tofu...

theres so much in this world to see... and I am on my way

btw with email u dont have to lick the envelope. i know a lot of people have been doing that and its fine and all but you dont acrtually have to do that with email.

Over twenty years ago my big brother got me a job at a Taco Bell in the St. Louis suburbs-West County. He warned me that it was the "gay Taco Bell", but since I was coming from the "gay Howard Johnson's" I wasn't shocked. It turns out it was the black trans women Taco Bell complete with black trans women in management. And they'd worked out an arrangement with the local teen Narcotics Anonymous group so that twice a week we would shut down the drive thru and the dining room and exclusively serve 60+ teens in various stages of recovery. And many of the women I worked with were in various stages of being out or transitioning and they were from all generations from teens to over 50. One woman I worked with had a regular corporate job presenting as a man 9-5 Mon-Fri and then came to Taco Bell and worked 6pm -2am Friday and Saturday night so she could be herself surrounded by other black transwomen in those stolen weekends. And we had customers come from all over the metro area because they knew they could be themselves in the dining room. I only worked there from 1999-2001 but for young me, this was a vital, formative experience. Some of the girls came from north city all the way out to the "gay Taco Bell" on Manchester in west county because they heard it was safe to work there. Like- I know times have changed but they haven't changed much in 20 years. I'm still convinced that for lgbt youth, finding a job at your city's version of the "gay Taco Bell" is key to survival.

it's so hard talking to people with normative views on shit someone will say "i lost five pounds this month!" and im not supposed to say "im so sorry" or "you wanna get high and try to get em back?"? fuckkkkkkkk this shit is so hard im NOT getting that promotion

it's so hard talking to people with normative views on shit someone will say "i lost five pounds this month!" and im not supposed to say "im so sorry" or "you wanna get high and try to get em back?"? fuckkkkkkkk this shit is so hard im NOT getting that promotion

it's so hard talking to people with normative views on shit someone will say "i lost five pounds this month!" and im not supposed to say "im so sorry" or "you wanna get high and try to get em back?"? fuckkkkkkkk this shit is so hard im NOT getting that promotion

jellyfish lifecycles piss me off a little bit

in the club begging strangers for forgiveness and proving incapable of articulating what for when asked