20-Something World

Well, it has been quite a while since I wrote anything on here. Just been so ridiculously busy that I didn't even have time to procrastinate on social networks...

A well overdue update is needed really. Mum came out of a successful operation to remove the cancer from her breast and is coming up to the check up one year on. All hopes going for the all clear!

However, since this whole ordeal with my mother, my Nanna has also been diagnosed with cancer. Her cancer has already spread pretty much everywhere in her body and there is no way of removing it. She has started her chemotherapy to help prolong her life for a bit, but ultimately she has, at most, a year left with us. I was in severe denial to begin with and was beyond sure that it was just a blip in the system and actually she was going to be fine, but I am slowly beginning to accept that this is really happening and spending more time with her and my grandad. 

I just find this whole thing so unfair. The family had just managed to get through this situation with my mum, pulling together (well, most of us anyway, but I won't go into that) and working as a family unit to get by. We has all said "I can't wait for 2014, it will be a new year, a good year" and then cancer rears it's ugly head once again. 

I know that I have a circle of amazingly supportive family and friends which will make getting through this, again, so much easier. 

our eyes are able to scan these different symbols and construct the scenarios and concepts they describe in our mind

and it has really got me thinking.

It's one of those little phrases that make you feel that you need to reflect on your life and the decisions you have made and see whether or not this phrase relates...

If you are one of these people that has made every decision based on the amount of money that it could make you and you get your happiness and highs from seeing lots of numbers in your bank account and not on what would be best for you, your family and loved ones, you haven't quite got your priorities right (In my opinion anyway)

One of the things that I have found by being a student, is that money is not what makes you happy. Yes of course, you need enough to get by (rent, bills, food etc), but as students, we never really have much money to spare, we are always skint and yet, we are almost always happy because we are, mostly, all in the same boat and we just enjoy our time... Apart from when deadlines loom closer, then we become Stressy McStresspants!

The only thing that I really spend the majority of my money on is transport home. I love being with my family and spending time with the people I love at home. Minus the petrol/train money to get home, the happiness with them costs me nothing! And I am always happiest when I'm back in my hometown!

They say the best things in life are free... Actually, the best things in life are not things, they are family, friends and moments in time that you treasure for a lifetime or that make you laugh for that moment and then you forget the next day... The laughs and giggles, the comfortable silences, cuddles and kisses, ridiculous conversations, midnight phonecalls and just being able to be yourself and feel accepted with those around you... That is where happiness lies...

And this quote from John Lennon, it's just beautiful!

So go forth my friends and remember to try and put your happiness before your bank balance (when you can)

I hate this house. I hate this house. I HATE THIS HOUSE!

How is it that just one person can make you feel so angry... Knowing that I have to see his face every day for the next few months is actually making me feel physically sick... He is obnoxious, infuriating and just plain ignorant... 

I don't hate this house... I HATE HIM!!!