But you haven't talked to the head. You've done nothing, just like me.
Everyone kills. I don't think too highly of myself, but you seem to think decently of yourself.
...And if you weren't involved...
Then you didn't do anything on that front.
And I do try to fix things. I have talked openly with the head. It has gotten me ripped apart. It has gotten me killed. It has gotten everyone hurt even more.
Even as a Hana Fixer...I am no arbiter. I am no Claw. I am no Beholder. I am apart of the system, yes. But everyone is.
The only people aren't related to the system are those in the outskirts...
And those in hospitals...Do you genuinely think any of them in District 9 would have enough blood? Really? You do understand the situation that this district is in, yes?
Also...How can I see the positives, even in my 700 years...And yet nothing substantial has changed? I'm nowhere near powerful enough to even try to fight the head, and dying would not help those who I've tried to protect in my district.
Me and Section 2 haven't killed even hundreds of people. The most that I've killed in my 700 years...is 20 people. 20 people who, mind you, were doing human trafficking related to Lobotomy Corporation.
And yeah, they'll be rid of me. I don't exactly care what they'll do to me. They can rip my nervous system off and try to ruin my brain by dumping it into a box of K Corp fluid. They can rip me apart.
But at least I've been keeping my district and my nest safe, and I have mostly taken over as the Wing itself.
My bloodbags have talked to hundreds of thousands of people, of helping them. They deserve the credit.
But you are right. I am nothing. I will always be nothing. 700 years is nothing. I've managed to actually make District 9 one of the best lived places possible. I've stopped people from becoming so cruel or violent, ripping each other apart...And I've done the best I can. But that's nothing. It always will be nothing. Nothing I ever truly will do can ever destroy the Head. Even if I do, another will fill that place. This knot is simply tied too much for it to be unraveled fully.
But thanks for at least trying. But your children...They've suffered a lot. And you speaking to them just probably was their breaking point for them. The Crying Children...One of your children. Killed hundreds of thousands of people. Not even after the rampage that Grade 1 Fixer had. It wasn't even a year after. The person there...I knew him beforehand. You had talked with Argalia, being in his ear.
Sure, he had begun to mentally deteriorate, and had always had it out for his sister's husband...But he broke. And that almost resulted in every single human being in the City becoming a distortion. It wouldn't have made anyone feel better. It would've just been a different kind of suffering. I know, because I've faced some of your children without having to kill them or fight them. They are suffering, yes.
But now they suffer more. They suffer so much that they inflict it upon others in horrific ways that not even the twisted minds of the Head could comprehend. I kill them because it's merciful to the existence of pain they're suffering from. Because most are simply too far gone emotionally and mentally to be brought back normally, they would simply become monstrous but just in human form.
I understand your point of view now. I understand why you do this. I may not fully agree with it, or think it as cruel and manipulative to vulnerable people...But I at least understand now, and my own fury at the situations of what has happened, of your children who has made orphans of innocent people, who have almost ruined an entire district and killed millions in a way no human could ever truly do...
It blinded me, and I made a rash, but ultimately sort of human choice when I spoke to you. I will at least try to refrain from drinking from your children. It will be hard, as I will be weaker, and won't exactly be able to protect the district I'm from and feel responsible for...But I simply have to try, I suppose...
I do truly hope your solution works, at least in a way that will help others. It was cruel to say I only feed and hunt, when that is what every city folk simply does. Just in a different context. But I understand. You were upset, rightfully so due to how cruel I was myself...
Just...Make sure no one else distorts in district 9.
...I don't want to lose more friends and people I care about in there. More then they've already gone through.
(The Bloodfiend's voice quivered in some desperation.)
...I know you also have a friend in that district. That she had distorted once before. So...I just hope one of your children doesn't end up killing her. It would...It would hurt to have to bury another persons friend once more.