typing… forever

↳ Genre: Angst, Fluff, Slowburn

↳ Pairing: lawstudent!gojo x fem!reader

↳ Warnings: unrequited love, angst, one-sided pining, slowburn, emotional tension, self-doubt, playful banter, satoru being stupid (in his own way), shoko being chaotic, toji being toji, drinking, background teasing, science nerd reader

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“When the heart speaks, the mind finds it indecent to object.“

What you did not expect though, 

was an enigma in the form of a person - the kind you could only read in books,

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The kind you’d rather not read.

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↳ Genre: Angst, Fluff, Slowburn

↳ Pairing: lawstudent!gojo x fem!reader

↳ Warnings: unrequited love, angst, one-sided pining, slowburn, emotional tension, self-doubt, playful banter, satoru being stupid (in his own way), shoko being chaotic, toji being toji, drinking, background teasing, science nerd reader, emotionally constipated gojo satoru

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song for this chapter: let down by radiohead

“Don’t get sentimental — it always ends up drivel.”

You were never fond of truth or dare.

It wasn’t the game itself—it was the surrender that came with it. Sitting cross-legged on the floor, shoulder to shoulder with people you half-trusted, waiting for a bottle to dictate your next move—it always felt like signing a contract you hadn’t read. For as long as the glass spun, your choices weren’t yours. They belonged to the circle, to the expectation that you’d entertain them. One spin, one truth, one dare at a time—your freedom bartered away for the sake of laughter.

And the “truths”—those were worse than the dares.

Because nobody ever told them. You caught on quickly to the pattern: the laughter, the mock-gasps, the carefully selected stories. It was all theater. Every “truth” was a trimmed version of the real thing, palatable lies dressed as honesty.

You noticed. You hated it. And worst of all—you played along.

It was a night in college. One carved into you sharper than most.

Your department’s debate team had just bulldozed through the last rival standing. Victory was loud, too loud. Someone shouted, “Party!” and suddenly the decision was made for you. You were terrible at parties—you always had been—but they only demanded your presence. Show up, Y/N. That’s all.

So you did. You walked into a dim house that smelled of cheap beer and fried chicken, still in your stiff debate uniform, the collar digging at your throat. You hadn’t even bothered to change. The others were already drunk on victory and vodka, laughter ricocheting off the walls, chants of “MVP! MVP!” rattling your ears.

You hovered at the edges at first, hugging your bag to your side, watching the group expand and collapse like a lung. You counted minutes. If you stayed an hour, maybe two, no one could accuse you of being a ghost.

And then the circle formed. Carpets scratched as bodies rearranged. A bottle of beer was set in the middle, the glass catching the light as it spun. Truth or dare, someone said, and the noise swallowed you whole.

You told yourself you’d only watch. That you’d be invisible.

But when the bottle slowed, its neck settling at your feet, the air sharpened. Every head tilted. Every voice quieted. The room leaned forward all at once.

You froze.

Maki, sitting two spaces down, smirked into her drink. “Of course it’s you.”

Nobara whistled low, eyes glittering. “Finally. Miss Top of the Class herself.”

Megumi’s brow furrowed, already anticipating the way you’d fold. “She’ll pick truth,” he muttered.

And he was right. “Truth,” you said quickly, predictably, the word so familiar in your mouth it was almost rehearsed.

Groans rose from the group. Someone muttered boring.

Except Yuuji.

Golden boy, captain, reckless to the bone. His grin stretched wide, his eyes narrowing like he was winding up for something brilliant—or something cruel. “We never get to see her like this,” he teased, voice rising to fill the room. “This is our chance to actually get to know Y/N.”

A chorus of laughs answered him. Even Nobara elbowed him playfully, muttering, “Don’t scare her off.”

And then, too quickly, the question:

“Do you really think you’re always the smartest one in the room?”

The words landed like a stone dropped into still water.

Around you, the circle faltered—Nobara’s sharp intake of breath, a nervous laugh trying to cover the silence, Megumi leaning in as if to patch over the crack Yuuji had just made. But their voices blurred, distant, as though the room had shifted three steps away from you.

Someone coughed too loudly to break the silence. Nobara smacked the back of his head once, twice, nails digging into his arm. “What kind of question is that?” she snapped.

Yuuji winced, trying to laugh it off. “What? It’s just—she’s brilliant! It’s not an insult, it’s—”

“Shut up,” Nobara hissed.

Megumi leaned closer, voice low, cautious. “He didn’t mean it like that.” His eyes flicked to you, searching for a crack in your composure. You didn't hear it. If you did, it fell muted on your ears;

All you could hear was the question itself, reverberating. Louder. Sharper.

Because it wasn’t really a question. It was an accusation.

And the worst part—the part that made your stomach twist—was that the answer was yes.

Yes, you did think that.

Not in the way he meant, not in arrogance, not in cruelty—but in inevitability. Because the patterns in numbers bent toward you. Because theorems and laws untangled themselves at the lightest touch of your pen. Because science was a language your body already spoke fluently, while others were still learning the alphabet. You couldn’t help it. You didn’t force it. It just happened.

And maybe that was what you hated most: that it came so naturally you no longer knew where the work ended and where you began.

Am I always the smartest in the room? You’d never say it aloud. You’d never give them that truth. But in the quiet space of your own head, you knew it. You’d known it for years.

You boxed away medals not because you were humble, but because their shine became redundant. You stopped trying, not because you weren’t driven, but because you didn’t have to. Everything came easily. Too easily.

So when Yuuji asked the question, what you heard was: Don’t you hate yourself for it?

And maybe, sometimes, you did.

So you gave them the smallest answer you could. A single syllable, stripped of weight, hoping it would satisfy them.

“No.”

The bottle spun again. The circle lurched forward. Laughter filled the gap where your honesty should have been.

But inside you, the echo lingered, thrumming like a secret you’d never let touch the air.

The circle shifted uncomfortably. A laugh too brittle, too quick, tried to cover the silence, but it only made the air heavier. Yuuji’s cheeks burned crimson as he muttered a stammered apology, fumbling over his words.

You gave him an out with a quiet, “It’s okay, Yuuji.” But he didn’t let it go.

The rest of the night, he stuck to your side, clinging to your sleeve like a guilty child, mumbling apologies and, “I didn’t mean it like that!” over and over again until the words lost all shape.

“For the record,” Megumi said dryly, finally prying Yuuji off with a sharp tug, “I beg to differ.” His eyes cut briefly to his best friend, irritation sharp, before turning back to you. His tone softened, but his words didn’t. “Everything comes too easy for you. It’s painfully obvious.”

And he was right.

Everything did come too easily. That was the truth—the one you’d never hand over to a spinning bottle.

Equations that tangled your classmates came to you like lullabies. Theorems, cycles, biochemical pathways—they unraveled effortlessly under your pen, falling into place like beads on a string. Where others burned midnight oil, clawing through textbooks with desperation, you coasted. Victory never tasted like blood or sweat. It was handed to you on a plate you didn’t ask for.

And at some point, you stopped reaching. Because what was the point, when brilliance was already in your hands?

You had always known—deep in your marrow—that you were meant for the spotlight. Every breath, every beat of your blood seemed calibrated for it. You were born to be seen.

And yet, you resisted. Again and again. You let others claim the podium, the medal, the recognition. You folded yourself smaller, stepped aside, dimmed your light enough to survive in the shadows. You told yourself you didn’t need the world’s eyes on you. That knowing what you could do was enough.

Except—sometimes, it wasn’t.

Sometimes the pull came back. That sharp, insistent tug, like gravity refusing to let you drift. A reminder that you were built for more. That hiding didn’t erase what lived in you—it only delayed the inevitable.

And now—standing on the deck of the yacht, salt air in your lungs and laughter spilling faintly from behind you—you felt it again.

It wasn’t a medal. It wasn’t a competition. It was a man.

White hair catching the last of the sun, strands burning gold for an instant before fading to moonlight. Broad shoulders framed against the horizon, posture loose but somehow commanding, as if the sea bent around him instead of the other way around. Eyes fixed on the world beyond like he could see something no one else could.

Gojo Satoru.

The sight of him pulled at something buried. Not the sharp, competitive pull of science or study. Something slower, heavier, more dangerous.

And this time—you didn’t look away.

This time, you let yourself feel it, let yourself take one small step toward the thing you had always denied yourself.

Maybe just this once.

You blinked, the echo of Yuuji’s question finally loosening its grip. The sea air pulled you back to the present—the sharp tang of salt, the hum of the yacht’s engine, the glow of the sun bleeding into the horizon.

Voices drifted around you. Toji leaned against the rail, speaking low to the captain. “Tanaka-san. Let’s stop by Hamanoura—good town, good food. Been a while since I’ve had their sea bream.”

The captain gave a small nod, hands steady on the wheel. The yacht shifted course, slicing toward the coast.

Around you, the group stirred. Shoko slid her sunglasses higher, already smirking at the thought of dinner. Utahime tucked a ribbon into her book with a satisfied little sigh. Gojo straightened, hands sliding into his pockets like nothing in the world could rattle him.

You pulled yourself from the rail and slipped below deck.

When you returned, the air shifted.

It wasn’t intentional—you hadn’t planned to catch anyone’s attention. It was just a light dress, something easy, something that wouldn’t cling in the heat. But under the late afternoon glow, the fabric caught the breeze, moving like it belonged against the sea.

Shoko spotted you first. She slid her shades down just enough to peer over them. “Well, look at you. Trying to outshine the whole town?”

You tugged at the hem, cheeks heating. “It’s just a dress. And I’m running out of clothes.”

“Mm-hm,” she hummed, not convinced.

Behind her, Toji let out a low whistle. Utahime swatted his arm without looking up.

Gojo said nothing. But his head tilted once, briefly, before he looked away again—like maybe he hadn’t meant to look twice.

Hamanoura was already awake when the yacht pulled in. The small harbor shimmered with lanterns that swayed in the breeze, their warm glow mirrored in the water below. Voices layered over one another—vendors hawking fish straight from their boats, children chasing each other between stalls, an old shamisen strumming faintly from the corner of a teahouse. The smell of grilled mackerel and soy smoke clung to the air, weaving with something sweet—red bean, maybe, or candied chestnuts.

The moment your feet hit the dock, Shoko grabbed your wrist. “We’re trying everything,” she declared, already tugging you forward with a determination that could move mountains. Her sunglasses had been abandoned hours ago, but the smirk she wore was shield enough. “Y/N, you’re my partner today. Don’t argue. Just eat.”

You barely had time to laugh before she dragged you into the pulse of the crowd.

Utahime, in contrast, peeled away instantly. A hand lifted in parting, quiet as ever, before she slipped toward a narrow shop with stacked books spilling out the door. The carved wood sign swayed with the breeze, the faint smell of ink and paper drifting out like a promise. Of course she’d find her sanctuary here—amidst spines and stories, away from the noise.

Toji was the opposite. His head jerked toward a man yelling about “the freshest skewers in the prefecture,” and within seconds he’d vanished after him, broad shoulders cutting easily through the crowd. Somewhere in the distance, his low laugh carried above the din—already bargaining, already charming someone out of an extra serving.

But the man you were hyperaware of—despite not looking his way—just lingered.

He didn’t move when the others scattered. He trailed at the edge of your group like gravity worked differently on him, hands deep in his pockets, pace unhurried. Even with the swell of people around you, his height was impossible to lose. Lantern light brushed silver across his hair, the faint tilt of his head catching the glow like a halo.

You told yourself you weren’t looking for him. That it was just convenience—he was easy to spot, after all. But still, your eyes found him again and again, weaving him back into the edges of every scene.

Shoko thrust a skewer into your free hand, breaking your focus. “Eat. No excuses.”

You blinked down at it, grilled bream still steaming, the faint char snapping at your nose. Shoko was already halfway through hers, chewing with the satisfaction of a woman who’d just proven her own point.

You opened your mouth to thank her—then felt it. A shift, the smallest brush. When you turned, Gojo was there, closer than you’d realized, one hand lifting to adjust the strap of the bag slung over your shoulder. He didn’t say anything, just fixed it with a casual flick before stepping back again, like it had been nothing.

You felt your cheeks redden at the touch, eyes shyly flickering to him for a brief second, "Oh—I didn't notice," you murmured, "Thank you."

All he did was hum in return, settling next to you. But the fabric still felt warmer where his fingers had been.

For a few steps, that was it—the shuffle of sandals on planks, the hiss of grills, the distant chatter of vendors. Then his voice slid in, quiet enough to almost be lost in the noise.

“You pack bricks in here or something?” His chin tilted toward your bag.

You blinked. “What?”

“It nearly pulled your shoulder off.” His expression didn’t change much, but you caught the faintest crease at his brow. “What’s in it?”

Heat rose to your cheeks. “Essentials. And maybe a book or two,” you admitted reluctantly.

That earned the smallest twitch at the corner of his mouth, like he’d expected nothing less. “Of course.”

You straightened, defensive. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Nothing,” he said, too casually. Then, after a beat, “Just explains why you trip like gravity likes you more than most.”

Your mouth fell open. “I don’t trip.”

He glanced down at your sandals, then back up with deliberate slowness. “…Sure.”

You bit back a laugh, cheeks warming. “You’re impossible.”

“Mm,” he hummed again, turning his attention forward, though the faint curl at his mouth betrayed him.

Before you could fire back, Shoko’s voice cut through the air like a whip. “Oi! Y/N! Come on, partner—don’t slow down now.” She was already posted in front of another stall, triumphantly holding a grilled squid skewer in one hand, candy apple in the other. “We’re on a mission.”

You groaned, but let yourself be tugged toward her, sneaking one last glance at Gojo. He hadn’t moved, just shifted his hands deeper into his pockets and followed, unhurried as ever.

The stalls blurred into one another—rows of lanterns, bright cloth banners painted with fish or flowers, smoke curling into the evening sky. You let Shoko shove more food into your hands, let the chatter of the crowd cover the small, nervous rhythm still tapping at your chest.

Then, just past the crush of a takoyaki stand, you saw it.

A small shop tucked between two larger stalls, half-hidden under a crooked wooden awning. No flashy banners, no shouting vendor. Just a single lantern swinging above the doorway, and inside—shelves spilling with trinkets. Old paperbacks stacked like uneven towers, boxes of postcards yellowed with age, ceramic cats with chipped ears, and in the corner, a display of cameras—bulky old models with cracked leather straps and polished lenses that caught the lamplight.

You slowed.

Something about it called to you—the quietness, maybe, the sense of forgotten stories waiting to be found.

You excused yourself with a small laugh, slipping your wrist free of Shoko’s grip. “Five minutes. I just want to check that shop.”

Shoko groaned like you’d betrayed her, but waved you off with the skewer still in her mouth. “Fine. Don’t take forever, scientist.”

The store wasn’t much at first glance. Wedged between a yakitori stall and a fortune-telling booth, its wooden sign had half its paint peeled away, the remaining characters faded to pale strokes. But the moment you stepped through the doorway, the air shifted. Cooler. Dustier. Quiet, like you’d just ducked beneath the tide.

It smelled of cedar and old paper. The shelves leaned with books—some in Japanese, some in English, spines cracked and pages sun-bleached. Beneath them, glass cases displayed trays of trinkets: enamel pins, porcelain brooches, a scattering of pressed flowers sealed in resin. In the back corner, a basket of thrifted odds and ends overflowed—cassette tapes, fountain pens, cameras with leather straps worn soft by other hands.

Your breath caught on a small sound of recognition. Cameras.

Not sleek digitals, not anything you’d see in an electronics store now. These were old—chunky, deliberate things. A Canon AE-1, its metal edges dulled by years of handling. A Polaroid 600 with rainbow stripes faded but intact. Even a twin-lens reflex camera sat proudly on the top shelf, its lenses reflecting the faint glow of the lantern outside.

You brushed your fingers over the strap of the Polaroid, reverent. It was imperfect, scuffed at the corners, but still humming with possibility. Proof pressed instantly onto paper—no edits, no second chances. A memory you couldn’t rewrite.

That same reverence carried you to the books. You traced your fingers along the spines until one title snagged at you: Deep-Sea Hydrothermal Vents and Extremophile Microbes. Niche. Dense. Most people would never give it a second glance.

Niche. Pointless to most. But you smiled as you picked it up, thumbing through pages of hand-drawn diagrams and meticulous notes. You pulled it free, flipped a page, and felt something loosen in your chest.

It wasn’t the subject—you already knew it well. It was the reminder. That even here, surrounded by laughter and food and strangers, you could find pieces of yourself tucked away. Forgotten by others, waiting for someone who cared enough to notice.

“You’d carry that in your bag, too, wouldn’t you?”

You jumped, nearly dropping the book. When you turned, Gojo was leaning against the doorframe, one shoulder braced casually against the wood, watching you with that infuriatingly calm expression.

Your lips parted, a retort on the tip of your tongue—but the faintest amusement tugged at his mouth before you could say anything.

You lifted the book slightly, almost defensive. “It’s about bacteria that thrive in boiling water. At the bottom of the ocean. Isn’t that fascinating?”

A beat. His lips twitched. “Sounds like bedtime reading.”

Your cheeks warmed. “You’d be surprised. They survive in environments we call uninhabitable. No light, toxic chemicals, crushing pressure. But they adapt anyway. They make life where nothing should exist.”

The spine crackled softly as you flipped through the pages, skimming over sketches of shells and anemones, notes scribbled in careful, old-fashioned handwriting. Your chest buzzed in that familiar way—like you’d stumbled onto a secret only you cared about.

“This,” you murmured, almost to yourself, “is incredible. Do you know how many species of crabs live in tide pools alone? They create these micro-ecosystems where every shift in salinity, every ripple, changes the whole balance. Most people walk past them without even noticing, but they’re entire universes in miniature.”

When you glanced up, half-expecting a blank look, you found him closer. Not too close, but enough that you realized he’d stepped fully inside the shop. Gojo leaned lazily against the counter, hands in his pockets, head tilted in that way he had when he was pretending to be disinterested—but his eyes were on you.

“Micro-ecosystems,” he echoed, the words slow on his tongue.

You felt your cheeks warm. “Sorry. I know it sounds boring.”

He shook his head once. “Not boring.” His gaze flicked from the book back to your face. “Guess you like things most people overlook.”

You swallowed, hugging the book closer. “Maybe. It’s like… the smaller the world, the more precise it has to be. You can see the whole chain of life in the span of a rock.”

Gojo hummed, low in his throat, the sound unreadable. Then: “Sounds like you.”

Your head snapped up. “What?”

He shrugged, as if it wasn’t anything. “Precise. Always looking at details everyone else skips.”

For a second, you forgot how to breathe. You laughed it off, awkward, shaking your head. “You can’t compare me to crabs.”

His mouth twitched, not quite a smile. “Didn’t say crabs. Said tide pools.”

You pressed your lips together, unsure how to answer. He didn’t push. Just let the silence hang, easy, like he had all the time in the world to let you collect yourself.

Your eyes darted toward the shelves, searching for a deflection. “What about you? Anything catch your eye?”

His gaze skimmed the displays with the barest effort before landing on a bulky old Polaroid, its strap fraying at the edges. He reached out, lifted it with one long hand, and tested the weight. “This.”

You tilted your head. “You like photography?”

“Not really,” he admitted. His eyes shifted back to you, pale and sharp under the lamplight. “But you seem like the type who’d take pictures of rocks just to prove a point.”

You gaped, then burst out laughing, clutching the tide pool book to your chest. “You’re insufferable.”

“Mm,” he said, but his mouth curved just slightly. “Go on. Show me how it works.”

And before you could protest, he held the Polaroid out to you, like he wasn’t planning to leave until you did.

Gojo shifted the Polaroid in his hand, turning it over like he was weighing whether it was worth his time. You reached for it before he could change his mind, brushing against his fingers in the exchange.

“Careful, this one’s old,” you said, cradling it with both hands as if it were fragile. You fiddled with the viewfinder, angling it toward the shop’s shelves. “You can’t just click and check the screen—this spits out a film you have to wait on. Delayed gratification.”

“Sounds tedious.” His tone was flat, but his eyes tracked every movement of your hands.

“It’s charming,” you corrected, tilting your head so you could peer through the lens. “Watch.”

Before he could ask what you meant, you snapped the shutter. The camera whirred and a square photo slid out with a soft hiss. You held it carefully by the edges, placing it on the counter to let it develop.

He leaned closer—not much, but enough that his sleeve brushed against yours as he bent to look. “Huh.”

The photograph slowly bloomed into shape: a row of mismatched teacups on the shelf, caught in a blur of lantern light.

“Not bad,” he murmured, though his gaze lingered less on the photo and more on the concentration still written across your face.

“You try,” you said quickly, thrusting the camera back into his hands.

Gojo blinked. “Me?”

“Yes, you. Point, shoot. Easy.”

His lips twitched, but he raised the camera without complaint. For a moment you wondered what he’d choose as his subject—but the shutter clicked, and when the photo slid out, you realized he hadn’t aimed at the shelves at all.

It was you.

You blinked down at the developing square, cheeks warming as the image took shape: your face caught mid-surprise, the tide pool book still clutched to your chest.

“You—why would you—”

“You said point and shoot.” He shrugged, casual, tucking the camera under his arm like it had been nothing. But there was a faint crease at the corner of his eyes, something dangerously close to amusement.

Before you could retort, a voice interrupted.

“Ah!” The shopkeeper emerged from behind the counter, an older woman with silver hair pinned into a neat bun. Her eyes lit up as she saw the two of you standing side by side, Polaroid between you. “Young love, hm? So sweet. First time in Hamanoura?”

You nearly choked. “W-we’re not—”

But she was already bustling forward, plucking the Polaroid gently from Gojo’s hand. “A lovely couple like you must have a photo to remember it by. Here—stand together, I’ll do it.”

Your pulse skyrocketed. “Oh, that’s not—”

Gojo moved before you could finish, one large hand settling lightly at the small of your back. Not possessive, not dramatic—just a simple pressure guiding you closer until your shoulders brushed.

“Go on,” he said evenly, gaze fixed on the shopkeeper. “She insists.”

The world tilted. You froze, every nerve suddenly alight with the warmth radiating from his palm.

The woman lifted the camera, grinning. “Closer, closer!”

Gojo obliged, leaning in just slightly. His sleeve brushed your arm again, his breath grazing your temple as the shutter clicked.

The Polaroid spat out, developing slowly in the shopkeeper’s hands. She fanned it gently before presenting it to you both with a triumphant smile.

“There,” she said. “Something to remember tonight by.”

You stared at the Polaroid as the colors bled slowly into focus, the image developing like a secret being revealed.

Lantern light pooled golden behind you both, softening the edges of the shop’s shelves into a warm blur. The clutter of trinkets framed the photo like a curated backdrop—spines of books stacked unevenly, the gleam of old brass trinkets, a row of seashell wind chimes swaying just enough to look alive.

And there you were.

You hadn’t realized how close he’d drawn you until you saw it frozen on film. Your shoulder tilted instinctively toward his, the fabric of your dress brushing against the dark line of his jacket. Your face—caught mid-laugh, lips parted just enough to show teeth—looked brighter than you remembered feeling, like the camera had caught the precise second your nerves turned into something lighter.

Beside you, Gojo stood impossibly straight, the kind of posture that looked natural only on him. The lantern glow struck his hair, catching it in streaks of silver and gold so sharp it almost looked painted. His expression was typically unreadable—mouth set in a line, gaze steady on the camera—but the faintest crease softened the edge of his jaw, and there was the smallest curve tugging at one corner of his lips. Not quite a smile. Not quite not.

And maybe it was just the light, maybe it was your own heart betraying you—but his body leaned in, just barely, the broad line of his shoulder angling minutely toward yours.

Together, you didn’t look mismatched. You looked—aligned.

You tucked the photo quickly into your bag before you could stare any longer, the warmth in your cheeks refusing to fade.

Gojo hadn’t even asked to see it. He just slipped his hands back into his pockets, eyes already on the door as if nothing had happened.

“Keep it,” the shopkeeper urged, pressing it into your hands before bustling away.

You swallowed hard, slipping it carefully into your bag. “She—uh—misunderstood.”

“Mm.” Gojo’s voice was low, almost a hum. “Happens.”

The Polaroid was still warm in your hand when the shopkeeper reappeared, wiping her palms on the apron tied around her waist. Her eyes flicked to the tide pool book still tucked against your chest, then back to the two of you.

“You want me to ring that up, dear?” she asked kindly, nodding toward the battered spine.

Your cheeks heated, caught off guard. You hugged the book closer, suddenly aware of how ridiculous you must look—clutching it like a lifeline, like a kid refusing to let go of candy at the register. “Ah—I… I don’t know,” you stammered. “It’s a little… nerdy.”

The word tasted embarrassing in your mouth. You laughed weakly, lowering your gaze to the worn cover. “I mean, who else gets excited over tide pools? Everyone else probably comes here for souvenirs or sweets, not… crab taxonomy.”

The shopkeeper only smiled, amused, but it was the quiet hum beside you that made your breath catch.

Gojo tilted his head, hands deep in his pockets, gaze heavy on you. “If you like it, it’s not nerdy,” he said simply.

Your head snapped up. His tone was matter-of-fact, almost bored, but his eyes betrayed him—steady, unwavering, like he was watching for your reaction more than the book.

You opened your mouth, closed it again. “You don’t mean that.”

“Mm.” He leaned casually against the counter, silver hair catching the lantern glow. “I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t.”

The shopkeeper chuckled, already reaching for the book. “He’s right, you know. Nothing wrong with wanting something that makes your eyes light up like that. People spend their whole lives looking for it.”

You glanced between them—her, patient and kind, and him, unreadable but oddly anchored in his certainty—and felt your throat tighten.

“...Okay,” you whispered, sliding the book into her waiting hands.

The register clicked, coins clattered, and in moments the book was wrapped in simple brown paper, tied with string. She passed it to you with the same soft smile she’d given when she’d mistaken you for a couple.

“Take good care of it,” she said. “And let him carry the bag for you. It’s only fair.”

Your blush came back with a vengeance. “Oh—no, that’s not necessary, I can—”

Gojo reached out before you could finish, plucking the bag neatly from your hands. His long fingers hooked easily around the paper handle as if it weighed nothing.

“Mm. She said it’s fair.” His voice was quiet, almost flat—but the corner of his mouth twitched, just enough for you to catch it.

You stared at him, words tangled in your chest, while he adjusted the bag like it was simply another thing he’d decided to carry.

And just like that, the moment belonged to him.

The bell above the shop door chimed as you stepped out into the night again, the warm glow of lanterns spilling over the narrow street. Vendors were still calling out their wares, the scent of grilled fish and sweet soy smoke curling through the air. Shoko’s laughter carried faintly from somewhere deeper in the market, and Toji’s booming voice followed like a second percussion.

But here, just outside the threshold, it was quieter.

Gojo walked beside you, the paper bag dangling casually from his hand. Every now and then, the string creaked against his fingers, a small reminder that he hadn’t given it back. You stole a glance at him, heat still stubborn in your cheeks.

“You don’t have to carry that,” you muttered, trying to reach for it again.

He shifted the bag easily out of reach, his expression as bland as the moon overhead. “Didn’t you hear her? It’s only fair.”

“That was just—” You huffed, stepping around a child darting past with a candied apple in hand. “She didn’t mean it literally.”

“Mm.” His eyes flicked lazily down at you, then forward again. “I’ll hold onto it.”

You narrowed your eyes at him, but something about the way he said it—quiet, final—made it impossible to argue. So you gave up, letting your arms fall to your sides, trying to ignore the stupid flutter in your chest.

A few stalls later, he broke the silence. “The photo.”

You blinked up at him. “What?”

“The Polaroid.” His hand wasn’t extended, but his gaze lingered—pointed, deliberate. “Let me see it.”

Your heart stuttered. You reached into your bag carefully, pulling the photo from where you’d tucked it between the book’s pages. The image had finished developing now, colors richer, sharper—the two of you framed together, the shopkeeper’s lantern light painting the scene softer than reality.

You hesitated for a second, then handed it over.

Gojo took it between two fingers, holding it up to the light. His eyes scanned it once, twice, and for a moment he was perfectly still. The noise of the market carried on, laughter and haggling and music weaving around you both—but he seemed untouched by it, wrapped in the small square of film.

And then—barely. So faint you thought you imagined it—the corner of his mouth curved.

It wasn’t the easy grin he threw at strangers, or the sharp smirk he wore in debates with Shoko. It was quieter, like something had slipped past his defenses without him noticing.

Your breath caught.

But before you could be sure, the expression was gone. He tucked the photo back into your hands with that same cool precision, already walking forward again as though nothing had happened.

“You look like you’re about to laugh,” was all he said, tone unreadable.

You swallowed, tucking the photo back into your bag like it was burning your fingers. “And you don’t?”

He didn’t answer.

But for the first time all night, you swore the air between you felt warmer.

You tucked the Polaroid back into your bag, still feeling the ghost of his fingers on the edge of it. Gojo didn’t slow, didn’t look back, just threaded through the crowd with that same unhurried gait—like people simply moved out of his way without him asking.

You kept close behind, the hem of your dress brushing your legs, cardigan slipping slightly off one shoulder. The book and photo weighed light in your bag, but the warmth curled in your chest felt heavier, harder to ignore.

By the time you caught up with Shoko and Toji, the two were already stationed at a stall lined with glass bottles of ramune. Toji was shaking one like a child, Shoko was arguing with the vendor about carbonation levels, and Utahime stood off to the side, face pinched in long-suffering patience.

“There you are,” Shoko said, her eyes flicking immediately to Gojo—then to the bag in his hand. Her smirk was instant. “Oh? Domestic already?”

Heat prickled at your cheeks. “It’s not—”

“She bought a book,” Gojo interrupted smoothly, setting the bag down on the table with a dull thud. “I’m carrying it.”

Shoko arched a brow. “Mm. Very chivalrous of you.”

“Don’t start,” he said flatly, already reaching for one of Toji’s abandoned skewers.

But Shoko didn’t let it go. Her gaze darted once to you, sly, before she lifted her ramune bottle in a mock-toast. “Cute.”

You shot her a glare, but she only sipped her drink, smug as a cat. Toji was too busy trying to pop the marble out of his bottle to notice, and Utahime just sighed, muttering something about children.

Still, as you slid into the empty seat beside Shoko, your heart was still racing—because when you glanced across the table, you caught him watching you. Not long, not openly. Just a flicker of blue, deliberate enough that you knew you hadn’t imagined it.

The stall clattered with Toji’s failed attempt at opening another bottle. Shoko laughed loud enough to make the vendor roll his eyes, Utahime was already digging for exact change, and Gojo—calm as ever—stole another bite off a plate that wasn’t his.

You leaned back on the bench, letting the lantern glow wash over your face, willing your heartbeat to settle. Maybe no one had noticed. Maybe it was all in your head.

Then Shoko leaned in.

Not dramatically—just enough that her shoulder brushed yours, her voice pitched low so it wouldn’t carry. “You’re glowing.”

You blinked, caught off guard. “What?”

Her eyes flicked deliberately to the bag Gojo had carried, then back to you. The smirk she wore earlier had softened, something sharper underneath. Protective. Appraising.

“You two,” she murmured, swirling her drink idly as if she weren’t cutting you open with words. “We’ll talk when we’re back on the yacht.”

Your stomach dropped. “Shoko—”

“Not now,” she interrupted, light as ever, taking another sip. To anyone watching, it looked like casual chatter. But you felt the weight in it. “Later.”

Then she was tipping her head back, laughing at Toji’s ridiculous story about almost falling off a fishing boat in med school, leaving you frozen, smile plastered on your face like nothing had happened.

Across the table, Gojo’s gaze brushed over you again—sharp, unreadable—before he went back to his food.

And just like that, the noise of the market filled in around you, but the echo of Shoko’s words stayed lodged in your chest.

The deck was quieter than usual. Lanterns in the harbor had dimmed to faint glows, the tide lapped steady against the hull, and the others had already disappeared—Utahime retreating to her books, Toji long since passed out below deck. Even Gojo wasn’t in sight.

But Shoko was.

She sat on the railing, cigarette between her fingers, hair pulled back messily from the sea breeze. When she noticed you hovering, she didn’t smirk the way she usually did. She just patted the bench beside her.

“Sit, Y/N.”

You obeyed. The wood was cool beneath your palms, the air sharp with salt. Shoko dragged her cigarette once, exhaled slow, then turned her head slightly toward you.

“You and Satoru.”

You stiffened. “We’re not—”

“I know.” Her tone wasn’t mocking—it was steady, measured, the way she only ever got when she was serious. “But I’ve been watching you. You don’t hide things from me, Y/N. Not really. And the way you look at him… it’s different.”

Your mouth opened, closed again. No words came.

Shoko leaned back against the railing, cigarette tip glowing faint in the dark. “I’m not here to tell you to stop. You know me better than that. If you like him, you like him. I’m not the type to tear that down. But I need you to understand what you’re walking into.”

Her eyes softened then—fond, but firm. “Because I’ve known you my whole life. You feel everything too much. You give people your whole heart without checking if they’ll protect it. And Satoru…” she exhaled, “he doesn’t even realize what he’s doing when he softens around you. That’s what scares me.”

You swallowed hard. “What do you mean?”

Shoko flicked ash into the sea, watching it scatter. “I met Satoru in my first year of med school. Toji introduced us—he and I were lab partners, and one day he drags me along to this little hangout. That’s where I met Gojo. And Aki.”

The name was gentle but heavy, like a stone dropped into the water.

“Aki was…” Shoko’s lips quirked faintly. “Impossible to ignore. Med student, like Toji. Sharp as hell. Outspoken. She could argue with Satoru for an hour straight and win, and he’d grin the whole time. She was one of those people who could walk into a room of strangers and leave with ten new friends. Kind, too. Not fake kind. The real kind that made you feel seen.”

Shoko paused, taking another drag. Her gaze was faraway now, chasing a memory.

“I remember this one night—we were cramming for exams at Toji’s. I was ready to pass out face-first into my notes. But Aki? She was sitting cross-legged on the floor, rattling off mnemonics for cranial nerves like it was a game show. Toji and I were half-dead, and Satoru—he wasn’t even a med student, but he sat through the whole thing just to watch her light up. She’d test him on anatomy he had no business knowing, and he’d butcher the answers on purpose just to make her laugh. She’d throw a pillow at his head, and he’d look like he’d won the lottery.”

Her mouth twisted faintly. “That’s the kind of couple they were. Easy. Natural. The kind you didn’t question.”

You felt your chest tighten.

“They’d already been together for years by then,” Shoko continued quietly. “High school sweethearts. By the time I showed up, they were almost seven years in. Solid. She matched him in every way that mattered. Balanced him. She knew how to pull him back when he got too sharp, too cold. He knew how to stand behind her without dimming her shine. It was disgusting, honestly.” A small laugh escaped her. “I used to tease Toji about how they made the rest of us look bad.”

The laugh faded.

“Then came London. Three years, full scholarship, med exchange. She wanted it, and Satoru—he didn’t stop her. Hell, he helped her raise money for her trip. I’ll never forget it—he stood in front of the campus gates selling homemade onigiri with Toji, grumbling the whole time, but he stayed there all day because every yen counted. When she boarded that plane, he kissed her like the world wasn’t ending. Told her he’d wait. And I believed him.”

Shoko’s cigarette burned low. She tapped ash into the sea, eyes shadowed. “For six months, they made it work. Calls, emails, stupid little inside jokes over video chat. She’d tease him—‘Don’t get lazy without me’—and he’d roll his eyes but actually listen. He used to stay up late just to match her time zone. Toji and I would drag him out for food, and he’d be half-dead but smiling, because he’d spent the whole night talking to her.”

Her shoulders sagged slightly. “And then… nothing. One day she just stopped answering. First it was a few missed calls. Then weeks. Then months. Toji tried. I tried. But it wasn’t just Satoru she cut off. It was all of us. She disappeared.”

The silence pressed in, heavy and thick.

You stared at the dark water, heart pounding in your chest.

“That’s why he’s the way he is now,” Shoko said softly. “Cold. Reserved. Still waiting, in some part of him, even if he’ll never admit it. He writes to her, you know.”

Your breath caught.

“I’ve never read them,” Shoko added quickly, “but I’ve seen the drafts. Late nights, when he thinks nobody notices. He can’t let her go. And that’s what I need you to understand, Y/N. If you’re going to let him close, if you’re going to let yourself… feel this, you need to know what shadow you’re stepping into.”

Her eyes turned to you then—steady, sharp, but warm. “I’m not against it. I’d never tell you not to care about someone. But guard your heart, okay? Because I know you. You’ll give it all away, even if it breaks you. And Satoru…” she sighed, “he doesn’t even realize how dangerous that is. Not for him—for you.”

You blinked fast, throat tight.

Shoko reached out, squeezed your hand once—firm, protective. “Just promise me you won’t forget who you are in all of this. Because I’ve seen that glint in your eyes, Y/N. And I don’t want it to shatter.”

With that, she stubbed out her cigarette, tossed it overboard, and stood. “That’s enough heavy shit for one night. Sleep.”

She left you there, the tide whispering below, the name Aki echoing in your chest.

When Shoko’s footsteps faded, the sea filled the silence she left behind. You sat there, tracing circles on the wood with your thumb, replaying her words.

He waited for someone who never came back.

And somehow, you were curious enough — reckless enough — to step closer anyway.

Not out of hope. Not out of pity.

But because you wanted to know what kind of man still waited after all this time.

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↳ Genre: Angst, Fluff, Slowburn

↳ Pairing: lawstudent!gojo x fem!reader

↳ Warnings: unrequited love, angst, one-sided pining, slowburn, emotional tension, self-doubt, playful banter, satoru being stupid (in his own way), shoko being chaotic, toji being toji, drinking, background teasing, science nerd reader

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"I’m afraid that if I listen, I’ll find out what I want."

Dinner came alive under the glow of strung deck lights, soft yellow bulbs swaying faintly with the breeze. Toji was at the grill like he owned the place, chest puffed out, flipping skewers with more showmanship than skill. Shoko sat cross-legged with a beer in hand, sunglasses long gone but her smugness still intact, while Utahime fussed over the salad bowl like it was life or death.

You tugged at the sleeves of the oversized hoodie swallowing your frame. You should’ve returned it. You told yourself that every time your fingers curled tighter into the soft cuffs. But the sea wind was sharp now, and the fabric was warm, faintly smelling of coffee and soap and something sharper you couldn’t name.

Shoko spotted it instantly.

“Hold up,” she said, tipping her beer bottle toward you. “Is that—” her eyes narrowed, “—Satoru’s hoodie?”

Your stomach dropped. “What? No, I—”

“Don’t even try,” she cackled, slapping the table. “That’s his. He lives in that thing. I’d know it anywhere.”

Toji barked a laugh. “No way. He gave it to you? Hm," He hummed, looking at Gojo with an unreadable look. "He doesn’t even lend me his lighter.”

Utahime arched a brow, lips twitching. “Color me shocked. Satoru doesn’t share.”

Heat flushed up your neck. “It was cold,” you muttered weakly, trying to disappear into the fabric. “He just—”

“—Don’t make it weird.”

His voice cut across the table.

You froze.

Gojo sat slouched in his chair, soda bottle dangling from his hand, gaze fixed on the horizon like he couldn’t be bothered. His tone was flat, bored even, but the finality in it shut the teasing down instantly. He twisted the cap, took a sip, leaned back.

The silence lasted a beat—then Toji exploded into wheezing laughter, Shoko clapped like she’d witnessed history, and Utahime shook her head, muttering something about children.

You wanted to melt through the deck boards.

But then, across the table, his gaze flicked—quick, sharp—checking if you were embarrassed. Just once. Then gone.

Your pulse stuttered.

Later, when the grill was empty and the beer bottles clinked against one another, the chaos of the table began to die down. Utahime retreated inside to tidy, muttering under her breath about grease stains. Shoko disappeared with her phone glued to her ear. Toji stretched out on the bench, half-asleep, claiming he’d “earned a nap after feeding the masses.”

That left the deck quieter than it had been all evening.

You sat curled into the bench, knees tucked close, the hoodie still wrapped around you. The sleeves slid past your wrists, nearly covering your fingers. You tugged at the fabric absently, trying to focus on the ripple of the sea instead of the memory of Shoko’s grin.

A shadow shifted beside you.

“Y’know,” his voice came low, almost amused, “you wear that like you stole it.”

Your head snapped up. He was standing there with another soda in hand, the deck lights catching faint glints in his hair. His eyes slid to the hoodie, then back to your face, the barest curve tugging at his mouth.

“I—” you fumbled, tugging at the sleeves again. “I was going to give it back.”

“Were you?” He leaned one shoulder against the railing, unbothered. “Doesn’t look like it.”

Your pulse skipped. “You’re the one who shoved it at me.”

“Mm.” He tilted the bottle toward his lips, sipping slow, as though he had all the time in the world. “Guess I did.”

The silence pressed between you, filled only by the hum of the waves.

Then, softly—“Looks better on you, anyway.”

Your breath caught. He didn’t look at you when he said it, didn’t linger. Just tossed the words out like they weighed nothing, like he hadn’t just lit your chest on fire.

You curled deeper into the fabric, hiding the flush on your cheeks. “You’re impossible.”

His laugh was low, quick. “So I’ve been told.”

And then, just like that, he pushed off the railing and strolled away, leaving you alone with the hoodie, the sea breeze, and a pulse you couldn’t calm down.

You watched his retreating back, the sway of his shoulders as he slipped into the cabin shadows, soda bottle dangling carelessly in his hand. It should’ve been nothing. Just a comment, just a joke. He probably wouldn’t even remember he’d said it by tomorrow.

But you couldn’t shake it.

The way his voice had dipped—not soft, not tender, just… casual. Effortless, like giving you his hoodie, like telling you it looked better on you, cost him nothing. And maybe it didn’t. Maybe that was the point.

Because to him, you could be nothing. Just another body on the yacht, another of Shoko’s quiet little tagalongs. Someone safe to tease, safe to hand off his hoodie to without thinking twice. He didn’t know your heart leapt at things as simple as a brush of his sleeve, or that the weight of his gaze left marks you carried long after.

Maybe that was why he was so comfortable.

He didn’t see you. Not in the way you feared you already saw him. To him, you weren’t fragile glass or complicated history—you weren’t her. You were… background noise. Someone to fill silence with, someone to hand a coffee mug or a hoodie to without it meaning anything.

And yet, it felt like everything.

The dissonance pressed sharp against your ribs. How could he sound so broken in his letters—words dripping with ache, with longing—and yet stand here, teasing, unbothered, almost light? How could he write like a man trapped in the ruins of love, but move like someone who hadn’t been touched at all?

Which one was real?

Maybe neither. Maybe both.

All you knew was that every small thing he gave you—the hoodie, the laugh, the offhand glance—settled too deeply into you. You wanted to tell yourself it was just attraction, just nerves, just curiosity. But the way your chest pulled tighter each time his voice cut across the noise, the way your skin remembered the warmth of his hoodie as if it were something sacred… it scared you.

Because what if it really was nothing to him, and something to you?

The thought clung sharp and unwelcome, and you almost drowned in it until a sharp clack pulled you back. Shoko had slammed a deck of Uno cards onto the table like she was calling a duel.

“Uno,” she announced, lips curling into a grin. “Loser drinks. Winner decides the next game.”

Utahime, emerging from the cabin with new, clean set of clothes, rolled her eyes at Shoko's sudden declaration. “You’re impossible.”

Toji sat up, cracking his knuckles with a smirk. “Bring it. Don’t cry when I win.”

“You’re already crying,” Shoko shot back, shuffling with vicious efficiency.

You were still gathering your cards when the bench dipped beside you. Satoru slid in without a word, the smell of salt air clinging to him, his shoulder brushing yours as though the space had been his all along. His knee nudged yours under the table, not hard, not by accident—but he didn’t move it either.

Shoko noticed the movement, eyes glinting with curiosity. She raised a brow at Satoru. “You know,” she started slowly, like she was testing the waters, “I can’t help but notice how you’ve been having these little moments with Y/N ever since she got on board. What are you doing, Satoru?”

Utahime hummed in agreement, though her focus stayed on her cards. “This is the first time I’ve seen you interact consistently with someone else besides us.” Her tone wasn’t accusing—just factual, clinical in a way that made it sting sharper.

Heat rushed to your cheeks, your throat tightening. You opened your mouth to brush it off, but Satoru beat you to it.

“Moments?” he echoed, tilting his head lazily in Shoko’s direction, feigning confusion. His voice was level, calm, like he hadn’t just been caught with his knee pressed against yours under the table. “Pretty sure you’re imagining things again.”

Shoko’s lips curled. “Am I?”

“Mm.” He flicked a card onto the pile, not even glancing her way. “You overanalyze everything, Shoko. It’s one of your many, many flaws.”

The table snorted at that—Utahime’s soft laugh, Toji’s loud bark—but your pulse was still hammering. Because even as he dismissed them, even as he leaned back like the whole conversation meant nothing, he still didn’t move his leg from yours.

If anything, the weight of it grew more deliberate.

Shoko’s eyes narrowed at the faintest twitch of his mouth—too subtle to call a smile, but not far from one. She leaned back with a scoff, though the corner of her lips betrayed her amusement.

But then her eyes turned to you. Sharp. You couldn't decipher what her gaze held. It was somewhere between concern and...disappointment?

As if she could read your mind, Shoko's lips suddenly pulled into a teasing smile. “Right. Nothing to see here.”

Utahime gave you a small, knowing glance, her brows lifting just slightly before she turned back to her cards.

You forced your attention down to your hand, fingers tightening around the cardboard edges as though that could ground you. But all you could hear was the steady thrum of your heartbeat, all you could feel was the quiet pressure of his knee against yours.

And he didn’t move.

“Don’t peek,” he murmured without looking up, laying his first card down in smooth, unhurried motion.

Your pulse jumped. “I’m not.”

“Good,” he said simply, dropping a card with unhurried precision. “You’re bad at lying.”

Your throat tightened. It was nothing—just words, just a brush of his knee against yours—but they hooked into you like barbs.

Shoko’s sharp eyes didn’t miss a thing. She slammed her own card down, then leaned across the table, a wicked grin spreading slow. “Ohhh,” she sing-songed, dragging the sound out until even Toji looked up. “Sharing hoodies, sharing secrets—what’s next, guys? Matching rings?”

Heat scorched up your neck. “Shoko—”

But Satoru didn’t flinch. Didn’t even bother to look up from his hand. He tossed a +4 onto Toji’s stack with ruthless ease.

“Relax,” he drawled, voice smooth. “If you officiate, I’m filing for annulment.”

The table erupted. Toji cursed so loud a few seabirds scattered from the railing. Utahime covered her laugh with her hand, shoulders shaking. Shoko clutched her chest like she’d been mortally wounded.

“Annulment?” she gasped dramatically. “After all the sacrifices I’ve made for your love?”

Satoru didn’t so much as twitch, but the corner of his mouth curved just enough for you to notice.

You tried to laugh too, but your cheeks burned hot, the sound tumbling out awkward, thin. The heat of him beside you, the casual press of his knee, the weight of his hoodie still around your shoulders—it was too much, too close.

And yet you didn’t move away.

The game descended into chaos fast. Toji accused Shoko of stacking the deck, Shoko accused Toji of being an idiot, and Utahime calmly threatened to walk out if someone didn’t stop yelling. Gojo didn’t bother defending himself when the accusations turned on him—he just sat back, long fingers loose on his cards, expression unreadable. And somehow, without breaking a sweat, he still won three rounds in a row.

When the fourth game ended, Shoko slammed her cards onto the table with theatrical flair. “New rule,” she announced, eyes glittering with mischief. “Truth or Drink. Uno’s boring.”

You blinked. “What?”

“Simple,” she explained, already reaching for the bottle on the table. “Answer honestly, or take a drink. No whining, no skipping. Those are the rules.”

Toji groaned but dragged a glass toward himself anyway. “Fine. But I’m not answering anything about my exes.”

“Noted,” Shoko said sweetly, which was never a good sign. Then she turned to you with the precision of a shark circling its first meal. “Y/N. First question.”

Your stomach dropped. “What—why me?”

“Because you’re blushing like a teenager,” she said with a grin sharp enough to cut. “Alright. If you could steal one thing from anyone at this table, what would it be?”

Heat rushed into your face so fast you could feel it in your ears. Toji was already snickering like he knew something you didn’t.

Your gaze flicked, unbidden, to the man beside you. Gojo wasn’t even watching. His profile was calm, eyes fixed on the condensation sliding down his soda bottle. Not a smirk, not a twitch, nothing to betray that he’d noticed.

Or maybe he had.

You grabbed the shot glass, downed it in one go, and slammed it back onto the table with more force than intended. “Drink.”

The table roared. Toji laughed so hard he slapped the wood. Shoko leaned back in triumph, satisfied with her chaos. Even Utahime was smiling into her glass.

When the noise died down enough to breathe again, Utahime turned to Gojo. “Your turn. What’s something you’d never admit to anyone?”

He tilted his head, thought for half a second, then shrugged. “That I hate tomatoes.”

“That’s it?” Shoko groaned, scandalized. “That’s your big secret?”

He didn’t answer, just let the faintest curve tug at his lips. Somehow, the sheer flatness of his delivery made everyone laugh anyway.

Round by round, the questions went on. Toji confessed to crying during a dog food commercial (“The golden retriever died, okay?”). Shoko admitted she’d skipped an exam to get a tattoo on a dare. Utahime revealed she hated roller coasters but still went, every time, because she couldn’t stand looking “boring.”

By the time the circle swung back to you, your nerves had finally started to settle. Until Toji leaned in, grin wide. “Alright, Osaka. Who’s caught your eye since you got here in Tokyo?”

The blood drained from your face.

Shoko sat forward instantly, like she’d been waiting all night for this. “Oh, this is going to be good.”

Your hand shot out, quicker than thought. “Drink.”

The table erupted again. Toji nearly fell out of his chair, Shoko wheezed like she’d broken a rib, and Utahime shook her head with quiet amusement.

But when the laughter dimmed, you felt it.

His gaze.

Just for a second, Gojo’s eyes flicked to you. Cool. Unreadable. Then gone again, sliding back toward the deck of cards as if nothing had happened.

It meant nothing. It had to mean nothing.

But your chest ached anyway.

The questions kept rolling, each one sharper than the last. Toji asked who Utahime worst kiss was (“Wouldn’t you like to know,” she shot back, and drank). Utahime grilled Shoko on whether she’d ever lied about a patient’s note just to get out of rounds (Shoko's offended silence said enough).

By the time it looped back to Gojo, the table had grown bold.

“Toji,” Shoko said sweetly, eyes narrowing like a cat, “ask him something he won’t dodge.”

Toji grinned like Christmas came early. He turned toward Gojo, resting his chin on his hand. “Alright. Who’s the last person you thought about before you fell asleep last night?”

The table went quiet.

You tried to laugh, tried to pretend it wasn’t a big deal—but your stomach dropped. You fiddled with the hem of the hoodie still wrapped around you, praying he’d brush it off like before, make a joke, drink his way out.

But he didn’t.

Gojo’s gaze didn’t shift, didn’t falter. He leaned back against the bench, glass in hand, and spoke as if it were the simplest truth in the world.

“Y/N.”

The air cracked open.

Shoko’s head snapped toward him. Utahime froze mid-shuffle. Even Toji’s smirk faltered, though only for a second.

Heat flared in your cheeks so fast you thought you might combust. “W—what?”

Gojo tilted his head, tone casual but steady. “Last night. You figured out the flaw in my case study. I would’ve wasted hours circling the same dead end, but you cut right through it. So, yeah. I thought about that before I fell asleep.”

He shrugged, lips curving faintly at the edges. “Grateful, I guess.”

The table exhaled at once, laughter and teasing rushing back in like a tide. Shoko cackled, smacking the table. “God, Satoru, the way you said it—you nearly gave her a heart attack.”

Utahime shook her head with a smile. “That’s… honestly the nicest thing I’ve heard you say about anyone, ever.”

Toji groaned, throwing his cards down. “Boring answer. I wanted scandal, not gratitude.”

The noise returned, wrapping around the group like nothing had happened. But you sat frozen, pulse hammering, the warmth of his hoodie suddenly unbearable against your skin.

Because even if his words had been plain, even if they were nothing more than acknowledgment, they stuck.

Y/N. The last thought before he slept.

Your chest pulled tighter.

You told yourself not to read into it. That it was just respect. That it meant nothing.

But your mind betrayed you anyway, circling back to every glance, every silence he let you fill, every small thing he’d handed you without making a scene. The hoodie. The coffee. The way he’d let your words on biology spill without interruption.

He had said your name like it belonged in the quiet between one day and the next.

And that terrified you more than anything else.

The game went on long after your cheeks had flushed from the wine Shoko kept topping into your glass. Every laugh felt lighter than the last, but your steps turned clumsier when you finally stood.

“Careful,” Utahime said gently, slipping an arm around your shoulders before you could wobble again. “Let’s get you back.”

Shoko waved you off, bottle in hand, already pouring herself another. “Lightweight! Go, sleep it off. I’ll join later.”

Toji snorted. “Join later my ass—you’ll be out here yelling at the moon by yourself.”

Utahime rolled her eyes, steering you toward the cabin. You let her, head fuzzy, warmth heavy in your limbs. The hoodie around you smelled faintly of coffee and sea salt, anchoring you even as the world tilted.

The door shut behind you with a soft thud.

The air felt different without you there—lighter in noise, heavier in silence. The bottle Shoko had been pouring from sat half-forgotten at her elbow, her gaze fixed sharp on Satoru. Toji sat sprawled across from her, casually shuffling the cards he hadn’t bothered to put away, though his eyes flicked toward Gojo every so often with quiet calculation.

For a while, nobody spoke. The waves lapped steady against the hull, the wood creaked, and the last streaks of the sunset bled into the horizon. Then Shoko leaned forward, resting her elbows on the table, eyes narrowing at Satoru.

“Alright,” she said finally, her voice sharper than the sea breeze. “What the hell was that?”

Gojo didn’t look at her, fingers idly turning the stem of his empty glass. “What was what?”

“Don’t bullshit me.” Shoko’s tone cut clean. “You’ve been orbiting Y/N since the minute she set foot on this yacht. Coffee, dishes, little side conversations. Now, thinking of her before you sleep? C'mon Satoru," She huffed, eyes not leaving his form. "I’ve known you a long time, Gojo, and I’ve never seen you go out of your way like that. Not with anyone. And don’t you dare tell me it’s nothing.”

Toji snorted softly, laying his cards flat against the table, though his gaze stayed fixed on Satoru. “She doesn’t know you the way we do. You throw her that kind of attention, and of course it’s gonna stick. Doesn’t matter if this is her first time seeing you—maybe she’s the type whose heart flutters easy, I can tell. She blushes around you a lot. Or maybe that's just who she is.”

The words lingered, weighty in the air.

Satoru’s jaw worked once, then stilled. He leaned back in his chair, stretching his legs out like he didn’t have a care in the world, but the subtle tightness in his shoulders betrayed him. His fingers tapped once against his knee, restless, before he exhaled through his nose.

“She got me curious,” he said at last. His voice was steady, clipped, like each word had been measured before it left his mouth. “That’s all.”

Shoko’s brow furrowed. “Curious?”

Gojo’s gaze flicked to the horizon, where the last of the sun had burned itself out. His fingers tapped idly against his knee. “The way she talks. The way she thinks. It’s different. Most people don’t surprise me anymore, but she did.”

Toji finally looked up, one brow arched. “Curious, huh. That’s how it starts.”

The corners of Satoru’s mouth curved faintly, like he might’ve thrown a smirk, but it never fully formed.

Shoko didn’t laugh. She leaned back, crossing her arms, her gaze never leaving him. “Be careful, Satoru.”

His eyes narrowed just slightly, the pale blue sharpening as they locked on hers. “And what’s that supposed to mean?”

“It means,” Shoko said evenly, “don’t use her to patch yourself up. Don’t let her be another stand-in for the ghost you can’t let go of.”

The air shifted. The wind tugged at the corners of the cards on the table, but none of them moved to stop it.

Then, softly—without hesitation—Shoko said it.

“Aki.”

The name landed like a stone tossed into deep water—small in sound, heavy in impact. It rippled through the silence, sinking into all the spaces they’d been carefully stepping around.

Satoru’s hand stilled against his knee. His face didn’t change—not at first—but the silence around him thickened, suffocating, as though even the sea itself was waiting for his response.

Toji shifted, eyes flicking between them, but said nothing. This was Shoko’s strike, and his place—for now—was to watch.

For a long moment, Satoru didn’t move. His jaw flexed once, twice, the only sign that the name had landed exactly where it was meant to: right in the wound that had never healed. His glass sat forgotten at his side, condensation dripping steadily onto the table.

When he finally spoke, his voice was low. Clipped. Dangerous in its restraint.

“Don’t.”

One word. Enough to make the air between them vibrate with the weight of everything unsaid.

But Shoko didn’t flinch. She held his gaze, steady, unyielding, the way only someone who’d known him too long could.

The silence stretched until Toji exhaled, leaning back with a shake of his head, the tension easing only slightly.

But the damage had already been done.

The weight of that single word—Don’t—still lingered, hanging heavy in the space between them. The creak of the yacht and the hush of the waves seemed louder now, filling the silence that followed.

For once, even Shoko didn’t push. She sat back, exhaling slow, and reached for the bottle she’d abandoned earlier. Her hand hovered over the neck of it, then dropped away. She rubbed at her temple instead, eyes narrowing not in defiance but in something quieter. Concern.

Her voice was steadier when she spoke again, softer but no less direct. “Look, Satoru. I don’t care if you’re… interested. Or intrigued. She really is special. You know it. Toji knows it. Hell, even Utahime probably sees it, and she barely says a word about anyone.”

Shoko’s gaze held steady on him. “What I do care about is you knowing yourself. If you’re giving her pieces of your attention, if you’re pulling her in with that curiosity of yours, you need to be sure you’re not doing it just because you’re lonely. Or because she reminds you of someone else. I don’t want to see her turned into a placeholder for a ghost you can’t put down.”

“You don’t get it because you haven’t grown up with her. I have. I’ve seen her pull all-nighters not just for her own work, but for mine—sitting through anatomy charts and physiology flashcards she didn’t even need to study, just so I wouldn’t feel alone." She continued, eyes never faltering, "I’ve seen her talk herself down after a panic attack, then turn around and tutor Yuuta like nothing happened, because she didn’t want him to feel her fear.”

Her fingers tapped against the table, her jaw tight. “She’s not the type to put herself first. Ever. That’s why people like her get hurt the most. She’s brilliant—God, the way her brain works, the way she sees patterns in things nobody else even notices? I used to copy her homework shamelessly, because I knew she was right. She’s curious, she’s loyal, and she doesn’t have that armor we do. She feels things too much.”

Shoko’s voice softened even more, though her gaze never wavered. “So yeah, maybe she’s quiet, maybe she doesn’t ask for attention—but the second you give her yours, it’ll mean something to her. And I’m telling you now, Satoru, she’s not someone you can play orbit around without consequences. Not for her.”

She leaned back then, exhaling through her nose, like she’d finally put down something heavy.

Toji hummed his agreement, though he didn’t interrupt.

Satoru leaned back in his chair, arms crossing loosely over his chest. The hoodie he’d been wearing earlier was gone—on you now—and the sight of his bare forearms, pale in the dim light, only sharpened the distance in his posture. He looked like he wanted to brush it off, make a joke, but nothing came.

Instead, his gaze slipped past them, out toward the horizon where the last embers of the sunset had been swallowed by the sea. “I know,” he said finally.

Shoko’s brows lifted slightly. “Do you?”

His mouth twitched, not into a smirk, not into a frown. Just something faint. Fragile. “Yeah. That’s why it feels… different.”

Toji arched a brow, sitting forward, elbows braced on the table. “Different how?”

Satoru was quiet for a beat, his eyes still fixed on the dark horizon. Then he exhaled. “She doesn’t remind me of Aki.”

The admission came low, clipped, but certain. His fingers tapped once against the table, restless. “She’s not like her. That’s the point. She surprised me. No one does that anymore.”

The words settled like a confession, quiet but enough to shift the air.

Shoko studied him for a long moment, her expression unreadable. Then, slowly, she leaned back, the edge in her posture softening. “Good,” she said at last. “Then do me a favor, Gojo.”

His gaze flicked back to her, wary.

Shoko’s lips curved, but there was no humor in it. “If you’re going to keep letting her surprise you, don’t waste it. Don’t treat it like it’s disposable. She deserves more than that.”

The words lingered between them, heavier than the sea air.

Satoru leaned back in his chair, arms crossing loosely over his chest. His expression didn’t shift much—still calm, still unreadable—but the faint crease in his brow betrayed something: irritation, or maybe discomfort. He let a beat of silence pass before speaking, his voice even, deliberate.

“I’m not doing anything.” His gaze cut briefly toward Shoko, sharp but not defensive. “You all brought her along. She’s part of this trip. I’m just… trying to get to know her. Same as anyone else would.”

His fingers tapped against his arm once, a restless rhythm. “Don’t make it sound bigger than it is.”

Toji raised a brow, half-amused, half-skeptical, but didn’t jump in right away. Shoko, on the other hand, held his gaze, searching it like she might find the crack he was trying so hard to cover.

Satoru held her gaze, but the silence between them stretched taut. Words said, words unsaid. No one at the table quite believed him. Not even him.

Because curiosity had its weight—dangerous, insistent, hard to control. It pulled people into places they had no business going, unraveling things better left untouched. And if he wasn’t careful, it wouldn’t just be him who paid the price.

After all, everyone knew the ending to that story.

Curiosity killed the cat.

The sun blazed high, bright and merciless, baking the deck until it almost burned beneath your bare feet. Utahime had been the first to strip down to her swimsuit, folding her neat dress into a perfect square before diving headfirst into the glittering water. Toji cannonballed after her with all the subtlety of a wrecking ball, the splash soaking even Shoko, who was still on deck nursing her sunglasses and a can of soda.

“You’re all insane,” she muttered, though five minutes later she gave in, tugging her shirt over her head and slipping gracefully into the sea. Their laughter echoed off the hull, mingling with the steady slap of waves against the yacht.

You stayed where you were, knees tucked up on the deck bench, cardigan draped around your shoulders even though the air was warm. The water shimmered, inviting, but the thought of jumping into it—into all that noise, that reckless chaos—made your stomach knot.

So you watched instead.

Watched Toji challenge Utahime to a race back to the ladder. Watched Shoko splash him mercilessly when he cheated. Watched the ocean swallow their voices until all you could hear was the hum of the yacht beneath you.

And in between it all—you watched him.

Satoru hadn’t joined. He leaned against the rail a few feet from you, sunglasses shielding his eyes, a lazy sprawl to his posture that made it seem like he belonged anywhere he stood. He hadn’t said much all morning. Not to you, not to anyone. Just the occasional murmur to Toji, the bare minimum to keep Shoko from snapping at him.

But there was something there.

The air between them was different today—Shoko and Satoru. Small things. The way her jokes didn’t quite land with him, the way his replies came a fraction too clipped, too practiced. You’d caught her glancing at him once, then looking away, her mouth tightening around her straw like she wanted to say something and thought better of it.

When you woke, the first thing you noticed wasn’t the headache. It was the silence.

Breakfast had already been laid out, plates steaming faintly, but the air around the table felt… off. Toji wasn’t throwing jabs across the table, Shoko wasn’t needling Satoru into snapping back, and Utahime—normally the quiet anchor in their chaos—looked almost adrift, her eyes sliding between everyone like she couldn’t quite catch the rhythm either.

You chalked it up to the hangover at first. Maybe you were still too fogged, too slow to catch up with them. Shoko had glued herself to your side, nudging the orange juice your way, cutting off Toji when he teased you about your sluggishness. Protective, almost. It was easier to let her distraction wash over you than question why she was quieter than usual.

But now, as you sat on the deck with the sun sharp against your skin, watching the water churn with laughter and splashes, the thought pressed heavier.

Utahime and Toji were at it again, racing to the ladder, Shoko trailing behind with a sharp splash that had Toji yelling her name. Their noise was loud, alive, familiar.

And yet you couldn’t shake the memory of the morning—the small talk that had fallen flat, the way Satoru’s replies had sounded clipped, deliberate. The way Shoko had leaned closer to you, like she was anchoring herself to your presence instead of sparring with him like always.

You wondered what had happened after Utahime had guided you back last night. What words had been exchanged in your absence. What lines had been crossed—or nearly crossed—while you were already curled up in bed, unaware.

Because whatever it was, you could still feel it now.

The silence at breakfast hadn’t been your imagination.

And the tension that lingered between Shoko and Satoru—it wasn’t the sea breeze, either.

You tried to focus on the water.

Shoko’s laugh carried over the waves, sharp and clear, as she shoved Toji under. Utahime, now perched carefully on the ladder, shouted something about fairness before Shoko splashed her too. Their noise rang bright against the afternoon, the kind of easy chaos you’d grown used to seeing from them.

Your gaze drifted again, traitorous.

Satoru was still by the railing, long legs stretched out, one arm draped over his bent knee. He hadn’t moved to join the others, hadn’t laughed at Toji’s antics, hadn’t so much as turned his head when Shoko shouted a curse loud enough to rattle the gulls overhead.

He looked the part of someone at ease—hoodie traded for a white t-shirt, sunglasses covering half his face, posture all careless sprawl. But you’d seen him in the kitchen yesterday, sleeves rolled up, dishwater clinging to his skin. You’d seen him at the table this morning, words measured, too neat.

Now, it was like watching two halves of a person at once: the one who could peel an orange with steady precision, and the one who could drown you with silence.

Maybe you were imagining it. Maybe this was nothing. Maybe the weight in your chest belonged to last night’s drinks, not to something you shouldn’t even be touching.

But the longer you sat there, the more it pressed into you.

And when his head finally turned, when his sunglasses tilted just enough to catch you staring—your stomach dropped.

The faintest curve tugged at his mouth, gone almost before it formed.

“What,” he drawled, voice carrying lazily across the deck, “jealous you’re not in the water?”

You blinked, caught, heat crawling up your neck. “What? No.” Hugging your knees tighter, you shook your head, eyes darting toward the edge where Shoko and Utahime were floating on inflatable rings while Toji kept diving off the side like it was a competition. “I can swim. I just don’t want to. The water’s cold.”

“Mm.” He tipped his head back against the railing, letting the sun spill across his throat. “So you’d rather sit there sulking while they’re having fun?”

“I’m not sulking,” you muttered, though the petulant edge in your voice betrayed you. “I’m observing.”

That made him glance at you, one brow lifting over the rim of his sunglasses. “Observing?”

You gestured toward the surface where small flickers of silver darted just beneath. “Look—see those fish breaking the surface every so often? They’re damselfish. Territorial little things. If we were snorkeling near coral, they’d probably swarm us. They go straight for masks and fins.”

Satoru’s lips twitched. “You’re telling me those tiny things are braver than half the people I know?”

“They’re not brave,” you corrected automatically, warmth spilling into your voice despite yourself. “They’re programmed. It’s instinct. In biology, everything has a system—defense, offense, survival. Even the smallest fish will risk themselves if it means protecting their patch of reef.”

Your eyes flicked toward the deeper water where Toji had vanished again, surfacing farther out with a bark of laughter. “Like reef sharks. People think they’re aggressive, but they’re not. They’re cautious. Curious. They circle to test you. Most shark ‘attacks’ happen because people misunderstand the behavior.”

The quiet that followed made you falter, heat creeping back into your cheeks. You ducked your head, fingers curling into the hem of his hoodie. “Sorry. I—uh. Rambling again.”

But he didn’t tease. Didn’t cut you off.

Instead, he shifted, sliding down onto the bench beside you, his shoulder brushing yours as though the space had always belonged to him. His sunglasses caught the reflection of the waves, but you could feel his gaze even if you couldn’t see it directly.

“You always talk like that?” he asked, voice lower now. “Like the world makes more sense to you if you can name it?”

Your pulse skipped. The hoodie you wore still carried his faint warmth, and now, with his shoulder pressed into yours, it felt like being pinned in place by something you didn’t dare name.

“…Maybe,” you admitted softly. “Biology makes sense when people don’t. The ocean especially—it’s dangerous, but predictable. It has rules. I like rules.”

He huffed something close to a laugh, shaking his head. “Rules, huh. Guess that’s why you had my case study solved before I even finished reading it.”

You winced, cheeks burning hotter. “That was—different.”

“Mm.” His knee nudged yours under the table, deliberate this time. “If you say so.”

You opened your mouth, searching for a comeback, but the words scattered. Because for all his teasing, there was something sharper in his tone, something like interest—not the casual curiosity of yesterday, but a spark you couldn’t quite place.

All you knew was that the waves crashed steady below, the others’ laughter echoed across the water, and Satoru Gojo sat too close beside you, smelling faintly of salt and coffee, looking at you like you’d surprised him again.

Shoko’s laugh carried across the water as Toji resurfaced with a dramatic splash, shaking droplets into her face on purpose. She smacked him with the back of her hand, cursing, but her grin was bright, genuine. Utahime rolled her eyes from her float, trying to keep her notes from getting splashed.

It was chaos, the kind you could hear without looking—but you didn’t notice much of it. Not with Satoru sitting so close, knee pressed against yours under the bench, hoodie sleeves tugged up on your arms like it belonged there. He wasn’t even looking at the others, not really. His gaze lingered on the horizon, then on you, and it made the air feel thinner somehow.

“Y/N!” Shoko’s voice rang out suddenly, loud and teasing. “You sure you don’t wanna swim? We’re having all the fun without you!”

You startled, flustered, shaking your head quickly. “I’m fine!” you called back, tucking your knees tighter against your chest.

She narrowed her eyes at you, like she was about to call out another jab. But then her gaze shifted sideways, lingering on the way Satoru leaned back against the bench, knee pressed to yours like it belonged there, his profile calm, almost careless. Her smirk never came.

The echo of last night’s conversation tugged at her instead. Be careful, Satoru.

Shoko knew better than to mistake this for nothing. She’d grown up with you, watched the way you carried your heart—quiet, deliberate, too quick to hold onto kindness even when it cut. She knew how easily someone like you could mistake attention for gravity. And she knew Satoru—how rare it was for him to lean in, to stay curious.

Her chest tightened, but she didn’t speak. Not this time.

Because she trusted you weren’t as fragile as you looked, and she trusted him—however reckless his heart had been before—to know what he was doing. She’d be there, before and after, no matter where this path led.

But for now, she let it be.

By the time the sun went down, dinner plates had been cleared and the last of Shoko’s half-bitter jokes faded into the hum of the sea, the group had drifted back indoors.

It started with Utahime. She’d been trying for hours to coax Satoru out of his cave, but the man was as stubborn as he was tall, hunched over his laptop like gravity itself pinned him to the desk. “If you won’t come out,” she’d muttered with a sigh, arms crossed, “then fine. We’ll just bring everyone in.”

Which was how you ended up cross-legged on the boys’ cabin floor, notebooks spread across the low table, Toji scribbling numbers for his med school project like he was taking it out on the page, Shoko balancing her notes in one hand while nursing her glass of wine with the other, and Utahime flipping furiously through her law readings like she could kill them by speed alone.

Satoru sat where he always did: in his chair by the desk, posture loose but attention sharp, as if the rest of you had migrated into his orbit, not the other way around. His laptop glowed pale across his cheekbones, eyes lowered, the click of keys filling the silence.

At first, it was companionable: the occasional sigh from Utahime, the rustle of Toji’s pen against paper, Shoko muttering that she should’ve gone into veterinary medicine instead of this hell. But soon enough, Utahime broke.

“Gojo,” she groaned, leaning her chin into her palm. “Help a fellow law student out. Help me. Please. This case brief makes zero sense.”

Without looking up, he said, “You’ll figure it out.”

Utahime scowled. “That’s not help.”

Finally, he lifted his gaze, eyes gleaming under the lamplight, and leaned back with a lazy stretch. His attention flicked not to Utahime, but to you.

“Ask Y/N,” he said smoothly, the corner of his mouth twitching. “She’s got a talent for these things.”

You froze, pen hovering over your notebook. “What?”

Utahime blinked between you and him. “She’s not even in law.”

“She solved my case study yesterday.” His tone was casual, but his eyes glittered with something sharper—mischief, curiosity. “Might as well let her carry the team.”

Heat shot to your cheeks. “I didn’t solve it, I just—”

“She did,” he interrupted, unapologetic, one brow raised in that infuriating way. “So. Go on, genius. Let’s see it.”

Utahime slid the paper toward you with more hope than hesitation. Shoko arched a brow from behind her glass, muttering something like, this ought to be good, while Toji leaned back, smirking like he’d just been handed a show.

You swallowed hard, glanced down at the page—then blinked.

It was complicated. Not just “I stayed up too late to care” complicated, but dense, layered with multiple precedents and contradictory rulings that knotted into each other like tangled thread. A case on corporate liability tied to environmental negligence—half a dozen jurisdictions referenced, a nightmare of exceptions.

Even Satoru’s notes in the margins were crossed out three times, whole sections bracketed with question marks.

Your pulse spiked. No wonder Utahime looked lost. Even Gojo hadn’t cracked it.

But something in you clicked. The way you did with biology problems, tracing pathways, linking cause and effect until the system revealed itself. You found yourself reaching for a scrap of paper, scribbling connections, underlining statutes, sketching arrows that looped between one precedent and another.

“It’s not about strict liability,” you murmured after a beat, almost to yourself. “That’s why it looks impossible—because they’re framing it like intent is the core issue. But it isn’t. It’s omission. Failure to act. Look—”

You slid the paper closer to Utahime, your pen moving fast now, sketching out a flowchart of statutes and cases. “Here. The company didn’t cause the pollution directly, but they failed to prevent it when they had a legal duty to. That’s negligence at scale. It ties back to Article 709 in the Civil Code—general tort liability. They can’t hide behind subcontractors because of the duty of care precedent in—” you flipped to another page, “—R v. Takashima, 1982. It extends the duty upstream. So the court won’t toss it. They’ll rule negligence, not strict liability, but the damages will still stick.”

The room was quiet.

Utahime’s brows knit tighter as you filled another page with quick diagrams and notes, your voice steady as you explained each point. By the time you circled the final connection, her expression had shifted from frustration to wide-eyed relief.

“Oh my god,” she muttered, staring down at the papers like they’d just been handed from heaven. “That… actually makes sense.”

Shoko let out a low whistle. Toji, sprawled across his bed, smirked. “Guess you’ve got your own secret weapon, huh.”

Utahime groaned, but nodded gratefully. “Seriously, Y/N—you just saved me.”

The silence that followed was brief but sharp, cut by Satoru leaning back in his chair, lips quirking as his gaze flicked—too pointedly—to you.

“Told you she’s special.”

It was thrown toward Utahime, almost offhand, but the way he said it—low, certain, not even teasing—settled somewhere deep in your chest.

You laughed softly, trying to wave it off, but your hands betrayed you, curling tight in your lap. Because no matter how casual the words were meant to sound, you couldn’t ignore the weight of them.

Not from him.

You pressed the heel of your hand against your temple, trying to calm the rush in your chest after his offhand comment. Special. The word still echoed even as Shoko started flipping through Utahime’s notes and Toji cracked a joke about charging you for tutoring. You laughed when you were supposed to, but your skin prickled with the weight of his gaze.

“I’m starving,” you said quickly, pushing yourself up from the floor. “I’ll grab something from the galley.”

No one questioned it—Shoko was already lost in Utahime’s assignment, and Toji just grunted his approval like food was always the right choice. You slipped out of the boys’ cabin, the air cooler in the narrow corridor.

The cabin was quiet, save for the faint hum of the fridge and the occasional creak of the yacht shifting with the tide. You leaned against the counter, clutching the last of the crackers you’d scavenged, when the door clicked open.

Satoru slipped in like he owned the air, hoodie sleeves shoved up his forearms, hair messier than usual. He clocked you instantly, then the food in your hands, and smirked faintly.

“Stealing rations?”

“They’re just crackers,” you muttered, breaking one in half. “Hardly a crime.”

“Depends on the jury.” He plucked one straight from your fingers without asking, crunching it like he’d earned it.

You rolled your eyes but didn’t argue. For a moment, it was just the sound of chewing, the low hum of the yacht, the quiet weight of being in the same space.

It was you who broke it. “You always this nosy?”

He blinked lazily. “Nosy?”

“Dragging me into your law problems. Making me wash dishes with you. Stealing my food.” You arched a brow, trying for lightness. “Seems like a pattern.”

He didn’t answer right away. Just leaned back against the opposite counter, arms crossed, gaze steady. “Maybe I’m just curious.”

The word lodged in your chest, too sharp, too deliberate.

You tried to laugh it off, fiddling with the wrapper in your hands. “Curious about what? I’m not that interesting.”

To your surprise, he shrugged. “Most people don’t surprise me. You did.”

That silenced you. Not in a heavy way, but in the kind of way where your mind spun, scrambling for somewhere safe to land. You wanted to ask what he meant, why he said it like that, but you bit your tongue.

Instead, you shifted. “What about you? You never talk about yourself.”

He smirked faintly, like he’d expected the jab. “What’s there to say?”

“I don’t know. Family? Friends? Something real, for once.”

The silence stretched again, not uncomfortable, just… taut. You fiddled with the edge of the cracker wrapper, watching him lean against the counter like he belonged to it. His hoodie was loose, the sleeves shoved to his elbows, and the dim cabin light cut shadows across his face that made him look softer than he should.

When he spoke, his voice was low. “My mom’s in Kyoto. Don’t see her much. Dad’s gone.” A pause. “Got cousins. They’re fine.”

It was so bare-bones, so stripped of detail it almost sounded clinical, but it still landed heavier than you expected.

You blinked. “That’s it?”

His mouth quirked. “You asked. I answered.”

“That’s not an answer,” you shot back before you could stop yourself. Your voice was steadier than you felt. “That’s—cliff notes.”

“Better than nothing.” He tipped his head toward you, blue eyes sharp even in the half-light. “And don’t pretend you’re not used to filling in blanks, Y/N. You practically thrive on it.”

The words struck close—too close. Your throat tightened, but you swallowed it down. He wasn’t wrong. You had spent weeks filling in his silences with the words in those emails, piecing together a ghost of him you thought you understood.

So you deflected. “You’re annoying.”

That got the faintest twitch of a smirk out of him. “You’re nosy.”

You huffed, dropping the wrapper on the counter. “Fine. If you won’t tell me, I’ll go first.”

He arched a brow, skeptical but amused. “This I gotta hear.”

Your chest tightened, but you pushed through. “My parents work overseas. Korea. It’s just… been me, pretty much. Family friends kept an eye on me, but it’s not the same. I learned how to fill space on my own.”

For a second, you regretted saying it. It sounded pathetic out loud, like something that would only earn pity. But he didn’t look at you that way.

He tilted his head, gaze steady. “Explains why you read law for fun.”

Heat crawled up your neck. “That’s not—”

“—Normal?” His smirk widened a fraction. “Yeah, I know.”

You rolled your eyes, but your voice softened anyway. “It’s just… science, law, medicine—things that make sense. Even when life doesn’t. I think that’s why I love them. You can always find answers if you look hard enough.”

Satoru studied you in silence for a long moment, like he was measuring the weight of every word. His gaze didn’t waver, didn’t soften, but it didn’t cut either.

Finally, he hummed, low in his throat. “So that’s what you are.”

You blinked. “What?”

“Someone who hates unanswered questions.” His shoulder lifted in the faintest shrug. “Guess that explains why you’ve been poking around me all day.”

Your cheeks heated, traitorous. “I haven’t—”

“You have,” he said flatly, though the edge of his mouth twitched like he was suppressing a smile. He pushed off the counter, stepping close enough that the scent of coffee and saltwater wrapped around you. He plucked the empty wrapper from your fingers like you couldn’t be trusted with it and tossed it neatly into the trash. “And you’re not subtle.”

Your breath caught. He wasn’t touching you, wasn’t crowding you—not really. But the space felt tighter anyway.

You tried to scoff, but it came out weak. “Maybe I just like crackers.”

That earned you a low chuckle, the sound threading down your spine. He didn’t press, though. Just leaned back against the counter again, deliberately casual, like he hadn’t just unraveled you with a single glance.

And that—his ease, his comfort—left you spiraling.

Why did he act like this with you? Like sitting shoulder to shoulder at breakfast, or letting silence stretch without filling it, or offering pieces of himself so matter-of-factly. He wasn’t warm. He wasn’t open. But somehow, he was already… comfortable.

It left you wondering if maybe he saw you as nothing at all—so unthreatening, so unimportant—that he could let the guard down he never lowered for anyone else.

You both walked back together, side by side. Neither of you said much—just the quiet sound of your footsteps against the wooden floor, the faint hum of the waves brushing against the hull. Satoru moved with his usual ease, hands shoved into his pockets, hoodie gone but the ghost of its warmth still clinging to you.

When you slipped back onto the deck, Toji was already gathering the empty bottles, Utahime fussing at Shoko to drink some water before bed. No one asked where you and Gojo had been, and he didn’t offer an explanation. He just dropped into his seat, leaned back like he’d been there the whole time, and the conversation picked up without skipping a beat.

It was almost too easy, the way he blended back into their rhythm. You followed Utahime when she tugged you toward the cabins, grateful for the excuse to leave before Shoko dragged you into another round. The night air clung damp and heavy against your skin as you stepped inside, shutting out the laughter and noise behind you.

Hours later, the yacht had gone quiet. Shoko’s breathing was even in the bunk across from yours, Utahime’s soft rustle audible through the thin walls. You lay on your side, staring at the small strip of moonlight leaking in through the curtain, the hoodie still draped over you like an anchor.

Ding!

The sound cracked the stillness like a blade.

Your phone, tucked just under your pillow, vibrated once against your cheek. You froze. That tone was too familiar.

You didn’t move at first—just stared at the dark, your pulse hammering. Then, with trembling fingers, you pulled it free, the glow of the screen washing pale over your face.

One new email.

Your chest tightened. The room seemed to tilt. It had been days since the last one—weeks since you’d stopped waiting for them altogether. And yet, here it was.

For a long moment, you couldn’t open it. Couldn’t breathe.

Because out there, just hours ago, you’d been laughing with him, shoulder brushing his, voice low as he teased you over crackers like it was nothing.

And here—on your screen—was proof of the ghost he still wrote to.

Proof that no matter how you convince yourself that Satoru is just an arm's length now, closer, nearer - not just familiar to you anymore, but real; his heart is nowhere near this damn yacht, or even this sea.

Your thumb hovered over the notification.

Part of you wanted to open it. To read the words that had once felt like they were yours to keep, even if they weren’t meant for you. Another part of you wanted to throw the phone into the sea, to never see her name again.

But your body betrayed you.

You clicked.

And there it was—her name at the top, his words below, the ache you had no right to feel crawling through you all over again.

Aki, I don’t know why I’m writing again tonight. Maybe because the sea is too loud, or maybe because the silence underneath it is worse. Either way, I couldn’t sleep, and my hands are restless. And when I don’t know where else to put them, they always end up here. We’re out on a yacht. Shoko, Utahime, Toji—same circle as always. They drink, laugh, argue over stupid games. It should be comforting, it should be enough. But every time they break into another round of noise, I find myself glancing toward the rail, half-expecting to see you standing there. Not even doing anything, just… being. It’s pathetic, really. How I keep looking for you in places I know you’ll never be. It’s been years, hasn’t it? Long enough that if anyone else asked, I’d lie and say I’ve moved on. But the truth is, time hasn’t done a damn thing. I don’t think it ever will. Everyone else seems to be moving forward, building something new, but me—I’m caught in a loop. I wake, I work, I breathe, I laugh when I’m supposed to. And then when no one’s watching, I find myself here, writing to you like it could ever matter. I thought the sea breeze might feel cleansing, that maybe the horizon would make me believe in something bigger than the ache I’ve been carrying. For a second, it almost worked. I felt lighter. Like the sun itself was mocking me with the idea that I could start over. But it always fades. It always passes. And I’m left with this—the weight in my chest that hasn’t changed since the day you left. If you were here, you’d tell me to stop. You’d call me dramatic, laugh in that way you used to when you thought I was being ridiculous. You’d say I’m clinging to shadows. And you’d be right. But that’s the thing about ghosts, isn’t it? They don’t ask permission. They stay. They take up space. And I don’t know how to make you leave, or if I even want you to. Sometimes I wonder if you’d even recognize me now. I’ve gotten quieter. Colder. People say I don’t smile the same. I don’t laugh the same. Maybe they’re right. Maybe the best parts of me were things I only ever showed you. And when you disappeared, they went with you. I don’t know what I want from this. From writing to you. Closure? Forgiveness? Maybe just proof that I’m still capable of wanting something. All I know is that I keep coming back here, again and again, like muscle memory. Like prayer. And every time, it feels the same. Empty. Pointless. But I keep writing anyway. Because maybe if I say it enough times, it’ll start to feel less like missing you. And more like remembering you. —S

You stared at the screen until the words blurred, until the glow of it felt like it might carve into your chest. The draft folder where you never dared to reply. The endless thread of letters you had no right to read.

Your thumb hovered over the screen, then locked it. Darkness swallowed the room, save for the faint hum of the sea outside. You tugged the hoodie tighter around you, burying your face in the sleeve until all you could smell was him.

And you told yourself it didn’t matter. That it wasn’t yours to feel, wasn’t yours to carry. That he was still writing to a ghost, and you were just the stranger who happened to witness it.

But when you shut your eyes, the words lingered anyway. Curling sharp against the back of your mind, pressing into you like a bruise you couldn’t stop touching.

But you didn’t cry. You didn’t let yourself. Because right now, you won't let it hurt. Not when you're reminded over and over again that all of this was just plain stupid. Unnecessary. Foolish.

Because in this heartache, there's only room for two.

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↳ Genre: Angst, Fluff, Slowburn

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↳ Warnings: unrequited love, angst, one-sided pining, slowburn, emotional tension, self-doubt, playful banter, satoru being stupid (in his own way), shoko being chaotic, toji being toji, drinking, background teasing, science nerd reader

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song for this chapter: like real people do - hozier

“I will not ask you where you came from, I will not ask and neither should you.”

The morning found you quieter than usual. The yacht creaked gently beneath your feet as you stepped onto the deck, the salt air sharp against your skin. A table had already been set with plates of eggs and fruit, baskets of bread, pitchers of juice and coffee steaming faintly in the light.

When you woke up, the cabin was empty. Shoko’s bed was already stripped of its blanket, Utahime’s skincare bottles had been cleared from the nightstand. You were the only one left, your sleepwear dress twisted under you like a reminder of how poorly you’d slept.

It wasn’t until you caught the clock on the wall—9:30 AM—that you jolted upright, panic threading through you. Late. You never slept late. But then fragments of last night came back to you in patches.

The wine.

Utahime balancing the bottle in one hand, face mask slipping slightly as she poured, Shoko’s laugh echoing sharp against the walls, your own hand clutching the glass tighter and tighter until you were halfway through the bottle on your own. You remembered the burn of it down your throat, remembered Shoko’s baffled amusement, Utahime’s wide eyes. And then—black.

Now your head throbbed with every sway of the boat, your tongue was sandpaper, and you promised yourself—never again. Or at least not without checking the label first.

From the doorway, you hesitated.

Shoko was perched comfortably at the table, bun lopsided, sunglasses already pushed onto her head like she owned the yacht. Toji and Utahime were in the middle of some argument, voices raised over whether the orange juice had been watered down. Their laughter spilled bright over the waves. None of them had noticed you yet.

Four plates sat on the table. Two seats empty.

Was Satoru still asleep?

“I don’t mean to be rude,” a voice rasped behind you, “but are you going to eat breakfast, or just guard the door?”

Your chest tightened.

You turned.

Satoru stood there, still in sleepwear. Black long sleeves, neckline wide enough to expose the pale line of his collarbones. His hair stuck out in careless tufts, silver-white strands catching the light. He looked undone, but somehow it seemed intentional, like he’d stepped out of some dream with edges softened just for him.

Heat prickled across your cheeks. You moved quickly to the side, eyes darting to the floor like a kid caught somewhere she shouldn’t be.

“Sorry,” you muttered, scratching at the back of your neck. “I—I was going to. Just got a little dizzy with the way the boat keeps swaying.”

He looked at you then. Not long, just a beat—blue eyes cutting clean across your face, too sharp for this early in the morning. Then he nodded once.

“Alright.”

No smirk. No teasing. Just that single word before he passed you, his shoulder brushing the air too close to yours.

You followed after him without meaning to, the two of you stepping onto the deck together.

You slipped into the seat beside Shoko, hoping to disappear into the background. The small talk with Satoru still lingered on your mind, heat creeping up on your cheeks are you tried to focus on the plate in front of you.

The table shifted instantly, Shoko catching sight of you first. “Y/N,” she drawled, amusement thick in her voice. “Spacing out again? Don’t tell me the sea air’s too much for you already.”

Heat rushed back into your cheeks, but before you could stammer out a defense, Satoru spoke.

“She’s fine.” His tone was even, unbothered, as he lowered himself into the chair beside Toji. He didn’t even glance your way, fingers already peeling an orange with practiced ease. “Not everyone runs their mouth first thing in the morning the way you do.”

The table laughed—Toji loudest, Utahime rolling her eyes. Shoko gawked, mock-offended, but you sat frozen for a moment, the tiniest flicker of gratitude catching in your chest. He hadn’t looked at you, hadn’t made it obvious, but he’d shifted the attention off you as smoothly as if it were nothing.

You slipped into the last empty chair, across from him. Shoko elbowed you lightly, muttering something about your “late entrance,” but her grin said she was already distracted by her own plate. The conversation rolled on—Toji making a show of stacking fruit into ridiculous towers, Utahime scolding him for dropping melon onto her notes, Shoko sniping at them both like she was the only sane one at the table.

You laughed when you were supposed to, nodded when Utahime drew you in, but your gaze kept drifting.

Satoru hadn’t joined the banter. He sat back, posture lazy, thumb rolling over the peel of his orange. Every so often, when someone spoke, his mouth would curve—not quite a smile, more an acknowledgment. But when your voice slipped into the conversation—answering Shoko about Osaka, joking faintly about how much quieter your mornings usually were—you felt it.

His gaze.

Not heavy, not prying.. Just there. Clear, deliberate. Listening.

And somehow, that was worse than teasing.

The plates emptied one by one, juice glasses drained, and Shoko leaned back with a groan, announcing she needed “ten years of sleep to recover from Utahime’s nagging.” The table erupted again, loud and familiar, laughter bouncing over the water.

You were just reaching for your own glass when Toji’s shadow fell over you.

“Alright, Osaka,” he said, clapping a heavy hand on your shoulder, “make yourself useful. Go help clear the table.”

Your head snapped up. “What? Why me?”

“Because you’re the guest,” Toji said teasingly, already stacking plates into your hands. “Hospitality goes both ways. And, because you were late.”

Shoko cackled. “Translation: Toji’s lazy.”

Utahime added, “And messy.”

You muttered under your breath but stood anyway, balancing the stack carefully as you made your way toward the narrow galley. The door swung shut behind you, muffling the noise of the deck until it was just you, the clink of porcelain, and the faint hum of the yacht’s engine.

Or so you thought.

Because he was there. Again.

Leaning against the counter, mug in hand, his frame relaxed but filling the small space like he’d been waiting all along. His hair was still damp, sticking in uneven strands to his forehead, and steam curled lazily from the coffee he held.

Satoru glanced up once, and for reasons you couldn’t explain, it felt like being caught.

“Coffee?” he asked simply, already reaching for another mug before you could answer.

Your hands fumbled with the plates, nearly clattering them into the sink. “Uh—sure,” you managed, setting them down with more force than you intended.

He poured without a word, sliding the mug across the counter. You reached out to catch it, fingers brushing his.

Your pulse stuttered, traitorous, but he didn’t flinch. Didn’t smirk. Didn’t make it into a joke. Just took a sip from his own mug, gaze flicking once toward you before settling back on the small window over the sink, where the horizon stretched wide and endless.

The silence pressed at you. Not heavy, not uncomfortable—just full.

You wrapped both hands around the mug, letting the heat seep into your palms, grounding yourself. The first sip was bitter, sharper than you expected, and it made your tongue curl—but it was welcome, clearing the haze of your wine-dulled head.

You risked a glance at him. He was half-turned toward the counter, his frame relaxed, one ankle hooked over the other as if he’d been standing there for hours. Steam drifted from his cup in lazy spirals. His face gave away nothing—no amusement, no curiosity, no sign that he cared whether you spoke or not.

And maybe that’s what made it harder.

Because every other person in your life filled silences without thinking—Shoko with her teasing, Utahime with her calm commentary, Toji with his endless jokes. But Satoru didn’t. He let the quiet stretch, long enough for you to hear the tick of the clock on the wall, the soft churn of the waves against the hull.

He broke it first.

“Biology, right?”

You blinked. “What?”

His gaze flicked over, brief but piercing. “Your master’s degree. Shoko mentioned it.”

“Oh.” You cleared your throat, suddenly wishing the mug in your hands was something stronger than coffee. “Yeah. Biology.”

He nodded, taking another sip. “Why?”

You frowned faintly. “…Why what?”

“Why biology?” he clarified, tone even, detached. Not mocking—just… asking.

You hesitated, caught off guard by the simplicity of the question. Nobody ever asked you that, not like this. People assumed, or nodded politely when you answered, but never asked why.

“Because I like it,” you said at last, the words careful but gathering strength the longer you spoke. “Because it makes sense. Biology doesn’t lie to you. Cells divide, neurons fire, enzymes react—it’s all cause and effect. Even when it looks chaotic, there’s an order hidden in it. A pattern you can trace if you’re patient enough.”

Your fingers tightened around the mug, the steam curling into the air between you. “I think it’s the detail,” you said slowly, as if the words needed to form under your tongue before they made sense. “The way everything connects. You start with something small—cells, proteins, little processes you can’t even see without help—and somehow all of it builds into something bigger. Systems, organisms, life. It’s like putting together the most complicated puzzle in the world, and every time you think you’ve finished, you realize there’s another layer waiting.”

Your lips curved faintly, almost involuntarily. “It’s humbling, I guess. To know that even the tiniest thing—one mutation, one reaction—can change the whole picture. But at the same time, there’s beauty in it. Patterns that repeat, rules that hold even when you can’t see them right away. It reminds me that the world isn’t just chaos… there’s structure, there’s rhythm. And I like that.”

For a moment, you weren’t even speaking to him—you were speaking to yourself, to the truth that always sat quiet in your chest until now.

When your eyes flicked back to Satoru, you found him watching you. Not intrusively, not mocking. Just watching, like he was willing to let you take up space, even if he didn’t quite understand why you needed to.

Realizing you’d gone on longer than you meant to, heat crept into your cheeks. You ducked your head slightly, fingers tracing the rim of your mug. “Sorry,” you murmured, a nervous laugh catching in your throat. “I rambled a bit.”

His gaze didn’t shift. If anything, the corner of his mouth twitched—something close to a smile, though it vanished before you could be sure it had been there at all. “You did,” he said simply, voice even. A pause, and then softer, almost like an afterthought: “But it wasn’t boring.”

The quiet stretched again, curling around you both like the steam from your mugs. For a moment, you almost wished he would tease you, or make a joke, something to ease the weight of it. But he didn’t. He just let it settle. Before it could get anymore awkward, you decide to break it, finishing your coffee and sending a warm smile his way, "Thanks for the coffee. Toji told me to clean up since I'm the 'guest', so feel free to leave your mug there so I can wash it."

He didn’t answer right away. Just tipped his mug back, draining the last sip in one smooth motion, and set it deliberately beside yours on the counter. For a second, you thought he’d actually leave it there and walk out—exactly as you’d told him to.

But then, without a word, he reached past you and gathered up the rest of the plates from the drying rack, stacking them easily in his hands.

Your brows knit. “Wait—what are you doing?”

“Helping,” he said simply, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. His tone wasn’t playful, wasn’t mocking. Just flat, matter-of-fact.

You blinked at him, baffled. “But… you don’t have to. I said I’d do it.”

“And I said I’d help,” he countered, sliding the dishes into the sink with a faint clink. “Unless you think I’m so bad at it that I’ll ruin your rhythm.”

You couldn't help but huff a laugh, rolling up the sleeves of your sleepwear, “I didn’t know you even had rhythm.”

That earned you the faintest sound—something between a chuckle and a scoff—as he ran the water, testing its warmth with his wrist before filling the sink. “Funny.”

You worked side by side in the narrow galley, shoulders occasionally brushing as you passed utensils or reached for soap. The silence wasn’t heavy this time; it was steady, softened by the small sounds of plates knocking gently together under the water, the low hum of the yacht’s engine, the faint slap of waves against the hull.

“You’re in law, right?” you asked after a moment, glancing at him from the corner of your eye.

“Mm.” He rinsed a plate, set it carefully on the rack. “Third year. Almost done.”

“Do you like it?”

He was quiet for a beat, expression unreadable as the water ran over his hands. “Depends on the day.”

You tilted your head, amused despite yourself. “That’s not an answer.”

This time, a flicker of something—amusement, maybe—crossed his face. He handed you a dripping spoon. “Neither is that a simple question.”

You huffed a laugh, scrubbing at the edge of a glass. “You sound like Shoko when she doesn’t want to admit she hates something.”

That earned you a faint snort. “Trust me, if I hated it, I wouldn’t still be here. Law’s… useful. Gives me leverage. Structure. Answers, sometimes.”

“Sometimes?” you echoed, handing him the rinsed glass.

He nodded, setting it gently on the rack. “Other times it’s just noise. People arguing louder than the truth until everyone forgets what they were trying to solve.”

You blinked at him, caught off guard by how easily he’d slipped into something so precise. “That sounds…” You hesitated, searching. “…lonely.”

He stilled, fingers tapping once against the counter before he reached for another plate. “Could be.”

The words were soft, almost tossed away, but they carried more weight than you knew what to do with. You swallowed, turning back to the sink.

“So why keep going, then?” you asked carefully. “If it feels like that sometimes.”

He glanced at you sidelong, blue eyes unreadable. “Because someone has to. And I’d rather it be me than people who don’t care.”

For a moment, neither of you spoke. The only sound was the water running, the steady clink of silverware being set down to dry.

“You’re different from what I expected,” you said finally, the thought escaping before you could stop it.

The words hung in the air like something fragile you hadn’t meant to drop. Your pulse kicked up instantly—mortification rushing in—because what did that even mean? Different how? Different from Shoko’s constant gripes? From Toji’s careless stories? Or worse—different from the man whose heartache you’d been trespassing through for weeks?

Your mind scrambled to backpedal, to soften it, but the truth had already slipped free. And maybe it was the truth that scared you most.

Because you had expected him to be crueler, somehow. Sharper. A man who could sound so broken in writing surely had jagged edges in real life too, didn’t he? But here, in the flesh, he was… quiet. Reserved. Thoughtful, even, in a way that startled you. He wasn’t the storm you’d braced yourself for—he was the eye of it, deceptively calm.

And you hated that a small part of you felt relieved. Because it meant the image you’d built of him in your head—the ghost you pitied, the voice you carried around like a secret—wasn’t the whole story. He wasn’t just grief shaped into sentences. He wasn’t just the man in your inbox.

He was real. He was complicated. And that terrified you.

Your fingers tightened around the dish towel, knuckles whitening, as if that could ground you. You didn’t want him to ask what you meant, didn’t want to explain the truth of what you’d been comparing him to. So you bit down on the rest of it, cheeks hot, pulse hammering, praying he’d let it slide.

All you got in return was a pause, then the low sound of a chuckle—quiet, restrained, like he didn’t often let one slip. You raised your eyes carefully, only to meet his, bright and amused, one brow lifting as he looked down at you.

“Oh?”

The simple word made your pulse stutter. Heat crawled up your neck. “I just mean—you’re quieter. Shoko made it sound like you were… unbearable.”

The corner of his mouth curved, not quite a smile, more like the shadow of one. “She’s not wrong.”

You let out a soft laugh before you could stop yourself, the tension loosening its grip on your shoulders. Somehow, it felt easier to breathe. He hadn’t pressed, hadn’t tried to unravel your slip. He just let it go—brushed it off with that distant ease of his. And maybe that was what you appreciated most about him: the way he didn’t corner you, didn’t pry, just let your words exist without demanding more.

By the time the last dish was rinsed and stacked neatly to dry, you lingered at the counter longer than you needed to, fingers absently tracing the handle of your mug. The moment should’ve been ordinary—just chores, just small talk—but your chest felt heavier, your thoughts tugged in two directions at once.

Because this version of him—the one beside you now, sleeves damp from dishwater, voice steady but unhurried—didn’t match the man you’d been piecing together in your head.

You remembered the words you’d read, raw and unraveling. Emails that felt like pages torn straight from a diary, confessions pressed into a stranger’s inbox because he had no one else left to tell. He had sounded ruined in those lines, caught in loops of memory he couldn’t escape. Every sentence had carried the weight of someone still bleeding from a wound that refused to close.

And yet here he was.

Not whole, maybe—not loud like Toji or sharp like Shoko, not even warm like Utahime—but lighter than you’d expected. Quieter, yes, but not crushed. His silence wasn’t emptiness; it was deliberate. He carried himself with a calm distance, as if he’d learned how to sit with the noise in his head and simply let it pass.

It unsettled you, the dissonance of it. Because part of you wanted to cling to the man in the emails, the one whose pain you’d read so closely it started to feel like yours. That Gojo Satoru was easy to understand, easy to ache for.

But this one? The one who had just rinsed dishes with you, who peeled oranges with clean precision, who had cut off Shoko’s teasing without ever glancing your way—he was harder to grasp. Real.

And you realized, with a tight twist in your chest, that you couldn’t keep depending on the ghost version of him forever. Not if you were standing here, breathing the same air. Not if you were going to survive whatever it meant to know him in the flesh.

If you wanted to understand him—the real him—you’d have to try.

Not just the man in the letters. Not just the pain he left behind.

But the Gojo Satoru who was here now.

After washing the dishes with the man you least expected to bump into, you slipped back into the girls’ cabin, determined not to look like the ghost of last night’s wine. The shower hissed hot and sharp against your skin, washing the fog from your head and leaving your limbs loose, steady again. You took longer than usual—rinsing twice, letting the steam clear your chest.

When you dressed, you reached for comfort and something that wouldn’t scream trying too hard. A plain white tank top, soft and worn in all the right places, tucked neatly into a pair of light denim shorts that brushed just above your mid-thigh. Over it, a beige cardigan—loose, draping just enough to soften the sharp lines of bare shoulders. The kind of outfit that looked casual, easy, though you knew it was carefully chosen, every layer deliberate.

When you finally stepped back onto the deck, the sunlight hit you first—bright, sharp, the kind that makes you blink until the world comes into focus again. Shoko was sprawled across one of the benches, sunglasses sliding down her nose, a glass of juice balanced dangerously on her knee. Toji sat beside her, UNO cards sprawled all over the floor, while Utahime perched at the edge of her seat, watching the chaos with resigned patience.

“There you are,” Shoko called out, lifting her glass like a toast. “Was starting to think the ocean swallowed you up.”

You rolled your eyes as you slid into the nearest seat, grabbing for the edge of the table. “You told me to wash the dishes, remember? Toji’s orders.”

“That’s rich,” Toji said, smirking as he slapped a card down onto the pile. “Guest gets stuck with dishes, huh? Classic.”

Utahime sighed, though the twitch of her mouth betrayed her amusement. “Classic Toji, more like. Always pawning things off on someone else.”

Shoko tipped her sunglasses down just enough to peer at you, eyes gleaming with mischief. “Did Satoru help you? What a rare sighting. That dick doesn’t do anything at all. And here I was hoping you would drown him in the sink. I’m disappointed.”

The table erupted in laughter—loud, overlapping, warm. And for once, you laughed too, the sound slipping out before you could hold it back. Louder, freer than you expected.

When the sound died down enough for you to catch your breath, you glanced around the deck. One seat sat empty.

“Where’s Satoru?” you asked, voice casual but carrying more weight than you intended.

Toji barely looked up from the Uno deck he was shuffling, his focus locked on Utahime across from him. “He’s stuck in his fucking law assignment. Actually—” he slammed a card down, smirking, “—could you please drag him out of there?”

Utahime’s smirk was merciless as she dropped a +4 on top of his card. Toji’s jaw went slack. “What the hell, Utahime! I only had two cards left!”

“Cry about it,” she said sweetly, reaching for her wine.

“Why me?” you muttered, turning your head toward the ocean. The waves caught the dying sun, scattering light across the surface like shards of glass. It was easier to look at that than admit the small sting of nerves tightening in your chest.

“Because I’m busy beating Utahime’s ass here,” Toji shot back, reshuffling furiously, “and Shoko is not reliable. Just look at her.”

Shoko didn’t even look up from her phone, thumb scrolling lazily. “What?” She arched a brow. “If it were me, one of us would be murdered. Two of us can’t make it out alive here.”

“Exactly,” Toji muttered.

You sighed, pushing back your chair. Their laughter followed you as you made your way across the deck, each step heavier than you cared to admit. The yacht creaked softly beneath your feet as you stopped in front of the cabin door Toji had pointed out.

You hesitated. Lifted your hand. Knocked once, softly.

No answer.

You knocked again, a little firmer.

Then, a voice.

“...Toji, if that’s you, I told you to give me a moment. I will play Uno, god, just let me finish this.” A pause. Then, without missing a beat: “If this is Shoko, go fuck yourself.”

You froze at the door, lips parting in surprise. His voice was sharper than usual, still carrying that dry edge—but underneath, you caught the faint rasp of exhaustion.

Steeling yourself, you pushed the door open. A shy smile gracing your lips.

The room was dimmer than the deck, light filtering in through the small window above the desk. Satoru sat hunched over the table, laptop open, papers scattered around him like snow. His posture was loose but intent, one elbow braced against the wood, the other hand dragging lazily over the trackpad. His hair fell forward in uneven tufts, the glow of the screen painting his pale skin in shades of blue.

It was such a stark contrast from the untouchable man outside—the one lounging in sunglasses, dismissive and effortless. Here, he looked more human. Focused. Weighted down by something as ordinary as an assignment.

He glanced up when you stepped in, the faintest furrow in his brow smoothing out. “Oh.” His voice was even, unreadable. “Not Toji. Or Shoko.”

You hovered awkwardly by the door, clutching at the frame like it might anchor you. “Sorry. They—uh—they sent me. To drag you out. Apparently Uno isn’t the same without you.”

The corner of his mouth twitched, almost but not quite a smile. “Of course they did.” He leaned back in his chair, stretching until his spine cracked. “Tell Toji I’ll join his little circus once I finish this case study.”

You stepped closer before you could second-guess it, eyes flicking over the documents on his desk. Case law titles, dense blocks of text, notes scrawled in the margins. “You’re working? Here?”

“Mm.” He rubbed his temples in frustration, glancing towards his laptop like he's asking it to just solve itself, “Due after the break. Figured I’d get it done now so I don’t have to think about it later.”

Something in his tone struck you—so matter-of-fact, but with a quiet weariness folded in. It reminded you of the emails. That same current of discipline masking something heavier.

“You could’ve fooled me,” you said softly, almost without thinking. “Shoko made it sound like you never lift a finger unless someone forces you.”

His head tilted, blue eyes sliding back to you. For a heartbeat, they lingered too long. Then he huffed out a low breath, leaning forward again to tap idly at the keyboard. “Shoko talks too much.”

Silence stretched between you, thick but not heavy, broken only by the rhythmic clatter of laptop keys and the faint rise and fall of laughter seeping in from the deck. You should’ve felt out of place here—standing stiff in the doorway, watching him work like some awkward intruder—but instead it felt oddly steady.

Like this version of him—shoulders slightly hunched, hair falling messily across his forehead, long fingers moving with sharp precision over the keys—was something you weren’t supposed to witness. Something private, unpolished. But you were glad you did. Because here, stripped of the distance and the polite mask he wore so easily, Satoru looked… human.

Your breath caught before you could help it. It was unfair, you thought, how the smallest cracks in someone could make them feel more real.

As if he’d sensed the weight of your staring, his voice cut through the quiet. Low, even. “Y’know, you could sit down. You look like a kid caught sneaking cookies standing there like that.”

Heat rushed up your neck instantly. You startled, stammering, “No, I—I didn’t want to bother you. I was just going to leave, but I—”

“Sit,” he interrupted, not unkindly, motioning casually with one hand toward the empty chair beside him. “If you go back out there, they’ll just send you back in. That, or Shoko’ll come in and murder me.”

The dryness in his tone nearly coaxed a laugh from you, but your heart was hammering too fast against your ribs. With a small, reluctant nod, you stepped further in, the floor creaking under your weight, and lowered yourself into the chair beside him.

Up close, the scent of his coffee lingered faintly in the air—rich, dark, grounding. Your knees brushed the edge of the desk as you tucked your hands into your lap, trying to look anywhere but at him.

Still, your pulse thrummed loud in your ears, because sitting here, in his quiet, felt far more dangerous than the noise outside ever could.

Without meaning to, your gaze slipped over the mess of papers spread across his desk. Case files, statutes, highlighted precedent—all scrawled over with Satoru’s sharp handwriting. Criminal law, the header read, the kind of dense black-letter passages most people would skim past with glazed eyes.

But not you.

Your eyes snagged on one line, the words leaping out before you could stop them. R v. Cunningham, 1957. Recklessness. You skimmed the underlined note—“intent vs. negligence?”—and your brain, trained to chase patterns, clicked into gear.

A few lines down, a statute reference. Japanese Penal Code, Article 211. Negligence resulting in death or injury. You could almost hear your professors in Osaka droning about causation in biology experiments, about correlation not implying intent. The parallels struck instantly.

The defendant didn’t have to intend harm. It wasn’t about what he wanted. It was about what he failed to do.

Before you realized it, your lips moved. Quiet. Half-whispered. Almost to yourself.

“…It’s not about mens rea at all. The negligence standard shifts the burden. The prosecution doesn’t have to prove motive—just causation. That’s why the defense falls apart.”

The words hung in the air, fragile, before you even realized you’d said them aloud.

And then silence.

You froze, heart leaping into your throat. Your hand twitched toward your mouth, as if you could shove the words back in, make them unsaid. You hadn’t meant to speak. You hadn’t meant to touch his work.

But when you finally dared to glance up, Satoru was staring at you.

Not with polite disinterest. Not with that detached mask he wore so easily. His eyes were sharp, alert, as though you’d just flipped the entire board he’d been playing on.

“I didn’t mean to intrude,” you blurted, panic rising in your throat as your eyes flicked from the open laptop back to him. “I-It just… made sense. Your notes had all the answers.”

The words tumbled out before you could reel them back in, and now they hung in the air, fragile and exposed.

Satoru stilled. His fingers hovered just above the keyboard, blue eyes sliding toward you with a sharpness that made your chest seize. He wasn’t scowling, wasn’t annoyed—it was worse. He looked intrigued.

“…Made sense?” he echoed, voice low, testing.

Your mouth went dry. Heat flushed up your neck, but you forced yourself to nod, even as your hands curled tight in your lap. “Y-Yeah. The case—it’s just… the defendant’s intent wasn’t strong enough to hold a charge of attempted homicide, not when all the evidence points toward negligence instead of premeditation. You… you wrote that in your outline, but it felt like you were circling it instead of saying it outright.”

The silence that followed pressed heavy, and for a heartbeat you wished the yacht would rock hard enough to toss you straight into the ocean.

Then—

A laugh. Soft, disbelieving, slipping from his lips as he leaned back in his chair. “You’ve gotta be kidding me.”

You froze, cheeks burning. “S-Sorry. I didn’t mean—I wasn’t trying to—”

But he wasn’t laughing at you, not really. He pinched the bridge of his nose, shaking his head once before tilting it toward you, eyes narrowing with curiosity. “How the hell did you—” He cut himself off, then leaned forward, tapping a few lines of text on the screen. “Alright then. What about this? Circumstantial evidence on the weapon. Do we throw it out, or can it stick?”

Your heart pounded, but your mouth was already moving. “Stick—if it’s tied to possession. They can’t prove usage, but ownership lines up too neatly for it to be tossed completely.”

You faltered, then added quickly, almost defensive, “It’s like… in biology. If a certain marker keeps showing up in the same sample, even if you can’t prove what it’s doing, you can’t just throw it out. Or like in those crime documentaries I watch—it’s not the smoking gun, but it’s the thread that ties everything together. It’s enough to raise the question.”

For the first time, Satoru looked at you like you weren’t just some girl Shoko dragged along. His brows lifted, the faintest ghost of a grin tugging at his lips. “Oh?”

That single syllable lodged in your chest, sharper than a blade.

You swallowed hard, voice dropping. “I… read law for fun, sometimes. Not seriously, just… enough to understand. If it wasn’t biology, it would’ve been medicine or law. I like the way they make sense, the way there’s always an answer if you look hard enough.”

Satoru studied you for a long beat, his expression unreadable. Not mocking. Not dismissive. Just… weighing.

Satoru didn’t answer right away. He leaned back in his chair, fingers steepled lightly against his lips as if he were studying you the way he might a witness in court. His gaze was steady, sharper than before, but not cruel.

“…Biology major,” he said finally, almost to himself. His head tilted, silver hair falling into his eyes. “And yet you’re over here tearing apart case law like it’s nothing.”

Your chest squeezed. The weight of his attention felt unbearable—too much and not enough all at once. You wanted to shrink back into your shadows, to take the words you’d spilled and bury them where he’d never find them. But some stubborn part of you—the same part that had read his emails at midnight and let them burn under your skin—kept you rooted in place.

You opened your mouth, fumbling for an explanation, but he cut in first, voice softer this time, almost thoughtful:

“…Not bad.”

Two words. Simple. But the way they landed made your pulse stutter. Not mocking. Not teasing. It sounded almost like respect—quiet, reluctant respect.

You blinked, caught somewhere between relief and panic, and managed a weak laugh. “I told you. I read for fun. That’s all.”

His eyes lingered a second longer, unreadable, before he leaned back and finally let the laptop screen glow take him again, as though the moment had never happened.

But you felt it. You’d seen the shift in his expression, the faint crack in the cold, polished mask he wore so well.

Before the silence could grow unbearable, the door slammed open.

“Oi, Gojo.”

Shoko’s voice cut sharp into the room, breaking the air like glass. She leaned against the doorway with her usual smirk, sunglasses perched on her head, eyes flicking between the two of you.

“What are you doing? We sent Y/N to drag you out, but it looks like you imprisoned her here. Are you enslaving my best friend, making her do your work?”

You jumped, heat rushing to your face. “I—I wasn’t—”

But Satoru was faster. He didn’t even look up, fingers still tapping idly against the edge of his laptop. “Relax. Your ‘best friend’ just saved me half an hour of headache. You should be thanking her.”

Shoko’s grin widened, sharp and knowing. “Oh, I will. Just as soon as I drag her away from your clutches.”

Standing quickly, you smoothed your hands down the front of your shorts, hoping it would disguise the way they trembled. Your face was already burning, heat crawling from your neck to your ears, and you didn’t dare risk meeting his eyes. Not now. Not when you felt so raw, so exposed.

So you let Shoko hook her arm through yours, tugging you toward the door with that infuriating grin plastered on her face. You didn’t resist. You couldn’t. The only thought pounding in your head was that if you lingered even a second longer, your chest might split open, your heart spilling everything you weren’t ready to admit.

You didn’t look back.

But if you had—just once—you would’ve caught it.

The way Satoru’s gaze followed you, steady and unflinching, long after you’d crossed the threshold.

By the time Shoko released you back onto the deck, the laughter was already in full swing again. Toji was halfway through recounting some story about their first year of med school, complete with dramatic hand gestures, while Utahime kept swatting at him to stop exaggerating. Shoko shoved you into the seat beside her, smug as ever, and poured you a glass of juice as though to say, there, now act normal.

You nodded, tried to laugh where you should, to listen, to let their rhythm absorb you. It worked—for a while.

But every so often, when your thoughts slipped, you found yourself replaying the scene in that cabin. The way his shoulder had brushed yours when he leaned over, the way his brow furrowed as he realized you weren’t bluffing, the weight of his eyes before Shoko barged in. You pressed your nails into your palm beneath the table, grounding yourself back in the noise, the present.

Half an hour passed before you saw him again.

The sun had begun to sink, staining the horizon with strokes of orange and violet, the breeze sharpening as the day cooled. You’d tugged your cardigan tighter around you, watching as Shoko tried to cheat at cards and Toji loudly accused her of stacking the deck.

The cabin door creaked open.

Satoru stepped out, slow, unhurried. He’d traded his long sleeves for a hoodie, the hood tugged loosely over his silver hair, the hem brushing low over his shorts. He moved with the kind of ease that made the whole world look staged—like even the sea breeze had been timed to catch the edges of his clothes.

He didn’t announce himself, didn’t call attention—just slipped back into the group’s orbit, hands stuffed into his pockets, as if half an hour of silence could be erased by presence alone.

But you noticed. You always did.

And when his gaze flicked over the deck once, pausing on you for the briefest heartbeat before drifting away, you swore the chill in the wind had nothing to do with the sea.

The game at the table only grew louder, the kind of chaotic noise that came from too many years of knowing each other too well. Utahime accused Toji of hiding cards up his sleeve, Toji swore Shoko was stacking the deck, and Shoko called them both idiots. The arguments overlapped until it was nothing but laughter tangled with insults, and you couldn’t help but smile—even if you only half understood the shorthand of their banter.

You sat a little back from the chaos, cardigan tugged tight around your frame. The wind had picked up, sharper now, carrying the bite of evening. Your fingers curled into the fabric at your elbows, trying to trap what little warmth it could hold.

That was when you felt it.

A shift, subtle, from across the table. You lifted your gaze and found him looking at you. Not openly, not long enough to make anyone else notice, but just enough for you to feel it—like he’d seen the way your shoulders trembled, the way you kept tucking your hands into your sleeves.

Without a word, he stood.

The conversation around the table barely faltered, no one paying much attention as Satoru slipped his hands into the front pocket of his hoodie, tugged it over his head, and crossed the small space between you. He stopped just behind your chair, and before you could ask what he was doing, the weight of fabric brushed over your shoulders.

Warmth, faintly smelling of coffee and salt, settled around you.

You stiffened, heart jerking up into your throat.

“Cold?” His voice was even, almost bored, like he hadn’t just stripped a layer off himself to cover you.

You fumbled, hands gripping the sleeves instinctively, pulling them close. “I—um—yeah. A little.”

“Then wear it.” He didn’t wait for your answer, already moving back toward his seat, as if the exchange meant nothing. As if it hadn’t set your skin alight.

The hoodie hung loose at you, soft at the cuffs, smelling faintly of soap and coffee. You tried not to draw attention to it, pulling the fabric tighter whenever Shoko leaned too close, but no one seemed to notice—too caught up in Toji’s dramatic groans at losing yet another round of cards.

Then Shoko shot up from her seat, sunglasses perched back on her head like a crown. “You have to take a photo of me in the sunset,” she declared, already dragging Utahime up by the wrist. “C’mon, it’s golden hour. If I don’t get at least three angles, I’ll die.”

Utahime groaned but let herself be pulled away, muttering something about being reduced to “Shoko’s personal tripod.” Toji stayed behind, mumbling about how real men didn’t “waste time posing for the sun,” though you caught the way his eyes followed them anyway.

And just like that, the noise around the table thinned.

You shifted on the bench, gaze flicking to the horizon. The sun had begun its slow descent, bleeding gold into the rippling water. The air was cooler now, sea breeze rolling gentle but steady, tugging at the loose hairs around your face.

When you turned back, you weren’t alone.

Gojo had moved from his seat without you noticing, stepping to the rail just a few feet away. The fading light caught on his profile, gilding the sharp edges of his face, softening the mess of white hair that swayed lightly in the wind. He stood easy, hands slipped into his pockets, as if sunsets were just another ordinary detail in a day.

But you knew better.

The emails had told you—lines that bled of longing, of promises attached to skies painted just like this one. And now, standing there, the ache of knowing pressed harder into your ribs.

You rose almost without thinking, drifting to the railing a careful step away from him. For a moment, neither of you spoke, just the quiet lap of water against the hull and the sun’s reflection stretching endless across the waves.

Then, his voice—low, even, unhurried.

“You like sunsets too?”

The question was simple, almost casual, but your heart stuttered anyway.

“…Yeah,” you managed, fingers curling around the railing. “There’s something about them. Like they’re… fleeting. You can’t hold onto them, no matter how much you want to.”

He hummed, gaze fixed on the horizon. “Maybe that’s what makes them worth looking at.”

You glanced at him then, the gold light catching in his eyes, making them glow brighter, bluer, like the sea had caught fire just for him. And you thought, not for the first time, that this was dangerous—standing here with him, hearing words that brushed too close to the ones you’d already read in secret.

You looked, you breathed, you told yourself not to fall for a sky. But it felt real—even if you told yourself he didn’t exist.

And there it was—the dissonance of it—gold burning over blue, right where you couldn’t touch.

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↳ Genre: Angst, Fluff

↳ Pairing: college!gojo x fem!reader

↳ Warnings: unrequited love

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song for this chapter: motion sickness - phoebe bridgers

“I can hardly feel anything,

I hardly feel anything at all.”

The fire—you could feel it again.

That flicker you first mistook for imagination, the spark that had been dancing on your skin ever since you read his pain. You told yourself to snuff it out, to bury it deep, because it was never yours to hold, never yours to feel. You were only a witness. A trespasser in someone else’s heartbreak.

But right now, standing in front of him, it burned.

Not like a candle’s gentle flame, easy to tame with a breath. No—this was sharper, hungrier. It licked up the walls you’d so carefully built, searing through every denial you whispered to yourself. The words you had read in stolen silence came alive in his presence, pressed into the shape of his voice, the curve of his hand, the impossible blue of his gaze.

And for the first time, you realized: it wasn’t just his fire. It had always been yours too.

Your palm feels clammy. Ridiculous, considering it’s just a handshake. People do it every day. But this isn’t just anyone, is it? This is him.

The pause stretches until you’re sure everyone notices — Shoko shifting her weight impatiently, Toji raising a brow like he’s watching a chess match. Finally, before the silence can expose you, you slide your hand into his.

Warm. Steady. Too steady.

“Gojo Satoru,” he repeats, voice smooth, practiced, polite. Detached. Like the name means nothing, like he hasn’t carved it into the marrow of your days without ever knowing.

“Y/N,” you manage, the syllables catching in your throat.

His grip is firm but fleeting, gone before you can decide whether to hold tighter or pull away faster. And just like that, he’s already looking elsewhere, attention drifting to his friends behind you, as if the introduction has already been filed away.

The air resumes its rhythm—Utahime rolling her eyes at Shoko’s too-loud “hag!” greeting, Toji laughing like he’s paid by the decibel—but you’re still suspended in that heartbeat where his skin pressed against yours.

Gojo Satoru.

The name rattles through you like loose change in a pocket. Heavier.

You force yourself to breathe. To act normal. To sit when Shoko drags you toward the cushioned benches. But you can still feel it—the ghost of his hand against yours, the echo of his name ricocheting in your head. Turning around, you decide to follow suit, heading towards where the rest of the gang is. Shoko throws herself onto a cushioned bench, sprawling like she owns the yacht. “Finally. Thought I’d collapse before we even left the dock.”

“Wouldn’t be the first time,” Utahime quips, sliding into the seat beside her with far more grace.

“Wow, great to see you too,” Shoko fires back, though she’s already grinning.

Toji drops into a chair opposite them, stretching like a cat. “If she collapses, I’m not carrying her this time. Last time I nearly tore my back.”

Shoko glares at him over her sunglasses. “You’re dramatic.”

“You’re heavy.”

Their bickering fills the deck, familiar and easy. It should comfort you, but instead, your awareness narrows—down to the way Gojo takes the seat beside Toji, long legs folding effortlessly, book balanced on his knee. He doesn’t join the banter. Doesn’t even smile. Just sits, posture casual but aura untouchable, like the noise around him never touches the surface.

You sink into a spot across from him, caught between Shoko’s elbow nudges and Utahime’s kind attempts to loop you into conversation. You nod when they ask about Osaka, smile faintly when Toji jokes about how different you are to Shoko, but your gaze keeps drifting—magnetized, against your will. “So,” Utahime says, tilting her head, “Shoko tells me you’re just here for the break. From Osaka, right?”

You nod, fingers curling around the glass of water you’ve barely touched. “Yeah. I thought I’d just visit her for a while. Been meaning to see Tokyo anyway.”

“Brave of you,” Toji cuts in, dropping onto the seat across from you, grin tugging at his mouth. “Most people from smaller cities come here and freeze up. You look like you’re holding it together.” Shoko snorts, flicking a grape at him. “That’s ‘cause I’m here. If she were alone, she’d combust.”

You roll your eyes, cheeks heating. “I’m not that hopeless.”

Utahime’s smile widens, soft but amused. “Well, we’re glad she brought you along. It’s nice to have new company.”

The conversation swells—lighthearted, messy in the way only old friends can be. Toji makes some joke about Shoko’s old med school stories, Utahime bats at him for exaggerating, and Shoko fights back with a quip sharp enough to make you laugh.

But through it all, you feel it.

That gaze.

Gojo hasn’t said much since he introduced himself. Just a polite smile, his book resting easy against the table. One long arm draped carelessly over the chair, like even here, even now, he’s never entirely touched by the moment. But every time you speak—answering Utahime’s questions about your degree, your love for biology, the way you’re adjusting to Tokyo’s chaos—you feel it. His eyes. Clear, deliberate, quiet.

Not prying. Not teasing.

Just listening.

It should be nothing. It is nothing. And yet somehow it leaves you more exposed than Toji’s jokes or Shoko’s relentless commentary ever could.

Toji leans back in his chair, his grin easy as ever. “You know, this isn’t the first time we’ve met.”

You already know what he means, the memory surfacing before he can finish. The sterile glow of the train station, the panic in your chest, his voice pulling you back like an anchor.

“Kasai Rinkai Park,” you say softly, meeting his eyes. “You walked me there when I got lost.”

Before you can even breathe, another movement catches your eye.

Gojo’s head snaps toward you—sharp, sudden, like the name of that place flipped a switch. His blue eyes pin you, clear and unyielding, before sliding away just as quickly. He says nothing, expression smooth, but the weight of his attention lingers in the air.

The grin on Toji’s face widens, genuine this time. “Exactly. Didn’t think you’d remember.”

Shoko’s head snaps toward you so fast you nearly hear it crack. “Wait—what? Kasai Rinkai? You never told me about this.”

You blink, startled by her tone. “I—I didn’t think it mattered. You were at home. I just…wanted to see the sunset.”

Shoko’s head whips around next, disbelief painted all over her face. “My god—you could have gotten lost! I could have taken you there myself. What were you thinking?!”

You wished it ended there. You really wished it did—

—but Utahime leans in, brows knitting in quiet curiosity. “But… why that park? There are others closer to Shoko’s place. You would’ve seen the sunset just the same.”

Your throat goes dry. You blink, fumbling, the words tangling before they even reach your tongue. “I—uh—just…wanted to see the coast. I’d heard it was nice, read it somewhere on the internet.. and Toji happened to be there so… it just worked out.”

The excuse sounds thin even to your own ears, flimsy as paper against the weight of the silence that follows. Your laugh comes out thin, brittle, and you pray it sounds convincing.

Shoko frowns, muttering something under her breath about your terrible sense of direction, and Utahime lets the subject drop with a small nod. The chatter slowly resumes, but the air around you feels different now, taut and buzzing.

Across the table, you catch it—the way Gojo’s gaze lingers on you at the mention of the park. Not accusing, not questioning, but steady enough to make your pulse quicken. His expression doesn’t shift, still wearing that polite, distant mask, yet something about that detail seems to have caught on him like a hook. For a moment too long, his eyes rest on you, unreadable, before sliding away as if nothing had happened.

And you know why. You know exactly why.

But you have to pretend like you don’t.

The sun pressed heavy against your shoulders, laughter from the bow tumbling over itself in waves. Shoko’s voice carried above them all, sharp and bright, and Toji’s rumbling laugh followed close behind. Utahime was chiming in too—teasing, easy, the kind of noise that made everything feel light.

But for you, it was too much.

You reach for your phone from your bag, checking the time. 1:09 PM. It hasn’t even been that long, and the recent events had already exhausted you. The introductions, the stares, the weight of a name you shouldn’t recognize—your chest felt tight, like you’d already run a marathon no one else noticed you were in.

That’s when you slipped away, the deck rocking under your steps, fingers brushing against the polished railing as if to steady yourself. You told yourself you’d only rest for a moment, that no one would notice you’d gone.

The cabin door gave a soft creak when you pushed it open. Inside, the air was cooler, dimmer, thick with the faint scent of varnished wood and salt. Relief sighed through you as the noise of the deck dulled behind the shut door.

You didn’t realize you weren’t alone until you did.

He was already there.

Satoru sat at a small table by the window, long legs stretched out, posture careless but contained. A book was balanced loosely in his hand—Norwegian Wood, its green cover catching a slant of light.

You hadn’t even noticed how he slipped away from the group first—their laughter had been too loud, Shoko’s voice filling every gap, Toji’s jokes booming over the crash of waves. Somehow in the noise, he’d ghosted out of sight, as if vanishing was second nature to him. No chair scraping, no footsteps on the deck, no door creaking until you were the one standing here. Like the air had simply thinned, and when it settled again, he was gone.

And now here he was. Alone. Composed. As though he belonged to this quiet more than he ever could to the world above deck.

You stilled, not knowing how to react. Before you could even make a run for it, he was already looking at you.

For a moment, you thought he'd be surprised; embarrassed, shy at your sudden intrusion. But instead, you were met with polite eyes and comfortable silence, like he was welcoming your presence despite not saying a word.

He felt different from the person you had in your head.

You felt heat creep up your cheeks, suddenly feeling conscious about the way you were standing there awkwardly, hand still holding the doorknob as if your life defended on it. You wished for someone to suddenly intervene, to save you from this silence.

You couldn't stand it anymore. You had to say something, anything.

“Sorry,” you blurted, pulse skipping. “I didn’t know anyone was in here. I just needed—” You hesitated, fumbling for words. “…somewhere quiet.”

Satoru opened his mouth to reply, then closed it again. Sighing, he turned to face you fully, putting the book aside. He looked at you for a moment, before speaking. "This is the boys' room," he mumbles, eyes suddenly looking away from your form. "The girls' is right across."

Your stomach dropped. Of course it was. Of course you’d wandered straight into the wrong place.

“I—oh.” The word tumbled out awkward, tangled in your throat. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to—”

But his voice cut gently across yours, low and even. “It’s fine.”

Your hand tightened on the doorknob, the cool metal biting into your palm. The girls’ cabin was right across the hall—you knew that. You could have walked a few steps, shut the door behind you, and had your quiet there. Safer. Easier.

But your body didn’t move. Maybe it was exhaustion, maybe it was the thought of Shoko barging in with questions, maybe it was something else entirely.

All you knew was that, for reasons you couldn’t name, your feet stayed rooted in place.

Slowly, your grip slackened, fingers slipping from the knob.

“I just…” You spoke again, awkward, but softer this time. “…needed to sit down.”

That finally drew his gaze back to you, sharp blue settling over your face like a weight. Not curious, not kind, but something else you couldn’t name. He studied you for a beat too long before leaning back in his chair, tipping it onto two legs in something that looked casual but felt deliberate.

You shifted, half-turned toward the door, unsure if you should excuse yourself after all—

“There’s room,” he said simply, tilting his chin toward the empty couch against the wall. Your heart slammed inside your chest violently, not expecting a response from him. Much less an invitation.

Well, it wasn’t an invitation—not really. More like a reluctant allowance, the bare minimum of courtesy. You didn't mind.

You let go of the doorknob, the click of the latch sounding louder than it should have, and crossed the room. Each step felt heavy, your sundress brushing against your knees like it was betraying you by announcing your presence. You sat, tucking your hands into your lap, heart thudding louder than the creak of the yacht shifting on the waves.

Satoru didn’t look at you again. He picked his book back up, thumb slipping between the pages, eyes flicking down like you’d disappeared. But every so often, you caught it—the faint pause before a page turned, the slight stillness of his hand. As if he were listening. As if your silence had a sound he could hear.

And sitting there, with the fire sparking back up in your chest, you realized just how dangerous quiet could be.

The minutes that went by felt like hell.

You sat there, quiet, head leaning against the wall, eyes closed. The sway of the yacht was gentle, almost lulling, and for a moment you let yourself pretend he wasn’t there at all—that you were just catching your breath in some anonymous room, not sharing air with the man whose words had been clawing at you for weeks.

The silence stretched, thick but not unbearable. You could almost sink into it, let it hold you. Almost.

But silence with Gojo wasn’t weightless. It pressed in, steady, reminding you with every second that he was only a few feet away.

“Do you always run from noise this fast?”

Your eyes opened. His voice carried no edge, no teasing lilt, just a simple observation. He wasn’t looking at you, either—still propped in his chair, book loose in one hand, gaze skimming the window as if the sea was more interesting.

You straightened a little, unsure if you should laugh or defend yourself. “I didn’t run,” you said, the words slipping out sharper than you intended. “I just… needed space.”

That seemed to amuse him. The smallest curve ghosted over his lips before vanishing, almost too quick to catch. “Space, huh. Makes sense.”

You frowned, heart thudding faster. “Why does that make sense?”

Gojo finally looked at you then, and it was worse than silence. His eyes were too much up close—too blue, too searching, like they left no room to hide. He didn’t answer right away, letting the pause stretch until you wondered if you’d regret asking.

Then, softly, casually, “You look like someone who keeps a lot inside. The kind who only breathes easy when no one’s watching.”

The words landed heavy, uncomfortably precise. You shifted under the weight of them, wishing you could tuck yourself into the wall and vanish.

“…That’s not a bad thing,” he added after a beat, tone clipped, dismissive almost. “Just rare.”

He turned back to his book as if nothing had passed between you, as if he hadn’t just spoken you into a corner you couldn’t escape.

You didn’t know what to say. You were torn—leave it there, let the silence stretch, or keep the conversation going. This felt all too weird, all too much to happen in just a span of days; one moment, you were back at home in Osaka, receiving a random email from a guy named Gojo Satoru, and now you were suddenly here, by fate’s will; in front of the very same man who had made your heart race even without a face to attach to it.

It felt itchy, the familiarity. You’d tried so hard, ever since you saw him earlier, to swallow it down. But it was suffocating, because even before you met him, you knew him already—and that was a secret so heavy you were suffering from carrying it alone. The only thing that had kept you afloat was the comforting thought that you may never have to meet this person, because after all, how could you? There were millions of people in Tokyo. The odds of crossing paths were nonexistent.

But you did. And it felt like the universe was mocking you, playing with you; letting you feel safe until you weren’t.

Your throat tightened, and you forced yourself to clear it. If you didn’t say something now, the silence would devour you. You'd spiral internally; just his presence alone was enough to rattle you.

“So…” you mumbled quietly, voice thinner than you wanted, “how long have you known Shoko?”

Gojo didn’t answer right away. He closed the book with a soft thump, thumb still marking his page, and leaned back in his chair as if deciding whether your question was worth answering.

“Since Toji introduced me to her,” he said at last, tone even. “She was Toji’s first friend when he entered medical school, and she never really left after that. He brought her along everywhere, and she's just always so loud, but that kept Toji on his toes. So I just got used to her presence.”

From the deck outside, Shoko’s laugh carried over the water—bright and sharp—and the sound tugged a smile from you before you could stop it.

“That sounds like her,” you murmured.

Gojo’s gaze slid back to you, polite but lingering just enough to make your pulse trip. “And you? How’d you end up with her?”

You fiddled with the hem of your dress, stalling, but you answered anyway. “She's my child hood friend,” you started, your voice coming out as a whisper you wonder if Satoru heard it, "We grew up together, went to high school together. Y'know, the typical best-friend story."

Gojo hummed low in his throat, the kind of sound that could’ve meant anything—or nothing at all. He tilted his head, gaze flicking briefly toward the closed door as if picturing Shoko’s laugh on the other side, then back to you.

“Figures,” he said finally. “She’s not the type to let go once she decides you’re hers.”

The words are simple, almost careless, but the way his eyes linger on you when he says it makes your breath snag. Like he’s measuring something about you, some invisible thread you can’t quite name.

You force yourself to look down at your lap, at the yellow fabric pooled over your knees. “Yeah,” you whisper, “she never gave me a choice.”

For a moment, neither of you speak. The yacht sways, wood creaking softly around you, and the silence between you stretches—quiet, fragile, but not empty.

You weren’t sure if you should speak again or let the moment die quietly between you when—

The door swung open without warning, sunlight spilling in behind Shoko as her voice rang out, unbothered and bright. “Is Y/N in here? I’ve been looking all over for her.”

Satoru didn’t even blink. He tilted his head slightly toward you, still lounging in his chair. “She’s resting.”

Shoko’s eyes found you almost instantly, narrowing the way they always did when she sensed something she could use against you later. A grin tugged at the corner of her mouth, sharp and playful, her weight leaning into the doorframe like she had all the time in the world.

“But why here?” she drawled, gaze flicking between you and Gojo with deliberate slowness. “This is the boys’ room.”

But Shoko being Shoko, you know what was about to happen. The grin forming on her lips had you facepalming internally, because that usually means she will make things worse.

Her grin widened as if she’d struck gold. “Wait—are you two having a moment?”

Heat rushed to your cheeks, and you opened your mouth—ready to defend yourself, to explain, to say something that didn’t sound like the truth clawing at your chest—but Satoru got there first.

“She was tired,” he said simply, a lazy shrug in his shoulders. “I’m not heartless enough to kick her out when she needed a breather from your loud mouth. But if it were you who came in? I’d have tossed you out without a second thought."

Shoko gasped, mock-offended. “Excuse me? Loud mouth? And you don't own this yacht, you don't have the power to toss people out, asshole.”

“Whatever,” Satoru mumbled, settling back against his chair, as if he hadn’t just shifted the attention away from you with surgical precision. Shoko glared at him so hard you thought her eyes would pop out of anger.

Rolling her eyes, she grabbed your wrist as a cue to leave. “C’mon, Y/N. Don’t let him fool you with his fake gentleman act. He’s just trying to make himself look better.”

You stumbled to your feet, skin still hot where the silence had pressed against it. Shoko’s grip on your wrist was warm and insistent, dragging you toward the hall, away from the suffocating quiet you hadn’t known how to escape on your own.

But just before the door shut, you couldn’t help yourself. You looked back.

Satoru was already where you’d first found him—book in hand, posture easy, eyes lowered as if the interruption hadn’t meant anything at all. As if you hadn’t even been there.

“You know what,” you muttered at Shoko, half your body already out the door, “I am this close to drowning you if you ever tease me like that again.”

This time, you didn’t turn around. You couldn’t.

But when you did—just for the smallest, most traitorous second as you closed the door—you caught it. The barest twitch at the corner of his lips. Not a smile. Not exactly. Something smaller. Something you weren’t meant to see.

The night had settled soft over the yacht, the waves lapping gentle against the hull as though trying to lull the passengers to sleep. After a long day of chatter and sun, the girls’ cabin felt like a small sanctuary—warm light pooling from the bedside lamp, Shoko’s clothes already draped carelessly over the chair in the corner, the faint smell of her perfume lingering in the air.

You sat cross-legged on the bed, still half in your sundress, fiddling with the hem as your thoughts churned. Shoko was in the middle of her nightly ritual, hair twisted up in a lazy bun as she rummaged through her skincare bag with the precision of a surgeon. The soft click of bottles opening and closing filled the space, familiar, grounding.

But you couldn’t shake the weight pressing in your chest. The name. The eyes. The book.

“Hey, Ie?” Your voice came out softer than you intended.

Shoko hummed, dabbing toner onto her face. “Mm?”

You hesitated, chewing on the inside of your cheek. Asking outright felt dangerous—like stepping into territory you weren’t supposed to touch. But the words pressed against your ribs until they spilled out anyway.

“What’s… what’s Satoru like?”

Shoko froze mid-swipe, cotton pad hovering just above her cheek. Slowly, she turned to look at you, one brow arched in suspicion. “Why do you ask?”

You shrugged quickly, forcing a laugh that sounded far too thin. “Just curious. You said before he’s been your friend since Toji introduced you… but you never really talk about him.”

She studied you for a beat longer, eyes narrowing like she was dissecting more than just your words. Then she sighed, setting the cotton pad down. “That’s because he’s complicated.”

Your chest tightened. “Complicated how?”

Shoko flopped onto the bed beside you, the mattress dipping under her weight. She smelled faintly of sea breeze and makeup wipes. “He’s… polite when he wants to be, arrogant most of the time, smart enough to piss people off without even trying. The kind of guy who looks like he has the world in his hands but still manages to act like it’s not enough.”

Her tone was casual, almost dismissive, but there was a softness beneath it—a kind of reluctant fondness.

You swallowed hard, pulse quickening. “So… you're close with him, then?”

Shoko hummed again, eyes slipping shut. “Close enough. Well, I wouldn't say close. We don't really share sob stories and heart-to-heart talks.. but Toji’s known him forever, so I tolerate him. The group functions well with him around - and what I meant by that is he's automatically the second designated driver whenever we go on trips, so that is a huge advantage. He's... part of us, although Utahime hates his guts most days. Even if sometimes it feels like he’s not really here.”

Her words lingered, heavy, and you found yourself staring at the ceiling, heart pounding.

Because you knew exactly what she meant.

Then, as if she swallowed poison after hearing herself go slightly soft for Satoru, she recovered. “But most of the time,” Shoko scowled, as if recalling every insult ever slung across a lecture hall, “he’s a MAJOR asshole. That mouth with the comebacks—I can’t stand him!”

The door creaked open, and Utahime slipped in, her hair tied back with a loose ribbon, a sheet mask plastered to her face and a glass of red wine balanced carefully in her hand. She looked the picture of calm domesticity, despite the rocking of the yacht beneath her feet.

“Can’t stand who?” she asked, tone casual but curious.

“Oh, we’re talking about Mr. Lawyer next door,” Shoko mumbled, her voice dropping low so the boys in the other cabin wouldn’t hear. She flopped back onto the bed with a dramatic groan. “And how he’s just insufferable.”

Utahime’s brows flicked up above the pale sheet of her mask. “Satoru?”

“Who else?” Shoko grumbled.

Utahime took a long sip of her wine, then let out a dry laugh. “That’s rich, coming from you. Half the time I think you two argue just for sport. You give as good as you get.”

“That’s not the point!” Shoko shot up again, pointing an accusatory finger. “He starts it! Every single time.”

You sat there quietly, trying to fight down a smile, because you’d already witnessed firsthand how sharp Satoru's tongue could be. But hearing Shoko complain like this—like a sibling ranting about her brother—it made something in your chest ache. Because even through the scowls and grumbles, there was no denying it: Satoru was part of their rhythm. A piece of their puzzle.

Shoko suddenly turned, narrowing her eyes at you like she’d just uncovered a plot. “Wait. Why do you ask, though? Are you curious about him?” She sat up straighter, facing you fully now, suspicion sharp in her gaze. “Don’t tell me his blue fuckass eyes are working on you. You’re better than that, Y/N! Not you. He can’t make you one of his admirers.”

Your mouth fell open, heat creeping up your neck. “What—no! I was just asking. He just seems so.. reserved and quiet." You proclaim, hands up in defense as if you were in trial, acquitted of grave crime. "But admirers? What do you mean?”

Before Shoko could twist the knife further, Utahime set her wine glass down with a soft clink and peeled her mask off, her voice calm but edged with dry honesty. “Satoru’s… famous in our department. You kind of get the reason why.” She waved a hand vaguely, as if it pained her to say it out loud. “We all collectively know the truth: Satoru is good-looking. I wouldn’t dare speak that out loud, much less in front of him. He’s already insufferable as it is.”

Shoko groaned, burying her face in her pillow. “See? This is what I mean. The world has enabled him.”

Utahime smirked, refilling her glass. “Enabled him? Please. He doesn’t even try. That’s the worst part—he just exists and people fall over themselves. He doesn’t look at anyone twice, doesn’t give a damn, and somehow that makes him even more likeable in the eyes of his fanclub.”

Shoko groaned louder, dragging her pillow over her head. “Exactly. He’s a brick wall with good hair, and apparently that’s enough to keep half the department sighing over him.”

Then silence fell over, the kind that felt like they want to say something more, but shouldn't.

Utahime tilted her glass softly, eyes flicking toward Shoko with emotion you couldn't decipher. “But… he wasn’t always like that, was he?”

The room shifted a little, air growing still. Shoko dropped the pillow from her face, gaze narrowing.

“After… her,” Utahime added, voice softer now, like the words themselves carried weight.

You blinked, heart racing, “Her?”

Shoko met your eyes for a second before looking away, jaw tightening. “Not our story to tell. Even though I hate Satoru half the time, I respect him enough not to spread what isn’t mine.”

You waited, but she didn’t elaborate.

Finally, Shoko sighed, sitting up and reaching for the glass of wine on the nightstand. “Let’s just say Satoru loved hard the first time he let himself. And he paid the consequence for it.”

Oh, but you knew.

You knew all too well—knew it in the way his words bled across your inbox, each one a confession disguised as memory, a scar shaped into prose. You knew the weight of his heartbreak more intimately than either of them, more than anyone in this room could possibly imagine. Because you hadn’t just heard about “her.” You had read her ghost. You had lived inside the letters he carved for her, the devotion and ruin he poured out when no one else was looking.

You knew more than they did. And it felt wrong. Wrong to carry a story that wasn’t yours, wrong to sit here with the knowledge of his most private grief while they spoke of it in vague shadows and half-truths.

Without thinking, you reached for Shoko’s glass, tugging it gently from her hand before she could protest.

“Hey—” she started, but you ignored her, bringing it to your lips. The wine was sharp, bitter, burning down your throat in a way that felt fitting. Like punishment.

It wasn’t yours to take. Not the wine. Not the story. Not his pain.

But here you were, drinking it anyway.

Shoko only raised a brow at you, half amused, half exasperated, before letting it go with a shrug. Utahime gave you a knowing look but didn’t comment, swirling her own glass idly.

Because while they only guessed at the outline of his wound, you’d been reading the marrow of it. And that was a secret you could never share.

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Gojo finally looked at you then, and it was worse than silence. His eyes were too much up close—too blue, too searching, like they left no room to hide. He didn’t answer right away, letting the pause stretch until you wondered if you’d regret asking.

Then, softly, casually, “You look like someone who keeps a lot inside. The kind who only breathes easy when no one’s watching.”

The words landed heavy, uncomfortably precise. You shifted under the weight of them, wishing you could tuck yourself into the wall and vanish.

“…That’s not a bad thing,” he added after a beat, tone clipped, dismissive almost. “Just rare.”

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“But it’s not real,

And you don’t exist.”

"Shoko, are you sure you even need this much clothes? It's a yacht party, not a fashion runway."

Shoko, whose knees were already red from kneeling down on her carpeted floor just to make sure she pairs the right heel with the right sundress, shot you a tired glare and a middle finger. "Y/N, I have been trying to figure out how to pack light for the past hour. I can't - it's a skill I haven't mastered. So leave my luggage alone!"

Chuckling, you strolled over to her hunched figure and looked over her shoulder, seeing what has been causing great stress to your best friend for the past hour. Shoko laid out three sundresses - a yellow, orange and light pink one - and was trying to figure out which dress is paired best with her black Jimmy Choo summer sandals. Biting your lip in concentration, you pictured Shoko in each dress, determined to help her finally, finally squeeze this last dress in so you can go outside and buy dinner.

"Yellow looks good, compliments your skin tone. Brings out the color of your eyes more," You chirped in, patting her head. Shoko hummed in reply, seemingly in deep thought. It amused you how Shoko would even bother to give this non-life threatening situation so much time of the day and barely read her anki flashcards for a long exam about neurology that would take place after a break. In fact, you're the one going through her anki flashcards for the past few days just for fun, that now you're convinced you should look into taking masters for this field of work in the near future.

After what seemingly felt like eternity, Shoko finally sighed in exhaustion and grabbed the yellow sundress. You screamed internally, finally happy that she made up her mind when you felt the dress she grabbed hit your face. "Hey," you said in shock, throwing Shoko a death glare. "What was that for?"

Shoko, grabbing the red sundress, stood up from where she was kneeling and headed over to her luggage to squeeze in the cherry on top of her entire look-book for this yacht party. If you were being honest (and you honestly just didn't wanna ruin her vibe), her suitcase is almost the verge of exploding for how much clothes she's packed for a 2-week break with her friends.

"You wear that," She spoke, trying to pull the zipper of her luggage up but was having a hard time doing so, "You always look good in yellow."

You blinked, confused at what just happened. Shoko seemed to notice and take note of your silent confusion, which made her giggle. "For the record, I wasn't debating with myself on which sundress would look good on me - I was thinking which one would look better on you."

"For what?" You stood up and walked out of her room, leaving the door open enough to continue the conversation. cheeks tinted with red hue, eyes trailing over the yellow sundress now sitting on arm, "This is really pretty, but really, for what?"

Shoko, now out of breath from trying to zip her fully loaded luggage, faced you with a look that screams "are you serious?"

"It's just a dress, relax," she says, wiping the sweat off her forehead from all that zipping.

You stare down at the yellow fabric draped over your arm. It looks too bright, too hopeful, like it’s meant for someone who doesn’t spend most of her life hiding in the library.

"You make it sound like clothes are war strategy," you mutter, cheeks still burning. "Do you seriously think I’m going to wear this in front of—"

"In front of my friends?" Shoko cuts in, a sly smile tugging at her lips. "Yes. You are. Consider it my one request this whole trip. Besides, yellow looks like you’re open to the idea of summer. God knows you need it."

You roll your eyes, but her words settle heavier than you expect. Open to summer. Open to people. Open to whatever this trip is supposed to be.

Yellow. Open. Summer. The words wrap around you like a dare you didn’t sign up for. You want to tell her that it’s just fabric, that no color can change the way you fold into yourself when people look too long. But Shoko has that look — the one that says don’t fight me on this, Y/N, just live a little. And because she’s Shoko, and because she’s always been the louder half of your heartbeat, you swallow your protests.

At the back of your mind, you know Shoko’s right—your entire life, all you’ve done was work in the shadows. Settle with the silence. Despite being incredibly gifted with intelligence and skills, you always opted to be the one at the back, giving the path to the spotlight away to someone else. You were the brain, never the voice. The hand that built, but never the name written on the final page.

It wasn’t that you lacked courage; it was that you convinced yourself you didn’t need the recognition. That safety could be found in the quiet. That it was enough to be the one who knew, even if no one else ever did. But sometimes—sometimes it gnawed at you. The thought that maybe you’d buried yourself so deep in your own shadows that you’d forgotten what it meant to be seen.

Maybe that’s why Shoko pushes. Maybe she’s always known that if she didn’t drag you into the light, you’d happily let your brilliance rot in the dark.

The ticking in your head is faint, like a clock muffled under a pillow. You shake it off. It’s just nerves.

From the doorway, you watch her plop down onto her bed, satisfied with her victory, muttering something about "law boys" and "med nerds" under her breath. You choose not to ask.

Your grip tightens around the dress. For some reason, the ticking starts faintly in the back of your head again, softer than before, but there.

It feels less like a countdown this time, and more like a reminder.

Toji’s car pulls up at the curb, sunlight bouncing off the hood. You almost regret letting Shoko convince you into the sundress because suddenly you’re too aware of the way the fabric clings to your shoulders, too aware of the way your arms are bare. You tug at the hem, muttering under your breath.

Toji notices immediately. His eyes flicker once, quick but deliberate, and then he whistles low. “Yellow suits you.”

It’s so casual, so offhand, but it lands like a thunderclap in your chest. Compliments have never been your terrain; they leave you fumbling, scrambling for a deflection. And true to form, you laugh awkwardly, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.

Before you can mumble out a reply, Shoko leans in through the open window, her voice dangerously sweet. “Toji, if you so much as blink at her in the wrong way, I’ll replace your heart dissection slides with frog specimens.”

Toji snorts, hands up in surrender. “Relax, doctor-in-training. I was being polite.”

But when Shoko smirks at you from the passenger seat, you know she saw it—the way your cheeks betrayed you, the faintest heat rising. She files it away for later teasing, you can tell. That’s the thing with Shoko: she reads you like the margin notes of a well-loved book. Every scribble, every smudge, every underlined line.

You slide into the backseat, the sundress feeling heavier now, like it isn’t just fabric but an announcement you never intended to make.

Toji glances at you in the rearview mirror. It’s quick, fleeting, but his grin says enough. And you can’t help but wonder if maybe Shoko dragged you into this sundress not just to look pretty for a yacht party—but to force you, for once, into the light.

The ride to the marina is anything but quiet.

Shoko has her knees tucked up on the seat, highlighter clenched between her teeth, thumbing through anatomy flashcards with the kind of desperation usually reserved for lottery tickets. Toji shoots her a look over the rim of his sunglasses, his voice dripping with disbelief.

“Shoko. It’s called a break. You know, the thing normal people take?”

She doesn’t even glance up, muttering around the highlighter cap. “The brachial plexus doesn’t care about my vacation schedule, Toji.”

His sigh is theatrical, hand thumping against the steering wheel. “If you even think about spending this trip hunched over those cards, I’ll chuck you and your entire nervous system into the ocean. Personally fish your corpse out and dissect you myself. Save the professors the trouble.”

That earns you a laugh—sharp, surprised, bubbling out before you can catch it. Shoko narrows her eyes at him, but you can see the twitch of a smile tugging at her lips.

“You wouldn’t dare,” she mutters.

“Try me.”

Their bickering rolls on, like a script they’ve rehearsed a hundred times, and you find yourself sitting back against the seat, listening. It’s strange—comforting, even—to be surrounded by noise that doesn’t demand anything from you.

But Toji doesn’t let you disappear into the background, either. His gaze flickers up in the rearview mirror, catching you mid-smile.

“So, Y/N,” he drawls, “tell me what it’s like, living in the middle of nowhere with cows and fresh air.”

You blink. “It’s…Osaka, not exactly farmland.”

“Details,” he waves a hand. “You’re still the provincial transfer in this Tokyo movie. Small town girl, big city dreams.”

Shoko snorts, not looking up from her cards. “Correction: small town girl, big city GPA. Y/N’s idea of wild living is finishing an entire problem set before midnight.”

You roll your eyes, but Toji grins, leaning into it. “So what’s your degree again? Bio, right? Explains why you put up with her. Must be a masochist.”

You laugh again, shaking your head. “Biology. And no, I’m just used to her. Been tolerating Shoko since we were fourteen.”

“That’s worse,” he teases, eyes glinting. “Endurance sport at that point.”

Shoko swats his arm with a flashcard, which only makes him laugh harder.

By the time the car glides into the lot overlooking the marina, your cheeks ache from smiling. For a moment, you almost forget the knot in your chest, the emails sitting unread in your inbox, the strange blue eyes that won’t leave your mind.

Maybe this getaway will do what it’s supposed to—sunlight, sea breeze, distractions loud enough to drown out everything else. Maybe if you laugh hard enough, eat well enough, smile long enough, you can finally trick your conscience into quiet.

Maybe Tokyo’s ocean air will clear the weight you’ve been carrying. The guilt of reading words that were never meant for you. The guilt of holding someone else’s heartbreak like it was your own. The guilt of wanting to hold it.

For a second, you almost believe it.

(you have no idea what's in store for you.)

The marina hums with low chatter and the gentle slap of waves against polished hulls. Sleek white yachts line the docks like rows of gleaming teeth, and the salt in the air clings sharp to your throat. You tighten your grip on your bag, the yellow sundress whispering around your knees as the breeze tugs at the hem.

Shoko’s the first to stride ahead, her suitcase wheels rattling against the wood, already looking like she belongs here—confident, assured, her laugh echoing bright against the water. Toji follows at an easy pace, one hand in his pocket, sunglasses perched lazily on his nose. He’s every inch the local guide, and you’re suddenly conscious of how much you look like the outsider: the girl from Osaka, the one who’s still learning how to exist in places like this.

The yacht rocks gently under your feet, polished wood glowing warm in the midday sun. Even though Shoko had practically dragged you on board, you’re suddenly aware of how small you feel here—your hands fiddling with the hem of your sundress, your eyes fixed on the neat arrangement of white cushions and folded towels, anything to avoid looking like the awkward guest you know you are.

Shoko is already in her element, greeting Utahime with a cheeky grin and a too-loud “I missed you, hag!” while Toji rolls his eyes at their bickering. Utahime only sighs, swatting Shoko’s arm with the easy familiarity of someone used to her antics. When her gaze shifts to you, though, her expression softens—warm, composed, almost protective.

“I’m Utahime,” she says, offering her hand with a smile that feels like a small lifeline. “Glad Shoko finally brought you around.”

You return the smile, shaking her hand, grateful for the kindness laced in her tone. She makes it easy, grounding even, but still—you can feel the unfamiliarity pressing in around you like the sea air, like you’ve stepped into a circle you were never meant to enter.

You think maybe this isn’t so bad. Maybe you can play the quiet observer again, the role you’ve always known best: background character, silent shadow, the one who never tips the balance.

Or maybe here, that won’t matter. Maybe here, you can just exist.

The creak of a door interrupts your thoughts.

You turn.

He emerges from the cabin, stretching one long arm overhead as if he’s been sitting too long. A book is tucked loosely against his side, the familiar green-and-white cover instantly catching your eye. His hair is pale, catching the light in strands of silver and white, his frame tall and careless in its confidence. And then his eyes lift—

Blue. Piercing. Inevitable.

Your chest tightens in familiarity, confusion taking over your features.

This feels familiar. All too familiar.

“Ah, finally,” Toji says, gesturing with a tilt of his head, voice too casual for the storm rising in your ears. “And here’s the last member of our little getaway. Y/N, meet my oldest friend.” The man steps forward, slow, deliberate. His smile is polite, almost lazy, but there’s a distance in his gaze—as if he’s offering only the surface of himself and nothing more. He extends a hand.

“Gojo Satoru.”

Your pulse stumbles.

Gojo Satoru.

The name lodges sharp in your chest, familiar in a way you can’t immediately place. You rack your brain—frantic, searching. Where have you heard it? When?

A flash. Blue eyes at the restaurant, gone in a blink. Shoko’s voice teasing in your ear. “Everyone can have blue eyes—but then there’s Gojo.”

You repeat his name in your mind like you're memorizing every syllable. Gojo Satoru.

Your gaze drops to the book tucked neatly in the crook of his arm.

Norwegian Wood.

The title stares back at you in soft white letters, and it feels like your heart stops. For a moment, the world tilts—Shoko’s voice introducing him, Toji’s lazy grin, Utahime’s polite smile—all of it folds into background noise, drowned out by the thrum in your ears.

Because you know this book. Not in the way of a reader spotting a familiar classic in someone’s hands, but in the way of a secret, a trespass. You’ve seen this book before. You’ve read about it in lines never meant for you.

“Haruki Murakami. Norwegian Wood. I’ve finally scored your favorite book… Took us years, but hey, better late than ever, right? So come home. Read this. It’s for you.”

The email burns fresh in your mind, every word slicing back through you like it had only arrived seconds ago. You blink once, twice, as if you can dislodge the memory, but it clings—his handwriting in pixels, his voice between the lines, his grief pressed into every sentence.

And now here it is. Solid. Real. A bridge between the faceless stranger who wrote those letters and the man standing before you, polite smile, hand extended, eyes colder than winter.

Gojo Satoru.

The name finally lands, heavy as stone in your chest. The “blue” that haunted you. The friend Shoko and Toji spoke of. The ghostwriter of heartbreak that you let yourself read, again and again, when you should’ve looked away.

Your fingers twitch at your side, itching to do something—return the handshake, step back, cover your face, run. Anything to break this sharp collision of worlds. But you’re rooted to the deck, sundress tugged by the sea breeze, while his gaze, clear and glacial, slides past you like you’re nothing more than another polite introduction.

And all you can think is: you’re real.

You’ve been real this whole time.

Him.

It’s him.

Fate has a way of twisting things, doesn’t it? Cruel, deliberate, almost mocking. Out of all the inboxes in the world, out of all the cities you could’ve stayed tucked away in, it had to be yours, it had to be Tokyo. It had to be now—here, on this yacht, where coincidence feels less like chance and more like a trap set by the universe itself.

The hand still waits between you, polite. The eyes that meet yours are cold, distant, nothing like the storm of devotion you’ve been reading for weeks.

And in the span of a heartbeat, the ground tilts beneath you—caught between two ghosts of the same man. The Gojo Satoru who bled himself raw into every word, who wrote like he was burning alive, and the Gojo Satoru who stands before you now, immaculate, untouchable, looking at you with eyes that have never once known your name.

︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶  𝔀𝓮𝓵𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓴𝓪𝓸'𝓼 𝓬𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓻!

guys, I owe you the biggest, fattest apology in the world for being absent for so long! there's been a LOT of things that has happened in real life that kept me busy. i graduated college recently and have been busy with my work, but i've always had this fic at the back of my mind and how badly i want to finish it. i have so much things planned!!! ˃̵ᴗ˂̵

but kao is back in business!! ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

as always, feedback/reblogging would me a lot to me! thank you for the small appreciation you guys have shown!  ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡

see u guys in chapter 09!

↳ Genre: Angst, Fluff, Slowburn

↳ Pairing: lawstudent!gojo x fem!reader

↳ Warnings: unrequited love, angst, one-sided pining, slowburn, emotional tension, self-doubt, playful banter, satoru being stupid (in his own way), shoko being chaotic, toji being toji, drinking, background teasing, science nerd reader

↳ Playlist: (will link here!)

↳ Masterlist: 01 02 03 04 05 06 07 08 09 10

song for this chapter: cliche - mxmtoon

"I looked down at the ground,

And I felt it right within."

You know that scene in a movie where the protagonist finally, finally spots the pair of eyes they’ve been unknowingly searching for—through the noise, the crowd, the chaos—and for one suspended second, the world stops?

And then, just as quickly, it’s gone.

That’s what it felt like.

One second, you were looking into blue eyes. The next, they vanished, slipping from your reach so swiftly you almost doubted they’d been there at all. Maybe it was exhaustion. Maybe hunger. Maybe your brain, foggy and starved, was stitching together a hallucination just to amuse itself.

But hallucination or not—those eyes were beautiful.

Blue like a sea untouched by man, the kind you’d only ever seen in documentaries—where turtles didn’t choke on plastic and coral still bloomed bright. Blue like the water at the beach your parents had taken you to when you were seven, the day your fascination with marine biology had cracked open inside you. That same warmth, that same rush of familiarity. Like something you wanted to understand.

(Or maybe—something you already did.)

If it weren’t for Shoko’s hands flapping wildly in front of your face, you were certain you’d already be immortalized on the internet as some dumb meme: POV: You wait two hours in line just to watch a couple cut ahead with no reservation. And Shoko? She’d be the first to like it.

“Listen,” Shoko muttered, catching your face between both palms. Somehow her shopping bags had migrated to Toji’s arm, leaving him standing there equally baffled. “I know you’re in a trance right now because the waiter just passed by with a lobster the size of a toddler, and trust me, I get it. But if you keep gawking at the air, we are never going to eat.”

Toji stifled a laugh, shoulders shaking. “You’re funny. Sometimes.”

Shoko shot him a glare sharp enough to decapitate, the kind that screamed I am funny all the time, and also, I am starving.

For some reason, Toji seemed to get the message. With just one look.

Normally—in situations like this—you’d laugh it off, pretend it didn’t happen, sink into your seat, and later lie awake overthinking every second of it. Classic anxious introvert cycle.

But this time was different. Something snagged at you, like a loose thread you couldn’t ignore. It didn’t matter that your stomach growled, or that your legs were trembling from standing too long. You were aware, alert, with only one thought looping in your mind:

Blue eyes. Here, then gone.

And the familiarity that came with them.

Why?

“Who was that?” you whispered before you could stop yourself.

Toji blinked at you, very much a man who just wanted lunch, craning his neck to glance behind him. “Who?”

Shoko frowned, turning toward Toji with a look that screamed diagnose this. “Okay, but like—real question. Can hunger actually cause hallucinations? Because I think Y/N’s experiencing that right now.”

“I am conscious, Ie,” you snapped, heat rushing to your cheeks.

“Then what on earth are you talking about?”

“You know…” Toji shifted the bags on his arm, scratching the back of his neck. “Maybe we could, I don’t know, talk about this after we sit down? Like, inside. Where the food is. We’ve been standing here for fifteen minutes, and everyone’s looking at us like we’re insane.”

“Blue,” you blurted, the word tumbling out before you could reel it back.

Shoko grabbed your wrist instantly, tugging you forward, her tone half-teasing, half-concerned. Toji muttered something behind you—low, almost protective. “Be careful.”

You didn’t know who you’d seen.

But you knew it wasn’t the lobsters.

Somehow, in all this fiasco, you wound up inside Toji’s luxurious car—with Shoko insisting you take the passenger seat so she could stretch out and nap in the back. And so here you were: trapped between a snoring best friend and an awkward silence with the man you’d seen twice in a span of days, now driving you home.

“Wait.” You finally broke, stealing a glance at Toji. “What are you doing here?”

He blinked, mock-offended, but his eyes gleamed with amusement. “What do you mean what am I doing here? This is my car. I’m driving. You’re in it. What’s up?”

Your brows furrowed, mouth twisting. The sunlight was sinking low, catching the glass of his window, bouncing soft gold across your features. For some reason, Toji noticed. For some reason, he thought beautiful. For some reason, he thought that was weird.

“I mean—” you fumbled, hands twisting in your lap. “I saw you at the train station a few days ago. And then again at the restaurant today. But Shoko didn’t even question it, like you’ve been around this whole time. So what are you—I mean—who the hell—”

He barked out a laugh, tossing his head back for a second too long before Shoko groaned in warning. “Shut up. Someone’s sleeping.”

Toji rolled his eyes. “Your best friend is literally passed out, sneakers still on the seat after I told her a hundred times not to do that. Remind me never to volunteer to drive her home after demos.” He clicked his tongue dramatically, shaking his head, which made you laugh despite yourself.

“So you’re from her university, then?” you asked softly. “I heard her say something earlier—‘we’re medical students’—when I was…” you faltered, unwilling to admit entranced by blue.

“When you were gawking at nothing?” Toji cut in, smirking. “Yeah, I am. Met Shoko in first year. She was the first friend I made there—still is, actually. Guess I’d call her one of my best friends.” He shrugged. “Though clearly, not as close as you two. You both act like you’ve been joined at the hip since birth.”

You smiled, small but warm. “Because we have. Been friends my whole life.” Then, under your breath, “Not by choice.”

“Not by choice my ass.”

You jumped at the voice, Shoko’s voice, rasping awake in the backseat. “You can’t live without me.”

“Jesus, Shoko.” Toji flicked her off without hesitation, one hand still on the wheel. “You nearly gave us a heart attack. In case you forgot—I’m driving.”

“Exaggeration.” Shoko rubbed her eyes, yawning. “I think when people wake up, they have the right to speak. Unlike Y/N spacing out earlier—she’s probably already made it into a Top 10 Meme thread on Reddit.”

“Meme thread?” Toji looked genuinely intrigued. “Wait, that’s a real thing?”

“Not the point,” Shoko drawled, eyes sliding toward you. You didn’t even need to turn to feel it—her gaze heavy, knowing, probing. Sometimes your bond with her scared you. She could pin you down without saying a word. “The point is—why were you gawking at nothing? Actually—you said, who was that. Who was who?”

You stiffened, shoulders taut. Toji glanced at you briefly, curious, waiting for an answer too.

Your thoughts scrambled. If you could organize your desk in minutes, surely you could collect your own brain. Surely this meant nothing. Just a fleeting second. Just a stranger. Not something worth hiding. Not something worth protecting.

And yet… it felt like a secret. Like something fragile you didn’t want anyone else touching.

Your throat tightened. You gave in, voice small. “Blue eyes,” you mumbled, shame curling your words inward. “That’s all I saw. Just—blue eyes. Like someone I know. That’s it.”

Shoko leaned forward, suspicion sharpening her features. “What? Just some stranger’s eyes? Why would that even be—” She stopped short. A realization flickered across her face.

You turned, searching her expression, waiting to see if she’d felt it too. If she’d seen what you had.

But no. Her eyes shifted to Toji, silent, blank, like something unspoken had just passed between them.

Toji’s lips twitched upward, free hand rubbing his temple like he was trying to chase away a migraine.

Something in the silence thickened. As though they knew. As though they’d both known all along.

“Y/N,” Shoko said slowly, voice almost careful. “You just met our friend. Gojo.”

The ticking in your head returned, louder than ever. A pounding metronome against your skull.

Gojo.

The name felt familiar. Too familiar.

The itch beneath your skin deepened.

“Everyone can have blue eyes,” Shoko continued, “and people would just think they’re pretty. But Gojo—his are different. They’re the bluest blue I’ve ever seen. Like, unfairly blue. I get why you were so—” she smirked, “—enamored. But what’s rude is that he didn’t even stop to say hi! Hello? We’re his friends?”

You swallowed hard. “Wait—who? Gojo? That’s blue eyes’ name?”

The ticking roared, deafening.

Shoko smirked wider. “Wow. Nickname basis already? You’re moving fast.”

Heat flared up your neck. You looked anywhere but at her.

“Gojo’s my friend,” Toji cut in smoothly, eyes locked on the road. “Like Shoko is yours. Known him since before I could talk—since Lego houses. When I met Shoko in med school, I introduced them. We’ve been a trio ever since. Not that they act like it.”

“As if he doesn’t hate me,” Shoko muttered, crossing her arms. “Y/N, trust me—he may have the prettiest eyes in the universe, but it doesn’t erase the fact that he’s a dick.”

“Language,” Toji scolded, half-hearted.

“Fine,” Shoko huffed. “Doesn’t erase the fact that he’s an asshole.”

Toji sighed, glaring at her through the rearview. She glared right back, unrepentant.

He ignored her in the end, his tone softening as he glanced at you. “Anyway, yeah. That’s probably who you saw. He was in a hurry, but… if he wasn’t, he might’ve stopped.”

“As if,” Shoko scoffed, arms tightening across her chest. “Known Mr. Lawyer for years and he still ignores me at the grocery store. Rude as hell.”

Their bickering filled the car, bouncing back and forth like kids fighting over toys. You let it wash over you, their noise shielding you from your own thoughts.

Because otherwise, you’d be left with the silence. With the memory of those eyes. With the dangerous itch of wondering.

And oh, how dangerous it was to wonder.

(If only you knew.)

︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶

 𝔀𝓮𝓵𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓴𝓪𝓸'𝓼 𝓬𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓻!

i am so sorry for disappearing for a very long time, but ya girl has been battling major exams for months now and I have not had the time to continue my drafts. i am on a short break though, so I will try my best to give u guys more chapters bc I owe it to u for being so lovely and patient!! ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡

see u guys in chapter 08!

↳ Genre: Angst, Fluff, Slowburn

↳ Pairing: lawstudent!gojo x fem!reader

↳ Warnings: unrequited love, angst, one-sided pining, slowburn, emotional tension, self-doubt, playful banter, satoru being stupid (in his own way), shoko being chaotic, toji being toji, drinking, background teasing, science nerd reader

↳ Playlist: (will link here!)

↳ Masterlist: 01 02 03 04 05 06 07 08 09 10

song for this chapter: question..? - taylor swift

"Good girl, sad boy

Big city, wrong choices."

You didn’t have any history of insomnia. 

In fact, you had a healthy relationship with sleep. Unlike Shoko, whose body clock has been completely altered, you valued having 8 hours (or more) of sleep. You once explained the long term effects of having frequent all-nighters to Shoko using a PowerPoint presentation you created in an hour after seeing how exhausted she looked during the daytime, only for her to wave it off and say “everyone dies one day, anyway.”

It’s funny though - how you’re looking at Shoko now, fast asleep next to you, looking peaceful as ever, at 11PM. And yet here you are; eyes wide open, no trace of grogginess. You were wide awake and you knew it’d be awhile before you can join her in the dream land.

You reached for your phone on the night stand, unlocking it to look at the pictures you had taken earlier. The sunset looked beautiful in Tokyo, and you couldn’t help but take a piece of it with you through photography. You took quite a few selfies for remembrance, and spent the rest of the time thinking of someone  admiring its beauty.

A text notification from Yuuta snapped you back to reality. A small smile made its way to your lips upon seeing his name.

yu: when are youuu coming back home? mei mei’s so unforgiving with the shifts that i am covering for you! she said it’s for when you come back. you’d have all your shifts covered, so that means you still get paid. and i don’t get any?! i’m her brother!

You chuckled. Mei Mei has always been playful with Yuuta, teasing him every chance she gets. It’s always a fun dynamic to watch whenever you would be invited for sleep overs at their house. Though Yuuta sees it as a never ending cruelty imposed by his older sister, you, as the spectator, knows that this is Mei Mei’s way of showing his love for him, despite the age gap.

With them, you never once felt alone.

ramen provider: you get half, i promise!

yu: i better get half. also, i took all your ramen packs yesterday. figured they needed to be eaten by someone before they expire..

ramen provider: that’s the plan buddy

yu: why are u awake btw? you usually sleep early when you don’t have anything to do

You paused. 

You knew the answer; it’s already in the back of your mind. A certain name. 

How could a faceless person knock on the walls of your mind and make it their throne without your permission? How mighty could he be, Gojo Satoru, for him to reach every corner of your mind as his own? 

For you, he was the unexpected guest; one who knocked rapidly on your heart, only to be answered with deadly silence. But despite your eyes reflecting a very angry thunderstorm, he took his shoes off and barged right into your heart.

You diverted your attention back to your conversation with Yuuta.

ramen provider: just losing sleep lately, i guess..

—  or going insane.

“We’re going somewhere nice next week!”

You munched on your toast, eyes glued to your phone. Mornings with Shoko had always been eventful. Once, back when you were eighteen and having a sleepover, you woke to find her wide awake, hugging a pillow—and staring straight at you. It had freaked you out to say the least, but before you could even scream, she’d already declared, with absolute certainty, what she wanted to do for the day.

“Do you want to skip school with me?”

What you loved most about your best friend was her uncanny ability to make plans with surgical precision. Whenever you were with her, you were always out—never a dull moment, never a wasted day. It didn’t bother you; in fact, you thought your dynamic was perfectly balanced. You, the introvert, and Shoko, the best of both worlds. She wasn’t the most sociable person in the room, but compared to you, she might as well have been. She was your walking itinerary, your personal travel document—always headed somewhere, and somehow always knowing exactly how to get there.

When you say you'd probably be found dead in a ditch somewhere without Shoko, you meant that.

“And where could that be?” You asked, slightly distracted, eyes scanning your feed. You stumbled upon an exchange program advertisement and got curious.

Shoko took a sip of her coffee, eyes twinkling in excitement. “A close friend of mine from med school - who is, by the way, filthy rich - invited me to their staycation. I actually turned him down but he insisted, so I told him I have to bring my bestest friend in the whole world or I am not getting on that boat. He was more than happy to agree.”

You felt as though you got slapped. Glancing up from your phone, you barely managed to register her words before you were up yelling. “What?! I didn’t get to say yes!”

“Were you going to say no?”

“Well - Iei, I don’t know them!”

Shoko pouted, standing up to take her now empty “I Hate Mondays” mug to the sink for a wash. “That’s the whole point - you can get to know them! We won’t be alone with him.”

You almost fainted. “That’s even worse! Iei, You know I am the worst with people.”

Shoko turned around, mug still in hand, but is now covered in dishwashing soap. She sent you a disapproving look. “No you aren’t. You just choose not to mingle with people.”

Feeling defeated, you sat down in despair. You let out a groan, to which Shoko responded with a giggle. She turned to you with a reassuring smile. “C’mon, Y/N. I think this is the perfect opportunity for you to branch out and get out of your little shell. Of course, if you really don’t wanna go, I won’t force you. We can stay here in Tokyo and visit a lot of places. I just figured you’d want to get to know the friends I made here, too.”

You suddenly felt guilty. Taking a good look at Shoko (who’s still busy washing her mug), you realized that though she may look the same as before, for some reason, she looked somewhat… far. Living with Shoko means living with familiarity—like a mug of cocoa on Christmas Day when your parents would actually be home, and they’d prepare a simple dinner before exchanging gifts. Shoko felt exactly like that scenario.

She’s so familiar that somehow, along the way of basking into this familiarity and loneliness, you unconsciously blurred out her life. What did you even know about Shoko after you both went to college?

Of course you tell each other everything (with Shoko being more talkative than you are) but now, actually thinking deep about it, you realized how vague her stories have gotten; it’s almost full of “Here’s how my day went”, “I’m so tired!”, “I hate med school!”

You never dug deeper.

That’s why the last line of her reply struck you the most; because she’s Shoko, your best friend since forever, the one who witnessed you go through the horrifying consequences of transitioning to adulthood, the only person who you can call at 4 am when you’re in the middle of an academic breakdown or when you want to make a long commentary about the show you’re currently watching. Your person - and despite this, you never even bothered to ask if she had company. If she has made good friends.

Today, at 6 o’clock in the morning, with the sound of tap water running in the background and Shoko humming softly to a song, you realized how big the world has gotten.

It was no longer just Shoko and you.

“Yellow looks so good on you.”

You scowled, red hue rushing its way to your cheeks. “No, Shoko.”

You’re not sure how you got yourself in this situation - a happy Shoko swiping her cards left and right, hopping on every store she sees to “better prepare for the trip.”

An hour ago, you told Shoko you were going; but on one condition - you’d never go swimming.

It’s not as if you were the worst swimmer out there, it’s more of the fact that you never packed a swim attire. When you told Shoko, her eyes gleamed so bright you could mistake her for Christmas lights (and you know she’s just going to use your dilemma as an excuse to go shopping and splurge).

You never anticipated yacht parties and big pools and rich medical students on vacation, so hey, who could blame you?

You had agreed to go shopping for essentials; sunscreen, water bottles, blankets, towels..

..and yet you’re in a bikini shop.

“Oh please!” Shoko exclaimed, grabbing your shoulders to give you a playful shove, “I have seen you wear bikinis a thousand times, Y/N. And every time you do, you always rock it.”

You stuck your tongue out playfully, “That was years ago, Ie.” You snatched the clothing from her hand and quickly put it back in the rack. “Everything has changed.”

Shoko sent a playful look, “Oh really? I don’t know - you wanna show me?”

You rolled your eyes playfully and sighed. “You know what. I just wanna get this over with, so alright, I’ll take the yellow one.” You pulled your wallet out of your pocket just in time when Shoko suddenly ran towards the cashier at a fast pace.

“No, this one’s on me!”

"Shoko."

She continued to run, fully aware of the daggers you are shooting her way. You sighed, finally admitting defeat. "Fine, but the food's on me!"

Looking back at your pouting form, Shoko sent a playful wink and gave you a thumbs up, "You got it!"

You didn't know if it was all the shopping, or Shoko literally dragging you everywhere (maybe this was mostly it), but you suddenly felt sick. Not sick-sick, more like the idea of hopping onto a yacht for God knows how long with a bunch of people you completely do not know or have any history with finally sinking in, in the middle of a swimwear store.

Holy shit.

A million thoughts ran through your mind - as a socially-selective person, you honestly did not know how to prepare yourself for this trip. No amount of sunscreen and wine can prepare you for conversations, your number one enemy.

Despite the chaos in your mind, you remained seated, embodying the perfect image of a stone for being so still. Shoko seemed to notice, already crouching down to meet your gaze. She had a worried look on her face, an image you're all too familiar with.

"Hey," She spoke, hand coming up to poke your cheek. Your eyes instantly met hers, mustering a tiny smile to reassure her that you're dying inside okay.

You made a mental note to write cue cards and practice conversing with yourself in the bathroom back at Shoko's apartment.

Standing up, you let out a nervous chuckle to mask the fact that you are one second away from backing out of this rich friend-yacht-party rendezvous. "Alright, enough with shopping, please. You know I have a high metabolism, I think I burned half of my soul from all that walking."

Shoko rolled her eyes, a playful smile making its way to her cherry-red lips. "We literally went to three places, Y/N. One of them was the bathroom."

"That still takes up so much energy."

You both walked out of the swimwear shop (and finally, finally tasted true freedom) when Shoko grabbed your free hand, her playful smile turning to a grin so contagious you found yourself smiling too. "Why are you so smiley?"

You asked, and yet you knew. She shrugged, looking ahead. "This trip means a lot to me, and I know you aren't really built for things like these, so thank you for choosing to come and fighting the urge to finish the world war II documentary I know you've been watching. The urge is strong, I know; because you're a nerd."

You just smiled to yourself silently. She really knows you like the back of her hand; at the same time, you were creeped out - because you only really watched the documentary around 4AM when she was fast asleep on your shared bed.

A thousand steps later, you were finally at the front of the line for the restaurant Shoko had been obsessing over all week. By then, you were convinced your soul had already transcended from your body, drifting somewhere above while your earthly form endured the endless wait—and the endless complaints of your furious best friend. Shoko, true to her word, had blabbered about this restaurant for days, and now she was living her own Greek tragedy on the pavement.

In truth, you could’ve been inside thirty minutes ago if it weren’t for the rich-looking couple who had blatantly lied about their reservation. You’d watched them breeze past the list without shame, while the staff—apathetic, unmoved—let them through without so much as a raised brow. It was unfair, sure, but it wasn’t worth Shoko’s escalating volume.

Aside from waiting, you’d also been suffering from secondhand embarrassment. Shoko had planted herself directly in front of the staffer responsible for the reservation list, her tone sharp enough to slice through glass. The longer he ignored her, the louder she got. You had to tug her arm and murmur constant reminders that yes, you were in public and no, she couldn’t start a revolution over brunch.

“I swear,” Shoko huffed, her hands flying to her hips as she rolled her eyes at the poor, unbothered staffer, “I will rate this place zero stars.”

“That’s mean,” you muttered, gently pushing her back an inch. “It’s just one guy. The whole crew doesn’t deserve your wrath.”

She whipped her head toward you with a glare—one that, to you, looked more like an angry kitten than anything remotely intimidating.

“My legs are cramping, Y/N! I wore heels for this!” she hissed, her voice cracking with dramatic pain.

You bit back a laugh, lips curving into a grin. “You could’ve sat down, you know.”

Her head snapped up, scandalized. “There were chairs?”

You were seconds away from delivering what you were certain would be your wittiest comeback yet when something else derailed you completely.

A voice. Low, deep. Sliding into the air behind you.

“Shoko?”

The scent hit you first—wood sage and sea salt, warm and sharp, threading through the breeze until it was all you could smell. It was dizzying, too present, pulling at your nerves.

And then came the sound.

The clicking. Slow at first, deliberate, like the rhythmic tick of a clock. It followed its own beat, louder and louder, syncing with the footsteps approaching from behind. The scent grew stronger with each step, weaving around you, tugging at your chest.

Your body stilled.

You turned.

The voice was familiar in its own way, tugging at the edges of a memory—train stations, quiet parks, the kind man who once offered to walk you when you were lost. Toji, that was his name. You expected to meet his gaze.

But you didn’t.

You met someone else’s instead.

The clicking stopped. The rhythm in your head fell away, dissolving into an eerie silence. All that remained was the low buzz in your ears, like static.

Blue.

That was all you saw. Blue, endless and unflinching.

Somewhere, distantly, you heard Shoko say your name. Toji too, his tone grounding, pulling. But none of it reached you.

Because you were elsewhere.

Somewhere blue.

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 𝔀𝓮𝓵𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓴𝓪𝓸'𝓼 𝓬𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓻!

hi everyone, it’s kao!

it has been mONTHS!!! i missed everyone on here so much!

thank you for all the kind words! even when I was away, I had been receiving messages and replies from my lovely readers. i got too busy juggling work and school and had literally zero time for my hobbies. you guys have no idea how much I missed writing!

anyway, i have been [secretly] writing chapters in my drafts just in case I finally found the time to proof-read them and finally publish it for you guys ˃̵ᴗ˂̵ but I had to focus on more important things for me this month, so I left these babies unpublished for the meantime. i wanted to make sure everything was perfect before publishing them!

but fear not my friends, i am [officially] back in business!! ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

as always, feedback/reblogging would me a lot to me! thank you for the small appreciation you guys have shown!  ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡

see u guys in chapter 07!