophies – he doesn’t necessarily need to have more slams than djokovic, it's not about stats. it's deeper, it's more complex – and so is sincaraz's dynamic
i can't really explain it as eloquently as i would like to 😭 sorry
but yeah it's both for me! and i think sometimes jannik gets confused – he thinks he wants to beat carlos when in reality he wants him, or he kinda uses carlos to numb/intensify the pain of loss (but only at first because i'm not big on toxic dynamics 💀)
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