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Condoctro (Cornet Obolensky x C-Indoctro)

Stallion presentation at Gestüt Sprehe 2019

Influential sires: Dutch Warmbloods 

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Born in 1983 to Holstein bloodlines, Burggraaf (Landgraf I x Cor de la Bryere, died 2006) would become a successful influence in the jumping lines of KWPN. Successful in the show jumping ring himself under rider Roelof Bril, Burggraaf competed at 1.60m level and jumped over a 2.10m puissance wall during Indoor Brabant in 1991, of which I failed to find a video. 

Welcome Back to Esperada (Coronet Obolensky)

Traverse City Horse Shows @ Great Lakes Equestrian Festival 

The Westbury Horse, 1939 by Eric Ravilious

and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.

and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun

I want a cleaner kitchen

I want a better job

I want to live somewhere else

Even When It Is Trying to Kill You!

Is Defensive.

Your brain exists to preserve you; it’s just Dumb, and how it goes about “preserving” is determined by evolution’s ‘Good Enough’ meat-and-chemistry mechanisms rather than a firm grasp of biology.

You know how, stuck atop a burning building, ppl will sometimes throw themselves off in a vain hope of surviving? That’s what depression-driven suicide is. You are under THAT amount of stress, often sustained for a FAR longer time. Your brain only understands “Stress”: it doesn’t know causes, it doesn’t know Events, and it only has the one set of instinctive ‘extreme measures’ to fall back on. I made things SO hard on myself for SO Long conceiving of Depression as a Fight I had to Win, rather than a chronic illness in need of my understanding and careful management.