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Have you guys seen what China has been doing to Muslims? Have you seen such torturous actions to a group of people who believe a certain religion? History is happening once again.

A video of a girl raising awareness of what is happening in China and what they've done to Muslims has been taken down, all because the video was uploaded on a platform created under the Chinese government.

UN! UN! We know you guys are aware of these actions, we know the union was created to avoid history unfolding itself. Isn't there an article created under the UDHR that we cannot do harm to a person who has a certain belief?

And i don’t fucking understand my feelings

         Help me! please help me! I want to cry, but I’m too lazy or tired to shed tears. I want to sleep, but guilt and terror hinders me from doing so. I love sleep, but i’m terrified of dreams. My heart is racing as if I was running, but i’m here on the bed typing how I feel without anyone in my life knowing I have felt this way. I am dramatic, I admit that, but I fear someone will have that one thought of me, that I assumed wrong regarding my feelings. 

          It is with a heavy heart that I admit to wrong doings, I procrastinated, therefore having such emotions this eve. For the past 2 weeks, I haven’t felt like myself. I wasn’t as confident, I was very terrified of judgement, I was unmotivated, I hated myself, I don’t know anymore; I was lost. Maybe it was because of that story of someone who was depressed, or maybe it was my period. 

          All I know is that I’m sad. 

based on a true event...

          As the teacher discusses about the liturgical year I sketch with the pen and paper present on my desk. All of a sudden the teacher asked a question, “how close are you with your parents?”, and goes on about how important communication is in the family. Another question was brought up which caught the attention of a girl across the room. Whatever she said made the teacher go off topic. All of a sudden her discussion on the liturgical year has become an opening up session, where that girl opens up on how her parents disregard whatever she wanted to say to them, or the fact that they may be to busy to talk to their own daughter. Personally, we can all say that the parents seem horrible and ignorant, and I feel bad for that student, I see her along the corridors every day, but not once have I seen her have other students around her, or laugh, talk, and eat with her, it has always been her with earphones attached to her iPad. The fact that even outside the house, she too couldn’t open up or have a conversation with anyone; maybe it was her style? Not sure.

          After the girl has told the class on why children could not open up or have simple conversations with them, the teacher announced to the whole class that she is available to have conversations like that, and we could talk to her privately. She then suggested that it would be great if they could have a talk with her at a diner which was across the school. What a coincidence, that is the same diner that girl who had opened up goes to every lunch. I saw her eat there several times, and not a single time have I seen her with anyone; maybe it was bad timing.