Otto Bon bismarck

Getting away from the mormon church sometimes feels like escaping a snare or some other gruesome trap to me - it hurts the whole time, and while sitting still might minimize the pain, I can only have the chance to fully heal by escaping, a process that will hurt a lot more for a short time.

Even if I get away, though, the scars are permanent, and there'll always be more traps to dodge. Much of my family remains in the church, and it was practically my whole world up until I left, so it'll always be in the background of my life and y'know, that honestly sucks. It's never a benign presence...it'll always try to lure me back in, always try to sell me on the stability and sense of belonging I desperately crave.