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(artwork by anna laura) hi, its me, tetris or grave or what have you..! personal blog (21 any pronouns) ill be posting whatever here..! it will probably end up being mostly personal art or stuff ive drawn for others hummm... i might occasionally talk about stuff im into if im brave enough to put it out into the world <:3 i like to journal and share little silly things in day to day that make me happy... so id imagine thats what this place will turn out to be!

AHHH!!! NO BLOG POSTS PAST FEW DAYS!!! ive been really anxious unfortunately and unfortunately it keeps getting me..! trying to run through the good and bad and mediocre...! - watched hokum, it was just okay!!! not bad, not amazing, but a decent watch. i was excited to make a new friend watching it, and were going to watch sinners tomorrow! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - artfight has been a wash I HAVE TO GET WORKING! im such a bum i havent kept up with it at all... i feel bad about it because there are so many lovely attacks still needing revenges. i really havent drawn much in general... - essay to finish and math and then im free the rest of the evening. i want to draw if i can... ive been hit with hammers! - classes all picked out for next semester, trips in the works, convention plans set up..! yay! - umm ummmmmm what else... AH! picked out chewlery! i get to order that later as a reward for finishing the rest of my homework! gosh, wish i was better with keeping up with people... i love to chat with friends, but im so forgetful, and i get overwhelmed so easily... it doesnt help keeping up with servers is so hard 4 me!!!! X( i know dming people is fine but something in my Soul prevents me . i must overcome this demon holding me back......... i want to reach out to more people that i like talking to ...! i just have such a hard time .... ! ! ! im excited to keep learning in college. i like my math classes a lot, and i got my same math professor for my next math course, which im happy about. today she asked me to draw stuff on the board for her hahaha, it was sweet :) i crushed our lab, too... maths not so bad..! BLUE AND BANYAN! ( thats the characters above) batman knightfall trilogy looks really good and im excited for its release.... my chewlery is gonna have a little batman symbol on it. okk? ok.

actually, now that i think about it, maybe i would be a lantern mouse... they're so cute its unbelievable. i'd love to be one of those little guys. i got to watch a new animated series, and it was fun! it made me miss back when i used to be super into animated media. i'd really like to rewatch cartoon saloon's "The Breadwinner," i remember it having a really profound impact on me when i was younger. they have a new film coming up, "Kindred Spirits," and it looks gorgeous. i'm excited for its release. finally drank that plum soju that's been sitting in the fridge. i'm afraid trying the blueberry has ruined every other flavor for me, it's really that good... ...anyways, unfortunately drinking soju doesn't seem to do much for me, aside from making me a little talkative and very dizzy. red wine has this effect - the dizzy part, anyway - so i don't touch the stuff, but i figured a rice wine would be fine. i might steer clear in the future. it's a totally different feeling than when i've had guinness or vodka and it's not fun lol. im having a hard time enjoying minecraft lately, but i want to be so badly... school's really getting in the way of me being involved in roleplay like that, which is a real shame. i miss it! on to today: quite productive! ive been working on school all afternoon, and that's about all of interest to note so far. i'm hoping to make a big rain world piece this evening. thinking about my cook book again, and books as a whole. i need to work on building up my stamina with reading again, i used to do it constantly and i don't know when i fell out of it! it's so good for you, and there's so much i want to learn. it'd be fantastic for my writing, too, and how am i to say im all about broadening my horizons and learning if i'm not picking up books all the time!? i need to explore more genres. i'm so picky about fiction and fantasy, and often all i want to read when i do pick up a book is something history related. but if i'm into creative writing, it'd serve me well to start investigating more fiction... ah, i know it comes with time, but i want to work on my critical analysis skills more, too. i know i can enjoy reading... i just have to start doing it! picking up habits has always been the hardest part for me. ADHD seems to whisk good ones away as soon as i get them. so close to being finished with my summer classes! i can't believe it! i'm registered for 5 in the fall, but i might drop one depending on how it goes. my current math professor will be my pre-calc professor, too, which is great, because i love the way she teaches! how has your day been?

i was in fact not still hungry after my meal. but i might have a candy for dessert. much to consider

i hung out and played p! with a buddy for the first time which was a blast... turns out high energy jazz music is great for that sort of thing and i gotta tap in in the future!!! then i played lethal for the first time in forever with a buncha new people and it went great!! its been so long since id played i thought id be buns but it went really well. the last time i played was with an old friend of mine, so it brought back a lot of memories. i hope youre well, wherever you are now.. we still think of you...! its always nerve-wracking to meet new people, but i think it went well! oh i was a little nervous beforehand hehe... but everyone was really nice and i had a lovely time chatting it up. im happy to report ill be watching hokum next week with someone i met. i cant wait!!! my list of horror movies i really want to watch: Hokum (YAY), obsession (this might happen with another friend..? i gotta ask. hi if youre here!!!) backrooms, end of oak street, the monkey... theres more but these are the ones that ive really had on my radar. its been a minute since ive seen anything in theaters and now that ive got money in my pocket again, i oughta go see a showing of something... treat myself to the full movie experience B3 movies aren't really my thing, horror's just always called to me! I suppose if you count animated batman films that's also my thing. there's some good stuff coming out in that department too, actually... ive been doing a film analysis essay for my comp class and while the movie wasn't bad, it's kinda grueling... i could half-ass it i suppose... i think id still get an alright grade but what's the point...? im here to learn! or try, hehe... it is a very easy class ... its crazy this semesters almost over already!!! i was freaking myself out over vending the convention this morning, but my buddies have all been so nice and encouraging about it. everyone im going to the con with offered to help and support me since its my first time :3 i want to try and make little collectable cards for the con if i can... how fun would that be?! i know furries love collectable cards and it seems like a really fun little project... id just have to work out the logistics... theyd just be art piece of course. i want to sell zines and sketches as well... nothing too crazy... i cant wait to see everyone!!! now im going to wrap up some math homework, get a yummy drink, and... who knows >:3 the night is young...!