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I'm growing apart with my own self.

I'd rather die than not know what to do with my life

Feelings are a strange force, she said. When you are with someone you love you don't really notice the connection you both have, but once you no longer are together you start to be pulled by something invisible yet powerful, you long to be with them, but you can't, and that's what makes people so vulnerable and lonely. 

20140916) I'm getting bored in life too, every time I go up it feels like I go down twice.  I'm stuck. I'm nowhere close where I should be. I feel like I've wasted too much time in a path that has taken me nowhere. I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm growing old and bitter. I haven't built good memories either. All the past 5 years of my life have been for nothing.

20140901) Dreams don’t come true but wishes do. You just have to be patient.

I'm scared.

20140803) I just realized that for the past 4~5 years of my life I have not build a single worth memory. I’ve became a collection of wrong experiences and a still conscious.

20130517) Sometimes we need to be reminded who we are so we remain unlost~

20130421) I remember how I called you in the afternoon asking if we could met in downtown. It felt like a long time since the last time I saw you, only three days had gone by anyway, but I already missed you. I remember how we walk to your home while doing little chats here and there. I sat in the couch as the lights were all off. So we started thinking about us, and how we are slowly getting apart. And how time is breaking us into pieces as well. I remember you kissed me and told me you loved me. I remember you saying how you had wanted to know me way before, or way later on. As I was laying there with my eyes closed to stop me from shedding tears, you kissed me again. And you stated how happy we are together and how sad it would be to let us behind. And I know I would let you go, even if It hurts so much I can’t breath, I would let you go, and you know it too. You said, you would like us to met as we did today. But we are just not meant to be. 

20130326) Happy Birthday Dad. May God be good to you in heaven ❤

20130318) Did you noticed?. Everything I am is everything you hate.

20130317) I'm not afraid of being hurt, instead, afraid of hurting the only one I've loved so much.

Today, everything about me cried.