mentally ill dyke

when restriction brain fog and period brain fog join together to make it impossible to form a coherent thought

finally gotten to the point of restriction where i get irrationally angry n its taking everything in me to chill the tf out and not get snappy w my coworkers

i haven’t eaten in six days, i’ve never felt worse but at the same time i’ve never felt better

i hate my ed bc why was i eating fruit fine 3 days ago but now im scared of it wtf

this relapse hitting different right now 😁

oh free appetite suppressant just dropped 🤩🤩🤩

what if i just don’t eat for all of november 🤩

it’s crazy how an ed is just simply not eating like i don’t have to do anything n i still fail at it

i wanna off myself 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

unemployed so it means i’m back full time w an eating disorder :D

i’m moving soon so im going thru all my clothes and seeing how much smaller i used to be is making me so sad :( like i genuinely had such a distorted view of my body and i wish i appreciated it more

being a unlikable friendless loser is actually so miserable 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

just put on an outfit i havent worn in years and i might just end it 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

i miss the height of my ed so bad i genuinely feel insane

me being proud that i havent started drinking again while ignoring that i started purging again