The Forgotten Tale

Dear love. To My Dearest Love, It has been 2 years since we were engaged. It was a wonderful day for it marks the milestone in our lives together, meanwhile planning a lifetime together. For the past one year i have been miserable. I have mood swings; ups and downs in our relationship created too much room for doubts in us, and questions had been asked without an answer for we could never predict our tomorrow nonetheless our future. Yet we are so reluctant to embrace the unknown in our own way. An engagement signifies a readiness to commit, for a lifetime of dreams together, with a mixture of happiness, sadness, frustration, anger, and joy in which we call life. You went down on one knee and to me it symbolised the readiness to make the promise of a lifetime together which you are ready for. Time and time again i broke down for there is no definitive plan in marriage. It seems that it has been more than 6 months for we have went through horrible moments in the car when i broke down in pieces. 6 months ago, a plan from you would have suffice and plans would have been worked on. 6 months then, you told me another 6 months would be good to allow room for more happiness. 6 months later, it would have been 18 months from when i broke down entirely. Are you sure by then you will be ready for whatever comes next? For i have had 18 months of room for doubts, would i be happy then. My dear fiancé, there is no happiness in this engagement since the day you instilled your hesitancy in making plans for us. There is no longer certainty in our future as plans were no longer the places where they belong. Time flies, people change. I hereby relieve you of your duty as my fiancé, and end this engagement as my own unjustifiable suffering may seemingly lead to the end of us. May there be happiness in us without the responsibility of fulfilling duties or promises, without the promises of a lifetime. Or maybe there is no life after all with a broken engagement. As would all therapist say at this stage, it is probably for the best to go separate ways. They would say we are in denial, too hurt and too reluctant to see that our love has long ended, they would say the suffering is just the struggle we do for we did not believe love will end. Blame time, blame people, blame events, or maybe we were just not meant to be after all. I am no longer the girl waiting for you to prove your love to me; for you have taken too much time from me and i have to keep what’s leftover for myself. And i don’t think i want to wait around another year to see what you have to offer anymore; well the thought of our love - faith left my corner last night, and all i have left is sorrow. We are both exhausted. It takes courage to see the end of something once so great. Love is blind after all.