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"in another world, we would be free to love."
a series of oneshots featuring eight of our favorite royals (and not-so-royals).
pairing: royal!teez x reader (member-by-member oneshots)
tags/genre: royalty au, fantasy au, heavy angst, forbidden love, enemies to lovers, friends to lovers, lovers to enemies, secret romance, hurt/comfort, hurt/no comfort (lol), some implied/light smut
notes: ADDING THIS TO THE ROTATION!!!!! i love the silly teezer series but wanted to have something real soul-crushing and devastating in the mix to satisfy my angst cravings. the weather's been bad and i've had faouzia's new album on repeat so blame that and grab ur tissues
status: in the works as of 03/05/2026
ONESHOTS BELOW THE CUT —ïž
LAST WORDS âąÂ kim hongjoong
pairing: prince!hongjoong x princess!reader
synopsis: when you and hongjoong were expected to marry to unify your kingdoms, you made a pact to fulfill your duties as the crown prince and princess. somewhere along the way, your alliance becomes a bit more than political and it becomes an even greater weight to bear.
word count: TBD
WILTED FLOWER âąÂ park seonghwa
pairing: prince!seonghwa x healer!reader
synopsis: when you're hired to heal the prince's mysterious illness, you're not exactly thrilled. the king was cruel and he surely was no different. during his treatment, you unravel more about him than you'd expect and you realize you might be wrong about more than one thing, after all.
word count: TBD
WITHOUT QUESTION âąÂ jeong yunho
pairing: knight!yunho x princess!reader
synopsis: titles aside, yunho was one of your best friends. he was a skilled guard, a great listener and a perfect confidant for the nights you needed someone to cover up your grand escapes. although, you're so wrapped up in what yunho allows you that you fail to notice one crucial detailâhe does it because he's hopelessly in love with you.
word count: TBD
HIGH TOWER âąÂ kang yeosang
pairing: prince!yeosang x maid!reader
synopsis: yeosang has been held hostage by your kingdom ever since he was a boy. while years of negotiations ensue, he is confined to a tower away from the rest of the castle. your job is to tend to him daily (and find out if he's plotting a grand escape). what you find when you meet him might not be what you expected at all.
word count: TBD
GILDED CAGE âąÂ choi san
pairing: artist!san x princess!reader
synopsis: san was one of the kingdom's most talented performers that the king and queen just had to have. he's now bound to the castle, destined to perform for nobility as they wish. it was no different from you being confined to your duties as the princess, although san had a much different outlook on freedom than you did.
word count: TBD
MARTINGALE âąÂ song mingi
pairing: knight!mingi x princess!reader
synopsis: sit up straight. avoid speaking out of turn. maintain proper distance with your dance partners. if you were to follow one more rule, you would lose your mind. enter a knight that routinely monitors the horse stables, your only escape from your god-awful reality. perhaps he could help you experience true freedom, after all.
word count: TBD
THE ROSE'S THORN âąÂ jung wooyoung
pairing: prince!wooyoung x princess!reader
synopsis: it was no secret that you were and wooyoung were in love. when a strategic marriage promises you to someone else, he makes it very well known that he's against it. with every drunken spur and every tiff with a fellow royal, you find it harder and harder to remember the man you fell in love with.
word count: TBD
PEACE OFFERING âąÂ choi jongho
pairing: king!jongho x queen!reader
synopsis: you were one of jongho's closest childhood friends. after the brutal execution of his parents, he ascends the throne at a younger age than expected and brings you along with him. as power consumes him, he becomes nearly unrecognizable from the boy you once knew.
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oh, who do we have here⊠welcome to the fright carnival .á
how lucky youâve found yourself here, just in time for tonightâs show.
ah, whatâs this? it seems thereâs one ticket left⊠and it has your name on it. be careful⊠this isnât for the faint of heart. adults only, 18 and above, children would never survive the night.
but you look hesitant, quiet scared... hmm, not sure which story to watch first? well⊠isnât it obvious? choose whatever frightens you most, of course... the carnival awaits your screams .á
i. đđđđ đđ. đđđđđđđ featuring ... VAMPIRE!SEONGHWA
coming out :: october 17th
word count :: tba
smut. you thought you were writing to your husband, who's far away to work, but your letters were never reaching him. a stranger in the dark has been answering, wearing your belovedâs words like a mask. one night, he comes to you, stepping out from the shadows, and your loneliness blinds you to the truth: this is not your husband, but a vampire starving for your touch, your love⊠and your blood.
ii. đđđđđ đđ đđđđđ featuring ... PHANTOM OF OPERA!YUNHO
coming out :: october 24th
word count :: tba
smut. he has always been watching, whispering from the shadows, guiding your every step like a silent guardian. the moment your gaze drifts elsewhere, to someone else, the music swells, the mask cracks, and jealousy takes center stage. what you see as madness, he swears is devotion. what you call obsession, he names pure love. tonight, the phantom no longer hides in the dark... he claims what has always been his.
content warning :: obsession, stalking, possessiveness, jealousy, foreplay, piv (unprotected sex), praise kink, body worship, voice kink, hands kink, size kink, mask kink, desperation, fear of abandonment, devotion turned obsession, religious undertones (talking about angels), more tba.
iii. đđđđđđ đđ đđđđ featuring ... GHOSTFACE!WOOYOUNG
coming out :: october 31st
word count :: tba
smut. you turned him down once in kindergarten, and again five months ago: two small wounds that fester into something much darker. you keep talking about the other man you like, and heâs been listening, counting every little detail. he doesnât want you dead; he wants you to regret every time you ever said no. instead of a quick end, he corners you, plays with your fear, and makes you taste how wrong you were to push him away. every moment is designed to make you scream his name before you beg for mercy.
content warning :: stalking, obsession, jealousy, possessiveness, knife play, fear play, mentions of blood, mentions of killing, dubcon (not noncon / not r*pe), sadomadosichm, overstimulation, piv (unprotected sex), hatefucking, choking, creampie, degradation, orgasm control, praise kink, size kink, dirty talk, mask kink, toxic relationship themes, more tba.
disclaimer: release dates are subject to change. iâm a full-time uni student who also works, so fics may come out later than planned. thank you for your patience and understanding, i hope you will enjoy it nevertheless.
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Hello, Iâm Sol, and I am a proud daughter of immigrant parents. Today I come to you in hopes that you can stop and read this message.Â
I have always dedicated this account to be a safe space for all; an escape from the busy world, and a chance to offer community. Itâs easy to use these spaces as a way to tune out all the negativity that may go on in your daily lives, but with the way the world has become, there is no longer such a thing as a safe space. I refuse to let this account remain idle, knowing my platform and the potential reachâ silence is complicity, and right now, itâs exactly what the government wants from us; to remain uneducated, to remain quiet in hopes that others will step up for us.Â
It is urgent, now more than ever, that we use our voiceâ exercise our rights, to speak up and look after those who are unable to do so for themselves. ICE has been sent to raid Los Angeles, they are kidnapping people and deporting them without due process, using force against protestors who are bravely demanding change and letting their voices be heard. It is an inhumane act of violence and racism that is not only affecting the defenseless, but getting twisted in the media to turn civilians against each other. People are afraid to leave their homes, afraid to go to work, to send their children to school, in fear that they may never see each other again. Families are being ripped apartâ tell me, is this something that you want to watch happen, stand idly in silence?
Now, you may be asking yourself, what can I do to help? First and foremost, educate yourself. Be aware of what is happening in the world, why itâs happening, and what others are doing to strive for change. Do not let this post be your only knowledgeâ do your research, stay updated. Second, there are many protests that are happening all around the world; look into them, see if there are any you can go to, let your voice be heard, and show your anger. There is currently a nationwide protest happening June 14th, with a website dedicated to it: nokings.org. Do not fall for the propaganda of good protestor vs. bad protestor. When our humanity is being stripped away from us, and our rights are ignored, why should we be expected to stay in place and beg on our knees for our government to listen? Third, spread awareness, donate to organizations that help our causeâ I am currently looking into opening commissions, with many affordable options, in hopes that I can donate the proceeds to organizations such as CHIRLA, who are dedicated to advancing the rights of immigrants and refugees, and HEAL Palestine, an organization dedicated to providing health care, education and aid to children, because there is no such thing as justice until we are all free. The conflict and war crimes in Palestine continue and only worsen as time goes on; the situation is direâ they are without food, without homes, without access to medical helpâ and it is not something that will be forgotten, even as other crises arise.Â
If you find yourself aggravated by anything I said, annoyed at seeing this post on your timeline, unwilling to care or take action, unfollow me, and block me immediately. I do not want you here. Now is the time to speak up and educate ourselves in a world where our ignorance is profited off of, and we are all expected to turn against each other; You do not need to âbe affectedâ to act. Do not be a bystander, and stay safe.
hi guys! itâs currently still in the works, but if i were to open up personal multifandom commissions (txt, enhypen, seventeen, ateez, nct [certain members], bts, and possibly girl groups!) as a charity fundraiser, would you participate ? this is currently just an interest check and nothing is set in stone, but iâd love to hear from you all !
+ if you could reblog so i can reach a wider audience, itâd be much appreciated !! ^^
â± synopsis: a young woman seeking a fresh start takes a job as a live-in housekeeper for the mysterious count who resides in a grand but decaying gothic estate on the edge of a wary town. the villagers warn her of his dangerous reputation, spinning tales of curses and dark deeds, but necessity drives her to stay. as she works tirelessly to bring order to the neglected home, she finds herself torn between the unsettling rumors and her growing infatuation with count parkâa reclusive, strikingly beautiful man who claims to be a nocturnal artist. strange dreams and eerie moments in the mysterious castle blur the line between reality and imagination, leaving her questioning whether the true danger lies in the manâor in her own heart.
â± content tags: vampire au, gothic romance, gothic horror, story takes place circa early 1900s, reincarnation, smut, angst, forbidden love, slowburn, lots of yearning, nosferatu/bram strokerâs dracula/edward scissorhands vibes
â± playlist: haunted- beyonce, out like a light- the honeysticks, running up that hill- kate bush, lovesong- the cure, angel in the snow- elliot smith, young & beautiful- lana del rey, ultraviolence- lana del rey, bord to die- lana del rey, everybody wants to rule the world- tears for fears, little dark age- mgmt
i think im pretty vocal about being latina bc im proud of being a brown queer woman #tripleminority but one of my favorite things to do is headcanon idols as latine and the teezers are no different so hereâs how i think they would be at a carne + their latino names <3
@atzhouse @juyofans
đ„ hongjoong would be a hit at the carne tbh. like alllll the tias would be on him asking him all these questions about what he does and stuff LOL he has the most latino energy imo and i feel like he would be chopping it up spilling chisme and learning all the family drama đ his latino name is hector btw.
đ„ seonghwa would also be a tia favorite. they would NAWT be leaving him alone i fear⊠theyâd get him in the cumbia circle QUICK brother isnt leaving without dancing to el baile del gorila by massore at least once. i feel like heâd love the music yk? his latino name is sebastiĂĄn.
đ„ yunho⊠sweet sweet yunho⊠everyone loves him bc heâs so kind and respectful. the only reason he wouldnât be hounded by the tias is bc all the little cousins are HOARDING HIM TO PLAY WITH THEM!! heâll take a break to eat and the kids are like NOOOOOO COME BACK :(( and itâs so cute. but his favorite part is obviously all the meat LMFAOOO his latino name is diego.
đ„ yeosang is a family favorite. an all rounder if u will. he would make his way around the whole backyard to meet everyone bc he wants to know the whole family </3 he would get along best with the older cousins and their s/os i feel bc heâs so funny and so polite. his latino name is rafael.
đ„ san is also a family favorite. he gets along with the tios most bc yk⊠beefy man and they wanna see what all the hype is about. the older male cousins are asking him his workout routine and EVERYTHING LLWMSKWNE but also like yun, the little cousins are dragging him to play with them and whining when he takes a break. the tias are gushing about how handsome he is. his latino name is santiago.
đ„ mingi is another tia favorite! heâs tall and handsome and his stupid jokes makes them CACKLE they jajajaja the night away with him. but the older cousins are also invested BC heâs so funny LOL iâm picturing him in a setting with my own family and theyâd also mess with him so much bc heâs gullible as shit đ but theyâd love him trust <3 his latino name is miguel.
đ„ wooyoung⊠now wooyoung is the type to jokingly flirt with the tias and they feed into it HELLA đ but heâs also super cool with the tios esp bc he likes cooking so heâs like learning alllllll the carne seasoning and marinating techniques and how to barbecue with them and thatâs major brownie points for him. theyâd coerce him into taking shots though bc thatâs the only way to stop him from being a gremlin. his latino name is mateo.
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âItâs official; the human life expectancy is now lower than it was ten years agoâ and itâs expected to keep lowering in the future. Humans have become weak, feeble beings; with morale low and the human population lower, you find yourself clinging onto the last hope there is: the news of a new ongoing experiment, hoping to find the cause and restore human beings back to their primeâ youâve been told only good news about its progress.Â
What you havenât been told, however, is just how far they are willing to push the limits of humanity and science.â
ot5 x fem!reader. Beomgyu centric.
âčgenre: Zombie Apocalypse!AU, interactive au!
âčchapter wc: 3.7K
âčabout this chapter: beomgyu focus, fluff, a bit of angst if you really close your eyes and believe; the tension is there yet its not at all.. but no warnings otherwise. check masterlist for more information
notes: this is the prologue, so thereâs no poll that will go along with this! thatâll happen⊠soon ! but for now, our characters are safe and sound :)
MASTERLIST - NEXT
[0]â There's Always Tomorrow.
âI donât think I can keep doing this.â
A half-pitied, half-sympathetic look is all Beomgyu can muster to send your way. Your back aches and your eyes have begun to dry out from how long youâve been sitting before your computer, continuing to tackle the workload that never seems to end. You find yourself pouting at your friendâs lack of response to your dramatics, straightening up and stretching your sore muscles as you glance back from your spot at the kitchen table; your eyes linger on his form, slouched and tired as he hovers over the stove, clearly lost in thought as he stares off into the distance, out the small window placed beside himâ and you sigh.Â
âSmells good,â you mutter quietly, breaking Beomgyu out of trance, the boy flinching at the sudden sound of your voice; he turns back to you, eyes lighting up playfully, examining your equally tired form, âdâyou make enough for two by chance?âÂ
âAs if,â Beomgyu scoffs, but even so, he proceeds to reach into the cabinets to grab dishesâ two bowls, two cups, two pairs of chopsticksâ the sight garnering a roll of your eyes, choosing to bite your tongue as you turn back around in your seat, back to the essays and assignments that no longer seemed to make sense to you; behind you, a soft clatter soundsâ you find yourself softly humming along to the playlist Beomgyu has put on in the background.
âYou really should learn how to manage your time better,â Beomgyu scolds you softly, setting a bowl of ramen before you, followed by a glass of waterâ and he roughly takes a seat beside you, scooting his chair closer, your shoulders bumping as he looks over at your screen, âYouâre always procrastinating for no reason.âÂ
âI know youâre not talking,â you sneer light-heartedly, shutting your laptop before placing it off to the side; youâre mixing the ramen around absentmindedly, watching the steam pour out as you speak, âyouâre literally worse than me.â
He tries to refute you yet againâ only this time, Beomgyu finds that he canât say much to that; heâs had an impeccable track record of pushing things back until the very last minute, and the vice of his has burrowed its way into him since high school, much too late for him to be able to change his ways now. You laugh mockingly at his defeat.Â
The rest of your meal is mostly spent in silence; itâs times like these where conversations with Beomgyu always seem to dwindle, having already spent so much of your day together to be able to talk about some new or interesting thing that happenedâ because by the time the sun has begun to set, youâve already told Beomgyu everything thatâs on your mind. But, with the way life has been going for the both of you recently, even that seems to be sparse. Your body deflates at the reminder of your painfully plain life; a sigh falls from you involuntarily.Â
âWhatâs up with you recently?â Beomgyu asks, raising a brow at your sulking posture, âIâve never seen you so depressed.â
Youâre sending a sheepish smile his way, lips parting to give him some generic excuse, unsure of the real answer yourselfâ but youâre distracted by the sound of Beomgyuâs calm, quiet playlist switching to something much more drastic, the abrupt sound of nature and birds chirping making your brows knit together, glancing at the speaker that blares these noises to you both.Â
âUgh, I forgot you still have ads on your account,â you groan dramatically, leaning back in your chair to send your friend a judgemental look; Beomgyu seems unphased by it, muttering tiredly for you to be quiet; your comment is both predictable and repetitive, yet you never fail to send him a teasing smile after.Â
âItâs okay, nothing wrong with being broke,â you tease further, the monologue of the advertisement practically memorized in your mind; you pause for a second to listen, the familiar preaches to take care of the Earth and the people in it swiftly transitioning to the real purpose of Beomgyuâs music break:
âBioGen seeks to bring back what once belonged to the beings of this planet, to bring forward hope, and develop brighter, stronger generations. Join the cause andâŠâ
âThis alone was enough to make me buy premium,â you say, standing from your seat to go wash your dishes, âI was so sick of having to hear that ad every five minutes.â
âYou learn to block it out after enough times,â Beomgyu replies, coming up behind you and placing his dishes in the sink, just as you were about doneâ your eyes glare sharply at him yet your hands have already gotten to work, the boy only giving you a triumphant grin in return, âGuess Iâm just better than you.â
Placing his dishes on the drying rack, you protest petulantlyâ heâs just as quick to mock your whiny tone and taunt you, body closing in on you as the two of you going back and forth like childrenâ with no end to the bickering in sight, you go to flick water at him playfully; he yelps, and before either of you can really think things through, he goes to retaliate.Â
The kitchen is filled with sounds of screams, curses, and laughter, the wooden floor becoming slippery and the reasoning behind your quarrel long forgotten; Beomgyuâs playlist queues back on in the background all the while.
The night ends with exhausted giggles and another round of cleaning; your shirt sticks to your body and Beomgyuâs hair drips, and you follow the boy back to the bathroom to get a towel to dry offâ leaning back on your hands against the counter, you watch him with tired, heavy eyes.Â
âYour hairâs getting longer,â you comment softly, watching Beomgyu fluff and dry his hair, his own gaze glued to the mirror in front of him; his eyes flicker over to you before they go back to himself, fingertips grazing the hair thatâs begun to grow past the tops of his ears.Â
âIâm getting it cut in a few weeks,â is all he says in return, lips twitching at the way you complain at the news.
âWhat? I thought you were gonna grow it out,â you pout, the sight of Beomgyu shaking his head softly only making you frown, âWhat happened to the guy that was so desperate to try and get that wolf cut look?â
âWell, that was when I was seventeen and wasnât allowed to grow out my hair,â Beomgyu counters, raising a brow and throwing you a knowing look, âplus, I did grow my hair out that summer, remember? It was hell to take care of, I hated it.âÂ
âYou were just lazy,â you mumble to yourself, yelping at the smack you receive on your bicep from the words, âItâs true! You barely tried to style it properly.â
Beomgyu simply smiles and rolls his eyesâ he doesnât bother to respond because he knows youâre right.Â
âAll of us loved it though,â you say quietly, staring down at your feet and tapping to an invisible rhythmâ a song from Beomgyuâs playlist that got stuck in your head probably, he did have some catchy songs in thereâ âWe always thought it made you look pretty.â
The boy huffs out a laugh; memories of your friend group cycle through his mind, all the days where they teased him and played with his hair playing like a movieâ jabs and jokes followed with gentle hands that smoothed down his head, tucking stray hairs back and calling him a pretty princess with that annoying cooed toneâ a small smile finds its way onto his face, a glance back at you showing that you must be reminiscing the same things, eyes alight and lips curved into a fond smile; feeling his gaze on you, you meet his eyes boldly, fuzzy memories of summers past fading from your mind, taking in how the scrawny boy youâve known since birth has now turned into the man he is todayâ and your mind inevitably wanders off to the others.
âI wonder how theyâre doing,â you confess, not needing to say any names to let Beomgyu know who youâre talking about; Beomgyuâs face softens, and he turns back to the mirror, squeezing out the last bits of water that remain in his hair as he hums softly, lost in thought.
âIâm sure theyâre fine,â he reassures you, curious with the way your gaze remains downcast, âYou act like weâll never see them again.â
âWell, I havenât heard from them in ages,â you complain, head tilting back to the ceiling, letting out a big sigh for dramatic effect, âthe group chat is so dead, and everyoneâs so busy these days.â
âI know; I almost miss Yeonjun spamming it,â Beomgyu jokes, bringing about a soft laugh from you; the atmosphere around you lightens up, and Beomgyu finishes up the final touches with his hair, fluffing it up before he throws the towel at you; it lands on your head and covers face unceremoniously, and you yelp indignantly, quick hands taking it off immediately.
âWe just have to make it to Friday,â he says firmly, innocent grin an instinctive response to the glare you send his way, âOnly a week till Friday and weâll see everyone, right?â
âRight,â you murmur, narrowed eyes following his figure that backs out the door slowly, clearly trying to escape your silent wrath, âJust make it to Friday.â
âExactly,â he chirps, your eyes trained on him as he starts to step out the doorway, âtry not to be so depressed till then.âÂ
He jumps out of sight just as you throw the dirty towel right where he once stood; it lands with a sad, heavy plop, and Beomgyuâs victorious laugh rings out the hallway as he runs off to his bedroom, a loud goodnight! is the last thing you hear before his door closes.Â
Itâs silent; your eyes fall onto the towel that remains on the floor, the roll of your eyes contrasting the smile that grows on your lips.Â
âGoodnight,â you call out to the empty hallway, throwing the towel into the hamper before you turn the lights off; the house is shrouded in complete darkness, and you make your way to your bedroom with slow, tired steps; Beomgyuâs words echo in your head without you realizing.Â
Just make it to Friday.
Taehyunâs place has always been the ideal place for hangouts for three obvious reasons: itâs the most spacious, he lives alone, and of course, heâs the best cook.Â
Itâs a fact youâre reminded of as you lay back on the couch and glance over at the mess happening in the kitchenâ because Hueningkai just had to insist on helping out, the clumsy boy resigned to dish duties after almost chopping off his fingerâ twice, all five of you practically jumping out your skins each time he let out an undignified screech, followed by the sound of the knife clattering on the cutting board. And though Taehyun had sent the youngest a scathing glare, the relief in his face was obvious by the way he clutched the fallen knife close to his body and shooed Hueningkai away to the sink filled with dirty pots and pans.Â
A random drama drones off in the television; it was clear that the show was there for background noise and nothing more, seated next to Beomgyu on the couch as the two of you catch up with Soobin and Yeonjun, listening to them rant and complain about the heavy workload of their classes or angry customers theyâve encountered at their jobs.Â
âDid you know the mall is closed down?â Yeonjun says, your surprised gasp and incredulous glance to the boy beside you enough to answer his question, âyeah, some pipes burst and flooded like half the placeâ theyâre closing down for maintenance for the next two weeks.â
âBut what about the workers?â you ask, watching as two of the said workers shrug their shoulders dismissively, clearly not as stressed about the situation as you expected them to be.
âWe got an email from our supervisors that weâll probably be paid for the days we were scheduled,â Soobin says, the undeniable twinkle in his eyes telling you that he didnât really mind this whole situation, âLike PTO, I guess.â
âWish that place got closed for a month instead,â Yeonjun huffs, a yawn ripping through him as he stretches his arms over his head, letting out a big sigh once they fall limp at his sides, âfucking hate that place.âÂ
âSame.â
When thereâs nothing to complain about and theyâve seemed to have updated you on every miniscule detail of their lifeâ how their finals are approaching, this new snack theyâve recently discovered at the gas station on the way home, apparently attempting to âput you onââ the three turn to you, not expecting the way you shift and shrink into the couch at all; they ask if thereâs anything new or interesting going on in your life, and all you can do is clear your throat in nervous thought.Â
âNot really,â you say with a sheepish smile, watching as Soobin and Yeonjun send you a curious look, as though they didnât believe you, âLifeâs just⊠been really boring recently. Nothing interesting has happened.â
Nothing? They echo, humming softly at the sight of your affirming nods; quite unlike you, they canât help but think, always having something to do, something to say, a new story to tellâ Hueningkaiâs loud and projected voice calling you all to the kitchen seems to be your saving grace, the tension slipping off your muscles as you all rush to gather around.Â
In a big, scary world like this, where your lives are in a liminal state and you couldnât even bring yourself to confidently talk about how your days have been going, it was moments like these that mattered the mostâ because even if Taehyun lived on his own, with no family in town to constantly check up and dote on him, his kitchen said otherwise; the dining table was large and full, and his cabinets were packed with more dishes than he knew what to do with on most daysâ you all pretended you didnât notice the fond smile on his face as he set down dish after dish, ramen and meat and enough side dishes to leave you all stuffed and drowsy.
âIâm gonna cry, I havenât had a proper meal in so long,â Hueningkai was the first to cry out, his plate full to the brim yet his chopsticks still reaching out for more, unfazed at the way Soobin and Yeonjun continue to sneak meat onto his dish, âIâve had to survive off reheat stuff ever since I got that stupid internship, I almost went insane.â
âAwh, you poor thing,â you coo out, a teasing smile on your face as you reach to place rolled omelets on his plate as well, already guessing heâd try to reach over for them anyway, âYou gotta make sure you eat so you get big and strong, okay? Donât skip out on meals.â
Hueningkai scoffs at your jabsâ but before he can try to give your teasing a rebuttal, youâre craning your head to where Taehyun sits, on the other side of Beomgyu and completely lost in his own food; he visibly jumps when you call his name, wide eyes peeking up at you mid-bite.
âHow is that internship going for you two so far, anyway?â you ask, glancing back at Hueningkai to make sure he was listening, âI keep hearing the stupid commercials about it when Beomgyu plays his music.â
âThatâs for another division of the project,â Taehyun is quick to correct, Hueningkai nodding along at his words, âtheyâre looking for people to test on.â
âWhat?!â you exclaim, everyone else but Hueningkai as equally surprised as you are, âIs that⊠safe?â
âI mean, itâs legal,â Hueningkai slowly begins, a bit sheepish as the sight of your concerned frown that forms at his words, âeverything is thoroughly discussed beforehand, but with a project like this, thereâs obviously bound to be some risks.â
âAnd people still agree to it?â Soobin asks, his words muffled by the mouthful of food he chews throughâ he gets a slight jab on the side from Yeonjun because of it.Â
Hueningkai nods.Â
âWeâve already had a few hundreds go through testing already in groups; placebos, beta products, reactions to certain ingredientsâŠâ
âIt probably pays good,â Beomgyu pipes up, looking at Taehyun for confirmation, âdoesnât it?â
Taehyun thinks the question through, humming in thought before he finally answers.
âYeah, I guess so,â he says, âbut Iâm not exactly sure how much it is.â
âWoah, maybe I should volunteer,â you say, watching as Taehyun and Hueningkai turn to you in surprise; a coy smile tweaks at your lips, and you send them a wink with your next words. âBut only if one of you is the one testing on me.â
The table erupts into laughs and groans; Taehyunâs grumble of donât be weird, isnât lost on you, but soon enough, everyone else finds themselves joining in.
âYou should test on me too,â Yeonjun grins, reaching over to try and grab Taehyunâs hand; the said man recoils immediately, âmaybe then I wonât be tired all the time.â
âMe tooâ câmon, stop gatekeeping that BioGen stuff!â
âYou should sneak some of the finished product over to us.â
âYeah, thatâs what true friends do!âÂ
âPleaaase?â
âHueningie!âÂ
Voices melt and stack in a loud cacophonyâ you donât know whoâs saying what anymore, or whoâs talking to who, but youâve all erupted in your own conversations, teasing the two smartest members in your group or choosing to talk about something else; itâs lively, itâs restless, and soon enough, all the food from the table has disappeared.
You play rock paper scissors to see who does the dishes; you and Soobin lose with loud cries of dismay.Â
âDo you remember that ice cream truck that would always go around our neighborhood at this time?â
Spring must be near; you find yourself thinking that as you lean back against the porch fence, your legs spread haphazardly over Soobinâs lapâ all the comfortable lawn chairs had already been taken by the others by the time the two of you finished cleaning up, leaving you to sit on the floor, not that you really mindedâ you got a better look at the few stars that were still visible in the sky this way, anyway.
âThe one that never stopped for us?â Soobin asks, causing you to laugh with a soft nod, âI hated that truck.â
âBut it had the best ice cream though,â Hueningkai says, you and Soobin craning your heads back to where the boy sat in the corner, curled up in his chair and staring back with drowsy eyes, ânothing could top it.â
âMaybe âcause we had to run down two blocks to catch it,â Yeonjun interjects, smiling at the laughter he gets in response, countless memories seemingly flooding into everyoneâs mindsâ the coin purses or ziplock bags that were clenched in your hands, the relentless sun that shined in your faces as you tried to yell at the ice cream truck to stopâ the music mustâve drowned you all out, you think to yourself, because each time the old lady driving stopped for you guys, she always seemed to have a genuine shock that would paint her face.Â
Oh my, you guys look so tired!
âI miss that lady,â you find yourself blurting out, unable to stop the nostalgia that drips through your words, âI miss those times.â
The air grows a bit heavyâ you gulp, mentally scolding yourself as your friends fall into deep thought.
âThis place does look a bit sadder, huh?â Taehyun wonders aloud, eyes drifting along the neighborhood; the once lively streets and lit up houses now barren, now dark, âa lot emptier.â
Silence. Though no one says it, you know they all agree.Â
âBut hey, thatâll fix itself soon!â Yeonjun pipes up, throwing an arm over Taehyunâs shoulder, shaking him out of his reverie; Yeonjun only grins, sending Hueningkai a knowing look, âwe got our two geniuses working on the magic cure. Itâll get finished in no time at this point.â
âI donât know about that,â Taehyun scoffs lightheartedly, shrugging off Yeonjunâs arm, âitâs a lot more complicated than you think.â
You all recognize that little trail off in Taehyunâs sentence: thereâs more to his words than he wants to tell. Beomgyu is curious enough to be the first to bite the bait.
âMore complicated than we think?â Beomgyu echoes, cocking his head to the side and raising a brow, âwhat do you mean? Is there something weird going on behind the scenes?â
âNo,â Taehyun quickly says, causing all of you to stare at him in clear disbelief, âWell, I canât tell you anyway.â
âSo there is?â Hueningkai asksâ when you send him a confused look, the said man only shrugs. âHey, Iâm in a different department, Iâm not directly involved in making the thing.â
All eyes are back on Taehyun in search of answers.Â
âWell,â he sputters, actively avoiding all ten pairs of eyes that keep track of his every movement, âI⊠even I donât know, honestly; theyâre not letting me take too much of a direct part in making the solutionsâ Iâve never even seen the test subjects they gather.
âThereâs like. A division of three people that are directly involved with the test subjects. The rest of us only receive vague feedback and instructions.â
âCreepy,â you shudder, Soobin nodding along at your exclamation, âsounds like theyâre hiding something.â
Taehyun doesnât refute your words; if anything, his brows knit together in thought.Â
âThey said theyâre gonna release an update of the first test subjects tomorrow,â Yeonjun jumps up again, quick as always to relieve a tense mood, âtheyâre making it sound like itâs nothing but good news.
âThis place will be back to normal before we know it,â Yeonjun smiles, eyes falling onto you knowingly, âthe future will be better.â
You nod along to his statement, even if you donât find yourself believing it. A silence falls shortly after, and youâre looking back up at the sky again.
âThe stars look pretty tonight,â you mumble.
You hear a scoff behind you.
âWhat stars? Thereâs like two out.âÂ
âDo you always have to try to ruin my fun?â
The bickering is endless between you allâ but itâs not malicious in the slightest. No, it feels normal, feels familiar, even as you make faces and gestures and call each other names.Â
It feels like home, and it feels like the only thing that makes you hope for the future.
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