Shameless: Camila's coming out
Shameless is about Camilaās coming out, simple as that. But itās just not that. Camilaās not only singing about hersef - sheās singing about her partner (Lauren).
Donāt speak, no, donāt try
Itās been a secret for the longest time
Donāt run, no, donāt hide
Been running from it for the longest time
Camila is talking about a secret relationship where the parties may be running from their feelings. Sounds a lot like Camren around 2013 and 2014, huh? The secrecy is also a theme on Love Incredible and BT. If I might say, Lauren is the one running away from commitment, as described on SeƱorita:
You say weāre just friends, but friends donāt know the way you taste.
So many mornings I woke up confused
In my dreams, I do anything I want to you
My emotions are naked, theyāre taking me out of my mind
Right now, Iām shameless
Screaminā my lungs out for ya
Not afraid to face it
I need you more than I want to
This situation and maybe Camilaās sexuality used to make her confused. In her dreams she does anything she wants to Lauren. Thatās a powerful metaphor because she couldnāt in real life. So, Camilaās way of dealing with this situation was to come out.
By coming out, Camila takes control of her life and of her situation with Lauren.
Why? If we go down the memory lane, we have Lauren not commiting to Camila and refusing to accept her sexuality while Camila pines and deals with rejection. This is mentioned in Who Are You and OTTM (when Lauren even moved on to someone new, maybe Luis). Laurenās reasons for not commiting to Camila might include: fear of rejection (family, friends, label), believing falling in love with a woman is wrong (as implied in Burning), and other insecurities. However, she couldnāt let Camila go completely and Camila was holding a burden that wasnāt hers. By coming out, Camila was no longer affected by Laurenās insecurities. If Lauren rejected her, she could go on and find someone else to spend time with. She didnāt have to hide from her friends and family. She could go around as she liked (as long as she kept it on the down low). And this meant Lauren had to up her game or sheād risk losing Camila for good, as mentioned in No Way.
Show me youāre shameless
Write it on my neck, why donāt ya?
And I wonāt erase it
Camila wants Lauren to come out as well and claim her as her girlfriend. Write it on my neck is a beautiful way of describing a hickey, that can be seen as a possessive gesture.
So weāre there, now itās real
Now that you have me, do you want me still?
My kisses are history, they go back a long time, uh
And Iām tired of loving somebody thatās not mine, no
Thereās just inches in between us
I want you to give in, I want you to give in
There is tension in between us
I just wanna give in
āKisses are historyā are a way of showing that Camren were doing this for the longest time. But Camila is no longer satisfied with someone who wonāt stay with her for real. Sheās done loving somebody that aināt hers. As mentioned before, Camila knows that Lauren feels something for her. She wants Lauren to give in to her feelings.
And I donāt care if Iām forgiven
Strong line here. Remember how Lauren said sheād take all of Camilaās shame and burn at the stake? Yeah, well, Camila doesnāt care about being forgiven.