bad decisions

i feel like shit like theres no hope for me. i deleted tik tok today and watched the conjuring. i listened to joni mitchell for the first time. i have so much homework. i have a 2.3 gpa. i love lil peep so much. i want tk make the most out of this month and have sk many memories. i want to do thibgs and be someone. make something of yourself. cry on the phone with your best friend. skip all your classes. stay high. drink coffee with dinner. be an elitist. hang out with people uou know are bad news. scream. tattoo yourself in your room. forget to take off your makeup before bed. break all the rituals you used to hold so close to your identity. defend. run. cry.