love, a

it's pernicious to constantly yearn for something i can't have

a heart that yearns for genuine love falls into silent desperation.

I broke my promise to myself for you.

I didn't even realize I've actually fallen until you were not there to catch me anymore.

i don't know how to swim, but if diving into the depths of the ocean meant knowing you more, i would've already been drowning.

i was never meant to look at things too shallowly; i'm meant to understand everything's depth and connect them with my soul.

i hate sharing too much of me, but that's all that i'm able to be

what's on the inside reflects on the outside.

how can you make someone feel so loved, and suddenly leaving them behind without any words on a random day?

... and the cycle of loathing and accepting myself continues

my inability to let go is tormenting me

I am ruthlessly poisoned by your absence. Since the day you became silent, the thought of you has been consuming my entirety. Still, I am delinquently waiting for you to talk to me; to hold me firmly again.