Purpose

My goal is to make more than all my friends and family members combined

Today I felt really loved and supported by my friends family for the first time I felt it and I’m so happy to experience it. To know that I’m cared about supported this much from my uncles and aunts. Loved supported by my closets friends I call my siblings is nothing something money can buy. I truly appreciate it. I really do.

You amount to nothing. You as in me. I am nothing. No future and destined to fail and live miserably.

Wow I’m actually depressed, I wanted to cry and I never do that at work. I never cry. Especially at work. I never had felt so defeated and checked out. I fucking hate my job and it’s not healthy. I already been told to appreciate what I have and to ignore how I feel at work and that it’s not personal however it’s been mentally taxing and I’m not trying to be an empty shell and be desensitize. Am I going soft or just extremely depressed and fed up with the work and work culture?

Am I hurting. No I’m not

Did I struck unlucky making bad life choices left and right

At the end of every dark tunnel of life hardship there is light so fucking bright and that you’ll be amazing that you had overcame it. Things do get better. They do. Your time will come with due persistence, diligence, resilience, perseverance

Even though I’m sitting beside you I still feel this missing connection between us