12am - 2am

I’m sober, in bed alone, crying myself to sleep.

The next minute you’re ignoring me.

Then you’re saying you’re gonna prioritise me, respect me, love me, treat me like a queen.

But then you don’t want to do that until you’re home, which is still a long ways away.

You told me you regretted it, you wanted to come home.

But after I told you I wouldn’t chase you anymore…and that you had to make your own way back to me…

You gave up all over again.

For our 1st year together, you bought me a rose gold ring. I wear that ring on my right hand.

After our first big fight, and nearly our first break up, you bought me a silver ring and matching earrings. I wear the ring on my left hand.

For my birthday, you got me roses, a teddy with ‘I love you’ on it and a tattoo voucher. I sleep with that teddy every night, covered in your scent so it feels like home, and I’ll be getting your name tattooed somewhere in the piece we chose together.

The matching tattoo we impulsively got together, a matching heart on our left hand, I’ll be getting ‘always’ tattooed around one side of the heart.

Your promise ring, and your initial, I wear on my necklace, long enough so that it can lean against my heart.

We may not be together anymore, you may no longer want me, and you may want to forget everything about me, and that’s okay.

But you were my one true love, my soulmate, my best friend. I’ll wear these pieces, to remember you, to cherish our memories, never forgetting you.

I may never move on, or maybe I will. Whether I do, or don’t, these pieces will never leave me, you will forever be my number one.

I love you, I miss you, always.

Yours,

You left me alone to think about our memories, what was once gonna be our future…everything.

I can’t leave my bed, I can’t eat, I just want you to come home. I want you to want me, I want you to try and make us work.

But I know you won’t come home.

I know you’ve already given up on us.

I’m sorry I couldn’t be enough for you.

I miss you.

If you still feel the need to look and follow half naked pictures of girls, when you’ve got a beautiful girl sleeping next to you every night, why are you with her?

If you’ve got a girl at home who shows that it makes her feel like she’s not enough, not as valued like those half naked girls, not as beautiful as everyone tells her she is, yet you still can’t unfollow those accounts and you can’t stop liking and enjoying those pictures, why are you with her?

If your excuse is ‘they don’t live here’ then what would you be doing right now if they DID? Would you be in her dms? Liking the photos still? Following the accounts? Hoping you’ll get a chance?

If your excuse is, they’re your ‘friends’. Then why are you following their account full of half naked pictures? Why see them half naked every day, just to go see them out in public like you didn’t stare at their ass all night?

If seeing your girl poor her heart out, and her heart break in front of you as the tears rush down her face, and that still can’t make you realise the beautiful girl you have at home and make you want to do anything in your power to stop her feeling like that, then don’t be with her.

Give a man a chance to treat her right, make her feel beautiful and loved by showing she is the ONLY one whose got his attention. He doesn’t need to look at half naked girls, doesn’t need to follow their accounts and come up with excuses such as “they don’t live here”. He can look at his girl, and know that she is MORE than enough. He can look at his girl and knows he’s going to go above and beyond for her, just like she would him.

Don’t let her miss out on a chance to be treated like a queen, if you’re not gonna give her that chance.

Sincerely,