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something along the lines of an introduction

eira. self centered, proud lover&hater, attention seeker, attention escapee, performative, authentic, cringe and cringes, drawn to ordinary and odd, quantum jumps on hyperfixations but always coming back after visa gets renewed, supporter of almost everything, unexpectedly and heartbreakingly critical, compassionate intimidating heart, does the thing to do it, doesn't do the thing out of spite, if you tell me to do it well it's guaranteed i'm bot doing it lol, like everyone else i guess, lives off on short term memory with strong grudge, reserved for hate-to-be-the-one-saying-it person, made things up and eats them up, but at least honest, talks in third person, and i still manage to be an unrealiable narrative, entertains the thought of being disliked but love is everywhere, probably lost every reader in the first sentence kind of pleasure, to be continued-

natural habitat: a room in a house in a world in a reality in a girl who constantly fold thoughts like laundry. yes not stream of thoughts like a cutesy cutie.

dni: people with always have a thing to say, people that are always have to listen, warning: fragile people, "but unwritten ruuules" 🤓, people who carefully reads dni part to see if they can interact, joke, mukbangers, fun and grammar and vocabulary police, actual police, sagittarians, reason jealousy, color bright red, close minded parots, kleptomaniac crows

history: cut her own sentences to a point that now she says almost anything. became 8bit indie horror game character. quote, omg you people can't do anything, unquote. omg you people say anything. us to us, give yourself grace.

🔻recent fears: bug spray suffocation

🔻mood stars: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

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drs i feel comfy to share(one day)

twilight dr(fuck you cullen family, i have my own clan)

weirdland dr (sooooo original of you)

waiting room aka ceo dr

world population 0 dr (all museums free)

interview with the vampire dr (to outcnt lestat, burn down dubai and fight akasha)

twin peaks dr (running the double r so everything is free)

hogwarts dr (to fit in, lying through my teeth)

coven dr (i've never denied power fantasy)

posts(?) idk i don't have one yet, one at a time

blog editorial

shifting and manifesting is the same thing

dreams are shifts

everything is possible and there are things didn't even know they were possible.

i don't care what other people shift for. i have a mouth i judge if i catch you.

wedding song. who?

it's about what you want, what you choose, what you didn't choose and left out, what you decide, what you said real, what you said not enough, what you accepted, what you refused, what you liked and what you hated, what you approved and what you felt disappointed. you say when, you say how, you say what. you say mine. i get to decide. i get to say real or illusion. i get to accuse and i get to declare. repeat. for the first time in a long time i hold the pen, i give the answers. i get to undo everything i beautfully constructed. i get to ruin myself. i get to give myself glory. not anything else, not anyone else, not the concept of time. i claim every heartbreak and joy and every other emotion i have or had because it's all mine. it has always been mine.

not aesthetic because first make it practical. but i copy this table to every script and fill like a employment form 🫯 tables and tables again

do YOU think it's a shift? you can decide. i mean you shift so you decide where to shift. you can script this reality just like others. don't ask me to script it for you. or wait. it's a shift, i'll script it for you.

the day i stopped putting my s/o on a pedastal was the same day i realized i am more powerful, stubborn, bossier and probably crazier than him. which were the traits i found most attractive on him.

how to be disgustingly confident when it comes to manifesting/shifting

starting from the core, drop the modesty. let's be honest, no one is hovering over your script. you want to be the most beautiful person in the world? that's your reality now. you want a jaw dropping fame dr? count me as a fan. you have no business feeling guilty or selfish. BE RELENTLESS. and omg stop with the blushing and cringing, let yourself be

learn to be authentic. how? hate the guts whatever OR whoever stops you from expressing yourself. someone cuts your sentence? say it anyway, maybe a little louder. judgement and criticism will be your fuel because sticking up for yourself will never disappoint you. at the end of you day, if you still feel like "nah, this isn't my thing" regardless of what people say, you'll know what you really want.

foolproof method, one ingredient recipe: YOU!!! say no to everything that makes you feel like you need them. "i need to listen to that subliminal." no. "what about affirming hundred times tonight?" no. "i gotta read that fire post again." nope. you needing something other than yourself to have your desire is um...omg i can't, it literally disgusts you and me now. makes you flinch, flip and throw up. make you say "ew, no i'll pass." because it's an insult to your being, never ever take it

let's nooot pretend. i know it's against the principals of loa for some people but: pretending aka faking aka sleeping one eye open to see if anything has ever changed is relying on something other than yourself, again. this isn't living in the end, which is actually changing the label of your desire. think it like notion page labels, if your desire had a label reads "done", you wouldn't even need to pretend. you'd drop the anticipation, checking and still-waiting feeling that keeps bubbling up in your post shift self convos

be honest to yourself. if you feel like shit, you'll know you feel like shit. stop with the forcing because why would you, an authentic, i-do-whatever-the-fuck-i-want person, force something upon yourself? "i don't like doing this". if it's a method, don't view it like a skill issue. just accept you didn't like the method. it's never about you. i'm sorry but it's like not favouring the color orange and feeling unworthy about it

you are inevitable and let me tell you in visualization language: feel your presence, essence, existence being so powerful nothing can get away. when you look at your current life, the things you have, don't you ever be gloomy like a fallen soldier. look at this life, combination of things that you have no ties with. keep the same powerful feeling in there and make that life, collection of things you've tossed out once, feel claustrophobic with your being. because you are sooooo inevitable, even looking at them makes you feel powerful. "i can change it, and arrange it." and remember nothing can get away from you, not because you've proved you deserve it or affirmed harder but of the way you are. take it as the only reason and claim like a treasure to your identity.