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I don't know if I'm losing myself, or just my mind.

I saw you

Looking that way you do when you're hopelessly falling for someone.

It's just for the first time in so long,

Until I spent them beside you

I never liked coffee

Until I tasted it on your tongue

I never liked my name

Until I heard it from your lips

I never loved myself

The butterflies within my stomach

Building to a climax

Before erupting 

Sending my stomach into somersaults

But your image is still imprinted on my eyelids

It's been so long since you last held me

But I find your fingerprints on my skin

It's been so long since you last kissed me

But I still taste your tongue in my mouth

It's been so long since you said you loved me

But those are the only words I can hear

We were in a room full of people.

Yet you were completely fixated on me.

But now we're in a room alone

And our eyes cannot meet

I know it's been years now. And I should have forgotten you, like you forgot me. But I just can't. I still think of how you tasted after you smoked that cigarette. How your finger tips felt as they ran down my back. 

"I think I'm in heaven" you said as we sat in your car. 

I should have told you what you meant to me. 

But now I'll never get another chance. 

I know she's so much better for you than I ever was. Than I ever could be.

And I know it's so pathetic, and selfish...but I just can't help myself. 

You're all I wanted and you're all I want, and now I sit here and I go through the motions with someone else. And it looks right, and it seems right but I know inside that it doesn't feel right. 

My hands to not shake when I speak to him. My mind does not fog over.

There's a hole in my stomach, and I don't know what to do. 

I try and fill it with meaningless kisses, but I think I'm only making it worse.

If only I could have said the right thing

If only I could have done the right thing

Perhaps then I wouldn't be sitting here

With you consuming my mind

As I try so desperately

I asked how high

But when I fell