i feel so strange in this body i ask myself every day why i was given this femininity and why my figure is conventionally beautiful  because i don’t use these things i always cover my body in the largest clothes i can find and some days anyone looking at me and my body is upsetting yet there are so many women who can’t see their own bodies like i see my own body and they want so badly to look like i do and for them beauty and femininity would be a gift that they would cherish every day and allow others to appreciate when most women hear “love yourself” they think about need to love their body more and i envy those women because whenever i hear “love yourself” all i can think about is how unlovable my soul is