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I got most of these (after the RWS) when I last quit smoking a couple years ago (think I made it five years) as a deal with myself - I could spend my cigarette budget on indie tarot decks. I started up again but it was a good incentive at the time.

I have also traded and given decks away so there are more that I’ve had and lost, but this is my current collection of 27 30 tarot decks (I’ll make a separate post for oracle and misc decks). I also tried to get these in a way that corresponded to the majors order to help limit my spending but it got pretty neurotic with swapping out deck positions and stuff so I’ve stopped worrying about that as much. It kinda helps me remember my collection though.

Adding a read more coz on desktop the pics make it a long post.

But in fitness boxing it introduced uppercuts. It was a little annoying because the demo didn’t allow me to practice it as it was new but let me do it in the game. But I figured it out. It turned into a real workout then haha. I have learned jabs, straights, whatever the side ones are I think, and uppercuts. I did zone out at one point daydreaming while still doing the moves but I came back to focus after I missed one. It’s a lot of fun.

The just dance menu is a pain in the ass. It said in the workout area that a goal was to dance to ten colorful songs so I searched colorful and a majority of the stuff was “only included in just dance +” or some variation of “must have just dance 202#.” Sharks. Maybe there’s a filter you can use while searching? I didn’t see one but it would be nice if there is one.

I bought a hydro flask on amazon that’ll be here monday. Basically the same size as the 33oz water bottles I get at work. And some backup straws. I got a color that wasn’t my first choice and is a bit ostentatious because the one I was leaning towards (1) might arrive in ten days (2) the color was like a light slightly blueish green and I wondered whether my intrusive thoughts would make me feel like the water was off. Plus I figured if I brought my bright one to work I’d be less likely to forget it. Now I can decorate it with my animal crossing stickers, yay 😁 I’ll use the rest on my tech devices.

And I can use the tru lemon flavor packets I got a while ago since they can’t see what’s in my water bottle. It’s kinda random that they’ll enforce the only water rule tbh. And it’s nearly summer so I can fill it with cold water and it should stay cold. I’ve never been more prepared for the summer. I’ve got a neck fan, a parasol, clip on shades for my glasses, and now a hydro flask on the way.

The only thing now is whether to get a brita pitcher. We go through a lot of water bottles. I was looking at sink brita filters too but the reviews were a little mixed on leakage and spraying and stuff and I wonder about sink space. I’m gonna ask my mon what she thinks when she gets home. The fridge space is tight tbh so I’m not sure. The sink one would be convenient if it worked. I’ll bet she has a reason she hasn’t already sprung for one but we’ll see. Either way we’re gonna have to have bottled water in the house with how often the apartment complex shuts off the water for maintenance. But it could reduce it.

I have longer shifts for the next three days. But I’ll be able to hang out with my partner over FaceTime either tomorrow or the day after.

Today has been slightly blah. I miss him. And I missed a call thinking it was a spam number. Oddly kinda looking a biiiit forward to work to socialize a little bit.

Deck: Britt’s Third Eye tarot

Question: What are my shopping habits and what advice would help?

Cards: 10 of swords, 6 of cups

Resources used:

Wow. I was gonna use the deviant moon but I realized I just did a workout with fitness boxing 3’s demo and I was feeling peppy so I went with a peppy deck to match my energy.

To define the cards with the ten of swords first, it’s about ruin, backstabbing and betrayal, melodrama, hitting rock bottom, fear of insanity, mental chaos, being at your lowest moment, or just feeling like you are and being like ‘oh woe is me.’

To define the six of cups, in the rws it’s about a return to innocence, nostalgia, reliving your past or childhood, a reminder of simpler times, memories, “noble impulses,” and in a lot of modern decks it’s depicted as remembering your ancestors or inner child healing.

I think to interpret it, the ten of swords I could take two ways. One is I overdramatize the ruin my purchases could give me and stress out about buying things and overthink it because I don’t want to be in a bad situation as a result of a purchase. I worry about it all the way until it makes it to me or whoever if I’m buying online. I get a bit obsessive when I buy something because I want it to count. The other way I could see it is I self sabotage my finances by spending it before I can lose it to some other situation instead of trying to save it for a rainy day or reducing my debt a little bit more at a time. Or before I spend it on eating out or food or stuff I can squeeze pennies on if I have to. Instead of spending money on eating well maybe (that would require sitting down and grocery and meal planning a little too I think).

The advice is the six of cups. Maybe it’s saying to reparent yourself in terms of money. Like let yourself buy nice things but also to help reassure you that you aren’t putting yourself into financial ruin, try saving a little every paycheck or at least every month a little bit at a time. Make a little budget that you stick to to help calm the cyclical money death spiral that you get yourself. Like this much for food, this much for saving, this much for bills, this much for fun stuff, this much for emergencies. That could be good. And if you break budget a little once in a while it’s okay, just return to it as soon as you can, and at least the structure is there that you can return to it. And it’ll calm the guilt you have whenever you buy something.

Then I remembered I wanted to try just dance 2025 again. It’s been months or maybe even a year since I bought it so I opened it up and did some easy ones. Idk why I had such trouble the first time, I think I wasn’t looking at the dancers thinking I had to watch the movements of the stick figures scrolling across the screen. I looked at the dancers this time anyway and had a much better time. I tried two medium ones and the last one I did wasn’t so bad. Actually the espresso one where you sit in a chair was pretty hard for me since they were such dainty movements. But I can see how they could be more accessible for some people. Anyway it was fun.

I had enough fun that I looked up just dance 2026 and saw it was 40% off on amazon for a download code they mail to you. But I slowed myself down. I just had to buy a new joycon, I bought the ring fit and it hasn’t arrived yet (plus $30 on three deity statuettes since I didn’t quite have a representation of them on my altar). And I just started using just dance so I might as well get more familiar with the songs and dances on there before springing for more. Maybe I’ll get it for my friend next month and for myself for his and mine’s birthday since he’s the one that tried to see if we could play it with him having the demo and me having 2025 (we could see each other but not dance together). And I think it gives you a month of the subscription for free so that’d be cool to do together for a lil bit.

I been shopping oh mah gawd.

I think I haven’t been making poor decisions with spending or anything. People spend money on the gym and this ring fit thing has helped a lot of people with getting active so I think it’s about the same investment.

The paycheck I have coming is going towards bills so I’ll have to cool it for at least a week.

I still haven’t smoked! That’s 8 days without. I did have to replace 3-4 patches that got loose or whatever so I only have 2 of the step 1 left. I think I’m just gonna go ahead and move on to step 2. If I get too stressed I’ll buy step 1. But I haven’t really been chewing the gum, maybe once or twice a day. So I might just up the gum chewing and be good.

I also downloaded a demo for fitness boxing 3 that I’m about to try. I’m also thinking of getting switch sports eventually to play with my mom. The only thing is two player soccer needs two joycons each and I have three so that’s a pain. But you can play that solo mode I think. But I’m not in a rush to get it because my mom and I don’t play much together anyway. I just think it’d be her thing maybe.

The reason I got ring fit is I looked up fitness games with good ratings and everyone was raving about that one. They liked fitness boxing too. Some said switch sports and just dance were alright too. I figured if ring fit was that positively regarded and helped people get fit and lose weight, it could be good for me. Gamified stuff usually works well for me. And it’s getting hot here so this way I can just exercise at home. I’m not walking as much not smoking cigarettes so I need to make up for that too.

I’m excited to try it. I’m probably gonna do a low difficulty since I’m out of shape but I don’t know how low to start with. I’ll look that up.

Deck: Wild Unknown

Question: What advice will help me today?

Card: Daughter of Swords (Page of Swords)

Resources used: WU guidebook

I’d actually done other readings like quick ones and on an app but this is me sitting down and journaling.

Idk if I’ve gotten this card more than twice with this deck. I actually saw it real quick when I checked it was right side up to shuffle and thought it was the high priestess coz I’m used to her being an owl but then I shuffled and drew it and was like oh.

So to define it, the page of swords is often a youthful and inquisitive person, quick thinking and clever, talkative, speedy, may be a gossip, maybe a story teller, values truthfulness and honesty (maybe reversed have a tendency towards tall tales), has faith in the powers of the mind, logical, rational, maybe incensed at injustice, etc.

To interpret it, maybe today I oughta exercise my mind by doing things like writing. Or it’s saying communicate honestly and be forthcoming (pages are like immediate happenings or messages). I could do my animal crossing blogging for example. Or text my partner. Or send a maintenance request about the ac leaking again. Lol.

Let’s look at the guidebook.

It talks about her watching and being observant and honest and frank and how those are valuable traits. I guess I noticed my friend was playing smash for a few hours and I wondered how to bring it up because I thought it would be funny to be like “so how many characters did you unlock? 😛” So maybe it’s saying just be direct with it haha.

Maybe it is the ac. I was gonna do that tomorrow.

I’ll check back in laytor.

I hung out with my friend. He told me he had unlocked or had altogether now 23 or 24 new characters and at the end of the night he had more. He has surpassed me already in 24 hours. I mean, in terms of unlocked characters. I was shook. He figured out the different ways to unlock characters. One is to play solo? or just world of light for ten minutes and go back and it’ll trigger the “new challenger” thing. But if you fail it’s random if you see them again. Something like that anyway. So that’s good to know. Wish I’d known before. We played 1vs1 and I was doing really well at first and won five times in a row. Then it was a little more back and forth maybe favoring him.

We played fall guys next and did a little better. I made it to the final round. We tried some player created levels. Some mario kart. Mario party. When we were playing that our phone connection crapped out and we could text but not call, and if it did connect I could hear him but not the other way around. We were almost done so we finished and planned to move to zoom but we restarted again and it worked. He won the game. Then we played wheel of fortune and I think I won the first one and he won the other two. He was really feeling himself haha

Then we played separately on the phone. He was still unlocking characters in smash bros and I hadn’t played animal crossing that day yet. I caught a tilapia. I guess they come out in june. And I found a lot of fossils but only two were new. The good thing is it was raining so I didn’t have to water my garden. And I found a star fragment! My friend told me they’re from when you make a wish. I had finally successfully done it the day before. The able sisters clothing shop is under construction still.

That’s pretty much it. I hung out with my partner today too. He’s going through a tough time but I’m glad he was able to talk to me about it. We watched videogamedunkey, game grumps, and some case closed, and dan and phil play tomadachi life.

I got the shadowscapes app recently and pulled the 8 of cups as my card of the day and it made sense. I dug a bit deeper into an issue and it helped some things.

Then when I was looking at past opponents (just my friend and one rando) I looked at the rando’s profile and saw (besides that they had at least 435hours in smash) fall guys on their game list. I didn’t know it was on switch so I went to see cost and turns out it’s free?! So I told my friend and we downloaded it and tried it. We suck. Also the game just kinda throws you in so we were disoriented. We struggled adding each other, like it wasn’t showing him my invite. But then he somehow invited me. One of us each made it through a round twice where the other got eliminated and I think one time we both made it to the next round. I wanna see if we can play together solo. Just to increase our odds of one of us making it. I think when we made it to the second round we were both struggling at one part and then I saw him like “is that you?” and we started cracking up.

It’s pretty fun tho. I got tempted by a micro transaction. It’s a chicken costume. They say I squawk like a chicken. It leaves soon. But I won’t be tempted so early. I still need to get decent at the game. I just got it!

Anyway. Today was ok. My neck and shoulders hurt. But I massaged it some and it feels better. Plus I took a tylenol. And my mom made yummy food. I’m off work the next few days too. And my amazon package came in two days early today. Still waiting on target for that joycon. It’s late. I’m nervous. I don’t know if I’ll order from target again. This was my first time. At least I’ll be home all day if it does come.

I got a case for my switch and animal crossing stickers. The stickers are bigger than I expected. I think they’re more for water bottles. But I’ll use them.

I also ordered a carrying case for my switch that’s a little hard and slightly water resistant for my backpack. I was worried about my water bottle leaking on it. And the joysticks getting fucked with. There was a really cute kirby one I saw from nintendo or an affiliate but it didn’t seem that protective tbh. And I got some animal crossing stickers and a screen protector tempered glass thing for the switch. I guess it’s kinda considered necessary so I’m surprised I didn’t have one this whole time. I’ve definitely dropped it before so that’s lucky.

Too much spending money. I did save a bit by not getting the pair of neon purple and orange joycons. I saw they sold the one after thinking I’d have to get that pack so I spent $45 instead of $90. Next paycheck I’ll pay the internet bill and some of the power bill. I should be good until then and after but yeesh I wasn’t expecting to spend all that. I guess the animal crossing stickers weren’t really necessary haha.

I didn’t smoke today. I got my friend his gift card so he can get smash bros for his birthday. I was a little impatient and thought to give it to him today but when I was hanging out with my partner we pulled our tarot (I used the sakki-sakki) and I got the hanged man. I did a rare clarification card and got the seven of pentacles so I figured it was just saying delay it. Maybe it was about how we didn’t end up hanging out tonight. Or it was saying be patient and wait for his birthday. Even though that’s over a month away. Ugh.

I didn’t take a pic of the seven of pentacles. I took this before I saw my friend’s text I think saying he wanted to sleep tonight.

LearnTarot’s keywords are “LETTING GO, REVERSAL, SUSPENSION, SACRIFICE” and for 7p “ASSESSMENT, REWARD, DIRECTION CHANGE.” I wonder if this wasn’t about my friend as much as the process of looking into and troubleshooting my switch and ultimately replacing the controller. Or it could be about both. I did think the controller was gonna be shipped for pickup but it’s coming to my house and now I’m worried about getting it OTL. Hopefully it fits in the mailbox. Anyway I did take a pause. While we were hanging out I asked if it’d be cool if I called back after looking into it and I did for an hour but didn’t make any snap decisions. I think like an hour later I revisited and tweaked and then decided after another half hour to an hour, I think I weighed everything out pretty carefully.

I might pull for my friend’s gift tomorrow. Whether to give it to him before his birthday or not. Maybe I’ll do it as a pro and con. That might be 2-4 cards..?

Watched stuff with my partner. Played mario kart, mario party superstars (I won! I did well at minigames), wheel of fortune, and then some gameboy games. We did kirby something like a weird star tetris game (we played it last time, were confused, saw there were rules in the menu, and it makes more sense now) and tried gameboy mario golf but that was a dud. And/or we just didn’t know how to play. I don’t remember if we played anything else.

I did pretty well today with the games. My friend felt he didn’t do as well as usual. I actually beat him at a button mashing mini game in mario party, that was a shock. There was another game where my left joystick was acting up. It’s been doing that lately….:( And the controller sync thing in general has been sketchy in settings. Makes me nervous. I want it to work smoothly, it’s my only console aside from pc which I don’t use much these days. I think I’ve only had the switch for like three years too.

Just checked and yeah, it’s been three years. And there was a year I didn’t really use it.

I looked and it looks like the first game I bought was in may 2025 for phoenix wright trilogy on sale for $10. And then I got my friend and I mario party superstars and then got myself tetris, I think. And then my friend and I individually got monster prom on sale for $4.33. Then I got uno for the same price (my friend would get it later) and I got just dance 2025 on sale and then Mortal kombat 11 on sale (haven’t played it much tbh). So I mainly played NS Expansion pack the first year, didn’t play much the next year except maybe a little palia and the expansion pack games with my friend, and then May 2025 started playing forreal. I guess that’s when I reconnected with my friend too. I’m wondering if this was when my tax return came in or something coz Idk where this game money came from otherwise.

Then in june 2025 I got wheel of fortune and my friend would get it later, probably on sale. Then in august my friend and I got monster camp and monster roadtrip on sale. Later I got spiritfarer on sale but haven’t played it yet, but have heard good things. Then december we got rogue heroes on sale and eventually beat it together.

Then march 2026 my tax return came in and when my partner was here I realized I didn’t have many games for entertaining (that’s how I felt anyway - just seemed like mario party and monster camp for more than two players) so I got mario kart 8 for my friend and I and smash bros.

Then april I got tomadachi life. And this month I got animal crossing.

I feel like I have a good sized library now, especially since there are games I haven’t finished or even started and I feel like I don’t have time for them all. There are still games I want to try like overcooked and someday one of the mario platformers made in the past few years but that’s about it. I still need to finish phoenix wright. I need to start spiritfarer. I’m in the middle of world of light on smash bros.

chewed a lot of nicotine gum, played games, watched stuff.

Kinda missed going outside but it’s hot anyway.

Wasn’t too stressed so that’s nice. I guess tapering off with the patch on worked.

Think I’m gonna buy more of step 1 in two weeks just to make sure I’m good. And more gum.

Idk what I’ll do at work on my break. Or before work. Or after. 😅

Besides that looking forward to getting my friend smash bros in a little over a month. Think we’ll have fun with that.

I’ll post some gaming stuff soon. Kinda sore that getting pics off a switch is such a thing. I beat a boss in smash bros today anyway. It took multiple days and several tries. BUT I DID IT! HA HA HA. AND I GOT A LOUSY SPIRIT OUTTA IT. I THINK IT’S LOUSY ANYWAY IDK.

Repeating a lot of stuff in monster camp pursuing Milo so thinking I might need to buy Zoe to keep enjoy playing. Or go after Dahlia, I like her too. But I got the stat smoothie again today hehehe.

And we started watching a cool netflix show called “the wonderfools” and it’s pretty funny. I like it.

Deck: Numinous tarot

Question: What advice will help me today?

Card: 2 of vials (2 of cups)

Resources used: Numinous tarot guidebook

Oh, it’s the same card I got yesterday. I haven’t used this deck in a while and it’s also soothing so I thought I’d give it a go.

This card is about relationships and connection, bonding with another, sharing feelings with another person, loving another person, usually a one on one kind of thing, mutual exchange of feelings.

To preliminarily interpret it, I think it’s emphasizing the need to connect with others. Maybe also to empathize more and share love with my mom and try to help her more by understanding her struggles.

Let’s look at the guidebook.

It talks about compassion and support and growth through this and worthwhile sacrifice guided by equal exchange and trust. I think helping support my mom more will be a good way of doing that.

Deck: Shadowscapes

Question: What advice will help me today?

Card: 2 of cups

Resources used:

I was a little stressed so I thought I’d go for a soothing deck.

To define it, the two of cups is about partnership, relationship, connection, love, marriage, forming a bond, tying some kind of knot or recognizing a relationship in some way, mutuality, tenderness, a relationship between equals, etc.

To preliminarily interpret it, I think it’s saying focus on empathy and connection today, enjoy your relationships, nurture the love in your connections, etc. I’m now doing a cigarette every four hours with a nicotine gum and I remember that with the bonding theory of addiction that social connection can make it easier to not engage in drugs and such. I can also extend this to connecting to my gods and goddesses when I’m feeling stressed or weak. I can rely on their strength when I need it. I still feel kinda like a religious atheist sometimes but I think I’m okay with that.

I’m gonna hang out with my partner soon so maybe that’ll be this card too. Like celebrating my relationships. I can talk to him about my worries for quitting smoking in the upcoming week.

I think that’s good for now. Bye I’ll review later.

I thought this looked cool. Can't use it though.

Wanted to show Saiko's eating quirk and the chair I got from the miis. It's next to his house.

Hairo is mad again.

Saiki got serious all of a sudden. I didn't know what to say that I was willing to hear all over the place so I just said that. To be clear, I like soft pretzels like from Annie's or whatever. I've just never liked the small hard ones. I can tolerate the chocolate covered ones though.

I changed Saiki's shirt as a leveling up gift but it sucked so I changed it to an old shirt that suits him more. I'm still looking for a sweater + button up combo.

This was sweet.

Toritsuka was practicing asking Yumehara out.

Nendo had that dream about bungee jumping. I watched him for a while to see if he would jump and he kept saying unique things but never did it so I finally pushed him.

Nendo and Teruhashi enjoy hanging out I've noticed.

Then I sent Saiki and friends on a Western Europe tour. I'm just going in order, I have a lot of trips to get through.

I thought this was funny.

So I didn't play on the 16th.

For the 17th:

Nendo released a coffee table book apparently.

I would wear this. If those are jeans and not a skirt.

Toritsuka creepin.

The girls started being robots.

Saiki thought Mera had a crush on him so I shut that down. She's dating Nendo anyway. Then I fed him and he said this.

Daily weirdness.

Kuboyasu asked me a question and I asked one back.

I played poke the ferris wheel for the first time and did well. But I think I missed out on potentially a crystal ball?? AIURAAAAA

Mera or Teruhashi approached the other and finally became friends this way.

Nendo and Hairo made up.

Akechi and Toritsuka are becoming more familiar, and I took Saiki and his friends on a Latin America tour.

That second one looks really pretty to me.