luna

I've been hurt in the past I've been hurt in the present The smile on my face ain't the feelings represented in my head Oh I'm sorry I'm alive I been wishing I was dead from a very young age So tell me how you feel Well I'm feeling just fine That's a lie that I been telling my entire fucking life I feel sluggish I feel tired I feel worthless Uninspired Every time I wake up in the morning I just wanna fall asleep again

Hey, how you doing ? Well I'm doing just fine I lied I'm dying inside

there was so many what if’s on my mind right now

To my future lover, I am warning you it's not going to be easy—everything will not be easy as long as you are with me. For I will need constant reminder; that you love me, that I matter, that you understand, that you are not going to leave. I always need assurance, I am afraid but will never tell you that I am. I am insecure. I will ask you everyday why me? Of all wonderful people why me? I will tell you that I am fine even if I'm completely not. I will not tell you that I am jealous---I always am, that I hate it when someone is holding your shoulders, that I envy those people who can tell you what they want. I will tell you that leaving me is always the best option—even if I don't want you to leave, I will ask you to. And... I will give you hugs when you don't actually need them, I will bite your cheeks, and will do things you might not like. I will not ask you if you are okay, because you don't need to be, we don't need to be okay. I will hold your hands to show everyone that you are mine. I will be sweet for a moment then so aloof the next moment. I am a storm with a silent thunder, a dying flower, a cloudy summer, a hole. I am a warning sign, a vacant-broken-chair, a pen without the ink. I am the not-so-important part of the puzzle so it's okay to lose me. —Ireng Novero//