Ziggy Is Tired

What’s the feeling called not anxious but fidgety and mind racing and not wanting to do anything not sit still but getting up and doing things feels weird too. I just feel weird and like ants are crawling over my body and like I want to do something but I don’t know what

I miss my son so goddamn much all I want is to hear his giggle and smell his baby skin and give him kisses on his sweet little face

Taking Valium doesn’t really help either

I hate this fucking feeling I’m so fucking useless to everyone around Me.

I hate public toilets stalls cuz what you suppose to do if you need to shit boy like bro I’m not shitting everyone’s gonna know

Cutting again

I tired to sort out my payments and the women was so rude she made me cry so I had to run out and nothing is fixed

I think this is the lowest I have ever felt in a long time

But I’m going to Queensland there’s my friend I met from tumblr and her mum who’s super sweet and is like my mum so hopefully I’ll feel better there

Been binging and purging for the past two weeks straight I actuals don’t know what to do anymore

So I hooked up with someone, and sold them my weed pen for 200 and he fucks me one last time then says I need to get eyedrops for my eyes and says hell be back and he leaves and goes to the car and doesn’t come back and also blocks me on snap. So now I lost my weed pen and I feel dirty because he fucked me knowing he was gonna leave and block me so it’s just a quick fuck yeah