They Say It's All In Your Head

when I left for a trip, I arrived to the home of someone I hold dear weighing around 120 lbs. I managed to get down to 117, under her watchful eyes, and came home back to around 130. I didn’t have enough time to get down again before leaving for her, to her, again and came back 2.5 months later weighing 150. trauma happened and I gained even more, while the scale gained dust, and I lost myself.

I’m trying to break into the 140s.

And she’s no longer here to stop me.

The man I love left me and I lost 15 lbs.

And the woman I love keeps going off the radar.

I feel like I can do it again.

115 is calling my name.

It is.

It’s time to woman up again.

Nothing is stopping me this time.

No woman, no man, no family dinners, no reunions, no trips, no...nothing.