To High Places By Narrow Roads

So many dreams we lost along the way

Then the memories come flooding back

All the passion you felt

And the things that made you heart beat.

Looking back at that 16 year old

With the dream of playing football for Arsenal

And having the biggest crush on JC Chasez

Wonder if she's be content with who she is now.

Things didn't go as she hoped

Her life fell apart four years later

When her mom died

She didn't have answers

Just responsibility she didn't ask for

She's learnt so much

And is so wise now

But her heart had seem to forget how to smile

Then one July evening in 2026

23 years later

The world cup finals, an nsync song

And her Bible opened on her favorite verse

And her heart smiled for a moment

A moment she longs to carry with her

There's no time to stop

No time to think

No time to process anything

You just got to keep moving

You can't stay stuck in the past

Waiting or contemplating.

Life's been hard

But I can't stop

I can't slow down

Or I'll be left behind.

Living with unresolved traumas

My body can't distinguish between fight or flight

Maybe it's unhealthy

But I can't stop.

Trying hard to keep up

To stay on course

To fit the mold

Of a society that is hell-bent on telling you how to live

Life is dynamic.

But it's unrecognizable.

How did everything change?

When did everything change?

How are we so familiar with a life that we have no control over?

Heard the gunshots that killed my neighbor...

Attending the funeral of a kid who was shot in the head...

None of these things are normal.

None of it's okay.

How did it become so easy?

What did it become acceptable?