The Curby

Right after rh chag was offered a merger for the company I abandoned.

They have 12m ebitda, are raising 100m, and we asked for a third.

I've been kicking myself for the past few trying to get this model out for a vc deal. Almost have most of it done this week. So close. Almost all the work finally came through, breakthrough, this week.

I gave all my business, sidehustles and opportunities away and shifted all of my focus to one venture there.

I budgeted enough for the year, lease signed. Head rested against the window of my uber.

I felt like I had nothing else to think or worry about. I felt free.

After only a few minutes on my ride to the airport I get a call on my phone....

On my Uber ride to the airport, I get a call from the police, and a few minutes later an email from an architect.... I had amassed $34,000.00 in expenses in that uber ride.

As I landed in bosnia those expenses added up to $92,000.00. Ninety two thousand dollars.

A squatter moved into my apartment and my lease couldn't end. 6-12 months at $8,500.00 per month in rent. $12k for some bullshit. $6k for being honest. More for the attorneys. And I thought I left everything behind.

And I thought I budgeted enough for the year. I did. I did.

Aside from this slap in the face, I'm forced to be more driven than ever.

We have no grandiose desires.

That I'll always.

We're not told to believe that people are not gods. We're told to not believe in any other gods. There are no other gods. We are being told that no other people exist. There are no other people.

I am god.

There are no other gods.

Tie a knot when you need to, and not until then. Hammer yourself in. Like climbing a.mountain

Suspend all disbelief.

Nothing bad will happen.

Let loose.

Don't creep. Or tip toe.

Don't be careful.

Be confident. Be in control of yourself.

Run. Clench your fists.

Act forward. Decisively.

Take hold of your life.

Recognize how much you can affect.

Feel your repercussions.

Engineer the ripples in your favor.

Lasso a chord around your dreams.

Pull them in and march.

Walk blissfully and at peace always.

There is no harm.

Hold hands with Satan.

Don't keep grip away from him.

Stab him when he's too strong.

Rejoice, repeat and continually get a greater control of your life until a new Satan present itself and you are much greater than them. You can step on them if need be, or show them a great time and make them better.

If holding on to Satan leave, only return if it's the greatest opportunity for you but always keep yourself living.

You don't want to know.

I'll kiss your forehead when we meet.

I'll hold you when we sit together.

I'll kiss your cheeks when you rest your head.

I'll hug you before I leave.

I'll make you handicapped the night before.

I'll tell you your beautiful every morning.

I'll grab your ass when opportune.

I'll buy you flowers at random intervals.

I'll send you love letters in the mail.

I'll give you warmth when it gets cold.

I'll surprise you when you least expect it.

I'll live in your eyes forever.

I'll never forget your smile.

And I'll always hold your soul deep in my chest.

I'll pretend to listen to you for hours.

I'll decide what your eating.

I'll take you on random vacations without telling you.

I won't put up with any of your nonsense.

Don't try to test me, I will leave.

I will have a prenup.

I won't say I love you first.

I will say I love you too.

I think I have to find the balance between criticism and "telling the truth".

I will communicate with you.

I will protect you as best I can.

I won't tell you much about my work, only the success.

I'll take you to Broadway, and a hot air baloon.

I'll show you the INS and outs of japan

I'll go tramping with u.

Let me squeeze your nose.

I'm going to write. Abooqk

I'll buy you clothing I want you to wear.

We will be showstoppers

I'll call you really ugly.

Why are you so ugly.

I've been there done that. Thanks God my parents provided.

And I have a story to tell.

A person of or from greater or equal means won't need to over compensate.

I don't want someone coming and being like, woah he's well off, he can provide for me.

I'd rather have someone who doesn't need that. They've also been there done that.

Be happy in my little apartment, let's snuggle, all we need is a good time.

The rat race is for rats.

Cheap vacations, hostels, cool places, living below Means.

Once we're married... Maybe I'll start spending a little. But it's the same thing like a girl with her body.

I don't want someone coming after me for my money, or needing to have a g wagon etc.

I don't want someone who get jealous of other peoples material possessions.

Like seriously... Why are we here. For eachother, or are you here to enhance how other people perceive you. So gtfo.

And I don't need to explain that. I just need to be happy. I just need to do what I went. Do what I do to get there. She can either come along the ride or not, I know where I'm heading and I know where I want to go.