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I used to draw an oc (not sure if it was self insert since i gave her a lot of traits from myself) because i had no friends and i dont trust my parents with my problems. This was like when i was still in school & was a minorLOL

I drew more than this but obviously i cant show it since i think it's too much/triggering, well, since i drew her as a form of vent & comfort

No social life + bad relationship with parents (especially dad) made me even more distant with everyone, i tried to make myself feel seen by drawing my own version of n7 with my oc !

Got lotta issues (mainly self worth; self esteem, nightmares, her looks, self inflicted pain, irregular eating habit) she collecting them all like pokemons bru😭

It's ok if u dgaf, her story just she lives with her parent that barely cares for her, often sleeping with plushies on roaches. She dreamt about having som1 that's kind to her. Also about the suitcase thing i had like, in 2 images, in the real world she died n stuffed in a suitcase while she's still dreaming about the life she never had lol she had a name, it was sena, but i often called her sen

She loved to draw just like me, she liked to let's just say; paint

She's still trying to be good even if she wasn't the best

Idk if it make sense but the way i drew and represent her, kinda had to do something about my past self. I never felt like grew past certain age, i was still in middle school. Yknow, playing minecraft alone all day while listening about kikuo telling me im such a useless child BHAHAHAHSHDH i do still have that mindset, though im not a child anymore and it wasnt as bad but it's still there

The only thing i have left of sen in my current oc is the scribbled pupil, it was uniquely hers

Also, in the link above, the 2nd image was her if she lived to 18 (she kinda lost her spark but still going) she's a survivor yeah, the marks on her neck wasnt left by blades but rope. I hope she recovered