A Look Inside My Mind…

i am trying to prepare myself of the possibility that you may never speak to me again. we are older now. I don't know what I did to deserve this. but I have to be aware that you said goodbye, and you may have meant it. it hurts my heart. it hurts my being. but alas, I have to accept what I cannot control.

fake conversations in my mind of me venting to you.

nathan, I am sorry that you are having a hard time. I have been missing you. I feel awful that you have let me go. I don't understand, but all I have wanted is for you to feel peace in your spirit. if that means walking away from me, then, I suppose so be it. I love you. I have always loved you. I must say I truly did want to help and guide you. help you see love is out there and you deserve it. I pray you find that to be true.

and suddenly (or not so) I have no friends left. I have Sarah. that's really it.