music goes hard but i’m harder

“Everyone’s A Star” album announcement post i made

i made this when the news first dropped and was proud of it. i tried having a music account on tiktok but idk if it’s working

oh we are eating good this summer

idc that olivia rodrigo’s theme is little girl in 1960s preschool she is a KNIGHT.

i also don’t know the vibes of gracie abram’s new album but i thought it would fit there

1. drop dead 3:44

halloween 2024. a time i think fondly of when it should really be in the shame bin of my brain

2. stupid song 3:29

that whole period where all we did was lay in bed and look at each other, not talking at all. feeling like you’re about to blow up with how much love is being kept inside and not acted on

when we kissed for the first time after all that time and it feeling like sparks but remembering we weren’t at the finish line

3. honeybee 3:43

finally just saying fuck it and being together for real

in the summer walking around the park next to your house and it was dark and warm and the only thing lighting your face was the street lamps with slightly sunned glass and we’d sneak kisses even though it was just us there

when you played this random piano for me outside in the downtown area and we both sat on the bench and i layed my head on your shoulder with my hood up listening and it was like 9pm and raining

4. maggots for brains 4:00

when i felt sick going to work because all i wanted to do was creep back into bed with you and i replayed the fantasy of feeling safe next to you at 3 am when we’re sleeping and we got nowhere to go today or tomorrow and it’s cold outside and i was visibly sad on the clock because i just missed you and i would think about it from like 5am to 3pm

that foggy period when all i would do was smoke myself retarded on every single day off so i couldn’t think about anything and time would pass quicker

5. u + me = <3 4:07

when i couldn’t go a sentence without mentioning you or a night without dreaming of you

and when we went to your family’s beach trip and we just stayed in our own world because no one wanted to hang out with us

when we were being obnoxious in public and shoving each other on the sidewalk after dinner

when i told you i didn’t feel like a girl when i was with you and you understood

6. my way 3:00

when i said you know your place and my best friends will be sitting with me at the wedding dinner to my friend in the pool

when we both watched that video about cheating and we looked at each other and said “whoops” “oh no” “ouch” darn” “what can you do” and then kissing (we know we’re going to hell)

when i told you i didn’t think she was a good girlfriend and she took you for granted

7. purple 4:00

nashville when when danced in the kid rock bar and it felt like we were the only ones there and there was no sound. just you.

when i got my own drawer in your bathroom to leave stuff

8. the cure 4:57

when i stopped taking my lexapro for a few weeks and i lowkey felt like i needed to die and i didn’t want to tell you

when my mom was driving me home from work and i told her i forgot how it felt to feel that way every single day and i just raw dogged that for years

when i cried for 3 days straight thinking i wasn’t worth anything for you to sacrifice

9. begged 3:37

when it was winter but sunny out i was driving home from work excited to talk about our plans but you tell me your friend is in town and i let you ditch me to hang out with them

10. what's wrong with me 3:44

when i layed on the couch listening to my mom cry because i told her i didn’t want to take care of myself and didn’t want to tell you that either

when i woke up feeling okay and decided to not spiral about feelings i havent encountered yet about things that haven’t happened yet to us and the way we are is for real but it’s not life shattering and my mom told me it’s normal to feel that way about us and it was one of her reassuring talks where we go shopping or get food somewhere after not getting out of bed for days

11. less 3:13

that period when we became friends but and did stuff together and we went back in forth on instagram while i was in the library trying to cram for an important test and all i could do was cry silently because i thought i was losing you

12. expectations 3:41

when you became an unemployed chud and wasted all your time rotting in bed instead of hanging with me

and then when i got mad that it felt like i was being the bread winner overworked wife that does everything for the family and we aren’t even married or own anything together (i complained to my mom like she isn’t living this every day)

13. cigarette smoke 5:40

my last winter break in college. the one where i didn’t talk to you at all and i was gonna let go of you

but i still love you more than anything and i hope life will let me keep you