thnks fr th mmrs

i'm working hard and studying hard and loving what i do, and i let myself rest when i'm tired. i've gotten back into drawing a bit; i draw plants and animals that i take pictures of when i'm out and about. keeping my place clean and tidy is hard but i try because i care about my wellbeing. i've gotten so much better at taking care of my hair, too. i finally got a haircut and i love it; a lot of people say they like it, too!

right now is the best i've been financially in a while — i just bought groceries and i didn't have to buy the bare minimum cheapest stuff. i can buy non-essentials too! i paid my rent on time and didn't have to beg for extra time. i got recommended for the same scholarship i got last year, and i got a grant too. i see the results of my hard work and it motivates me to keep going.

i recently told myself i love myself and i meant it — for the first time. i hug myself when i'm sad and i let myself cry. i sit with my difficult emotions and don't run to vent to someone immediately. i have been fighting the urge to self-harm, very bravely.

i am just a human like everyone else and i do things wrong sometimes. i make mistakes and i try to learn from them without being too hard on myself. i often get tired of the lessons but i'm thankful for them, too.

6 days is a long time to ignore someone. why is he doing this? is he ok?