It will always be me

Intimacy is all I ask. I don’t believe it is too much to ask. Our relationship has become more of friendship than lover. Don’t get me wrong I love the fact that we are friends! But the moment I am feeling more like another “homie” it becomes a problem. 

The father that even though he support me, he tried to tell me that I have to do house wife work because that what women do. I comprehend how is that my brothers can do what they want and they don't received that traditional speech. 

I imagine myself with much more success of what I have right now. I always thought that I would it create something for me and my family. But along the way you learn that not everything is how you plan. Sometimes I question my existence in this world. What is my reason to breath everyday? what’s my reason to wake up everyday? What am I here for? 

There’s some days that I just can't anymore, I try my best to be someone I'm not. To keep that cold persona that every body knows. 

There’s moment that I question why I am in this relationship. Sometimes I feel like I can't express what Im feeling.