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Everything has changed and he blames me but I say it’s our lack of communication.

Now I’m just Sitting here crying on the bed.

listen closely 

Since then, we’ve both been trying to do better and we’re both happier. He’s moving forward and so am I and together we are moving forward. Now, I feel like we’re back on track and ready to settle down again.

We both want a girl and even though I know it’s not a sure thing we’re trying to go off of the old wives tales and such to have a baby girl. In reality though, we’re happy with either one. I can’t wait to be pregnant.

I think my relationship is ending and I'm literally hanging on to every good moment trying not to make it happen. Then there's something that's like "why is this not a red flag to you?" And "why doesn't this make you want to run?" I just can't stand to be around him anymore and I think that's my say of hardening myself so that when it happens it won't hurt as much. We just don't fit together. I thought we worked because we were opposites but we are too different to make this work. I can feel it in all the parts of myself that make me ME.

We fought before 6am this morning. Like seriously. You say 2 babies our whole relationship and now all of a sudden you're saying 1 of course I'm going to be mad. Like wtf. And then you tell me to go ask Brandon to help me with our problems. Like fuck you. QUIT BEING A LITTLE BITCH AND TALK TO ME!! Like idk what you want me to do. You don't want to talk about but yet it obviously still bothers you. You acted like you had moved on and then you bring it up out of no where. No. Just no. That's not how it works.