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I know. I know, It's been a while since I've gotten a chance to be able to leave a message for you here. :) 3 consecutive months and I never got to remind you how it has always been another happy month each time the 23rd comes. Now that I got the chance, I want you to know, that those three months didn't make me love you lesser. I want to take this chance to tell you how much I appreciated your efforts in keeping our relationship from falling apart and keeping your patience a little longer (and longer, and longer) for the past months.

Finally, I've updated this blog of mine for our fourth month. I've been itching to do another blog for last December 23rd but since I had limited internet connection and that you were always there whenever I have connection, I don't really have the power to hide typing these things that are meant as surprise greetings for you. So now let's get started. :)

I know I haven't been so much of the BEST GIRLFRIEND I thought I'd be when I was still single, before you, before THIS. I thought I'd be the coolest girlfriend since I thought I'd never have to deal with so much jealousy when infact I've been nagging you with mood swings that a normal guy (err... I meant the other guys who lose their cool after so much nagging) would have already left me for that. I thought I'd be cool with LDR or when the time comes that we won't see each other for a couple of days or weeks or months. I thought I'd handle all of that, but I couldn't since I've been accustomed to the fact that you were always around me. Before I start with thanking how you've been so much as the BEST boyfriend I could ever have, I would just want you to know that I'm really very sorry for how I've been behaving for the past couple of days, especially before and during our training. To think, so far, that was the worse state I have ever acted. I wasn't prepared for the whole brain wracking, pressure and dealing with depression and anxiety. BUT, you were still there for me, understanding me and still held your cool. Thank you for that... Thank you for holding my hand when I was at my lowest point, when I thought everyday I'd fail, when every night I thought that I didn't make it.

This is not a promise that I can be as patient as you are but since it IS 2013, I'd want to change for the better. I'll try as much as possible to hold my temper on any petty things that lead to our arguments. Always remember that I'd always be here for you as well, I know there are also times that dishearten you, but hey... we're already partners right? :) Maghilahan nalang tayo pataas. 

Cheers for the THIRD month and for the 3 years more... <3

Do you remember the time when we all received this note on October 25:

We would like to inform you that ***'s contract with *** for SAP Security will end on November 30, 2012. The project will be pulled out from the Philippines and will be outsourced to another Asian country.

Since your employment with us is project-based and co-terminus with the project, your employment with us will also end on November 30, 2012.

I believe that was something I wouldn't handle on my own. The pressure of looking for another job reminds me of the feeling when you're at loose ends. Handling it alone would be... devastating. That time, I felt you were more than just someone special, I would've named you already the greatest thing that ever happened to me. You weren't just a boyfriend, you were the partner/bestfriend that I really needed to have at that point. You didn't just tell me to keep going, you accompanied me even though I told you once that I'm tired of tagging along with you, applying in jobs that I didn't see fit for what I wanted to be. That point awed me when you said you'd still be there to accompany me though it meant I'd be in a a field you can't even see yourself in.

Eleven days ago you reminded me, it was a very crucial time so I might as well just try every opportunity. And so we were there, without any day starter meal without any expectation we had any chance of passing all of these. I thought I'd be a cool girlfriend who supports her man wherever he wanted to apply. I even thought if you'd pass, I'd still be there to go through the whole process to let you know I would be there for you as well. And now there's:

Then there was this:

And before we know it, there's:

I have told you for n times before that I preferred something that has to do with aviation, accounting or any office work, just works that never had the word programmer in their job title. But, here I am, we're about to be THIS THING RIGHT HERE by December 3, and for another 36 months. You know what, I really don't care anymore, as long as I grow in it with you, then I may be able to do it for an additional 36++ months. But the point in this blog post is... we're turning THREE months. I don't know what'll happen in the next few months or years, but I'd be more than happy if I can still be in this with you. :)

this is refreshing to know that I can finally do two things at once, to blog and at the same time do something you could read on days you think you're bored of hacking or if that EVER happens in this lifetime. If you love to read articles, then here. I'll make you blogs when I have the leisure time. I know you'd only want to read those with facts, but hey it's not bad to read this mini diary of mine. So instead of reading my messages secretly, I'm giving you another reason to kill time.

Yes, I know you know my plan of making this a blog about you and your girls... err. joke. :P :D Well, for now, since I've got nothing in mind, I'll just post these 2 pictures (in memory of my sexiness hahaha) to remind you that this very moment here, you were already working your way into my heart.

Pardon my lack of seriousness and lack of point in this post. But, yes I enjoy looking at our pictures when you're not near, or plainly when you're not looking at what I'm doing.

Expect a little more drama and give your patience an upgrade. I know it won't always be easy for us, but I know we'd make it through. :) Here's for the start of another countdown till the third month and many more months to come. :D

It's great that this was uploaded just yesterday, exactly on our second month. So I could be able to say more of what I wanted to say yesterday. :)

But either way, I still want to share these lines with you. <3

"You are WHO I love -- the guy on the pedestal, the fantasy, the make believe things that are actually true. You are WHAT I love -- the depth, the inside jokes... the best friend. You are WHEN -- a new history is being started with you, we are the young lovers our older selves will someday reminisce about. You are WHERE I love -- because I'd go anywhere just to be with you. You are WHY I love -- because before you, I didn't truly understand what I was looking for. Now that we've found each other, you've given my past and future meaning. You are the sixth -- YOU ARE THE LAST."

Hey there @donoflies! Here's to another month. :")

This song has been misinterpreted by so many people in hundreds of ways online, and i cant seem to understand where did they get the view that it is for someone breaking up with the one they're singing this song to, when, infact for me, this means well. must I start another paragraph since this may take quite a while in explaining what this song means to me.

This song, in my understanding, and I hope you agree with my point of view. I have been in a lot of ugly relationships and did a lot of damage in my individuality being so desperate (and all the desperate stuff i did to have someone) and all (you've heard them all, and it didn't sound great, i know). Can I just have the liberty to answer even without you saying why? (even though I always do love explaining things even without you trying to question about it). It's as simple as, you were there. You stayed by my side even if, for the past 60 days, I only nagged and questioned your feelings if it were near true. You stayed even if I made you into many things rolled into one (my wrestling partner, cook, my barbie doll which I can dress up and put make-up on, and everything else that made you look abused). The fact here is, YOU STAYED. I guess I've made my point there. And so because you stayed, I want to let you know I would infact also do anything for you. :) I don't know anything about how they interpret it but yes, as the song goes "I’ve fallen in love and it’s better this time than ever before" :D <3

You always say how could you ever be so lucky to have me when you did so many mistakes before? Well, let me say that as well.

How could I be so lucky to have you? :")