YOU MUST PROTECT ME AT ALL COST FROM ALL THE INTERNET TROLLS

have i been raped ooc? no. have i been around people who have been raped? yes. do i know enough information about the after effects and the trauma of rape to know that this isn’t something to be thrown around so casually as a plot point? yes.

back in 2015, i wrote about a character who had been raped. not the usual, dark and scary alleyway type of rape either. here’s another thing we should know about — rape comes in different forms. its not just a stranger in the night, its not a random jock who spikes your drink. it can be family members, it can be the ones you love, it can be the ones you trust. now, back to anecdote number one. i wrote a character who had been raped constantly by her lover, and he did this by getting her drunk enough to the point where she could not consent. as a result, this character suffered dramatically in emotional and romantic relationships. and this here muse was an adult.

now, let’s fast forward to the present. i’m currently writing a muse on my indie page that is a rape survivor. her story? she got raped at the age of fifteen by a man who was twenty four. he knew exactly what he was doing. he preyed on her and groomed her and made her promises and bought her things and he took from her.

and let me tell you something else. writing this has affected me psychologically, and added onto the cocktail of shit i deal with in real life.

the thing that i feel like people don’t understand when using triggering content as plot points is not only the effect it has on the character you are writing and the environment you’re writing in, but IT AFFECTS YOU. mentally, i’m sensitive. mentally, i am exhausted. mentally, i am angry and always wary of the actions of others. it is not fun to write this. it is a learning experience, though, to be able to flesh through actual emotions and rebuild from trauma. in a way, yes, it develops the shit out of your character who has been through an assault. you learn things, you become more aware, you become more sympathetic to the actual issues in reality and you want to do more. good.

but what we’re not gonna do, is to show that we are gonna fake-call attention to the issues of “reality” portrayed as plot twists in books and movies by rounding up slots for people who are comfortable with portraying their characters as rape victims and rapists. what we’re NOT gonna do is write this out — while it happens in real life, we know — in a roleplay filled with MINORS AND UNDERAGED FCS. we aren’t gonna address my opinion of why are we making high school rps when most of us ain’t in high school anymore and we were more than ready to graduate when our time came, cause that’s irrelevant. but majority of us use rp to relax, to sharpen our writing skills, to relieve stress or whatever the reason may be. so....why would be bring such an unsafe topic into a place like a high school?

you wanna promote awareness, cool. you know that these things happen in real life and while you do not condone the actions, you can’t do anything to stop it from happening in reality. alright. like no one is judging y’all for wanting to bring a sense of realism to your roleplays and your muses, but realize this: writing triggering topics don’t just make others uncomfortable, it makes the person writing it uncomfortable. if what i’ve heard is true and this roleplay houses minors and what have you, and you wanna make others aware or provide real life aspects for your characters, have a goddamn anti-rape assembly. provide rape prevention classes at your damn Y or something. if there is a character who would like to expand on the territory of assault, know what the fuck you’re doing. 99% of the time, TV and movies ROMANTICIZE and normalize shit that isn’t okay for ratings. like...y’all are aware of this, right? and as for the whole “uneducated” thing, if you’re in high school, you are way too damn old to not know right from wrong and know that no means no. i knew about consent long before i was even in high school. and being drunk or high or whatever you wanna use as a backstory to validate someone being a rapist? hey, you’re excusing the act. you’re sounding like an apologist. what i’m seeing is y’all hooting and hollering and going “THIS HAPPENS IN REAL LIFE SO WHO CARES? SUCH AND SUCH DIDN’T KNOW IT WAS RAPE BECAUSE HE WAS DRUNK, AND PEOPLE THINK THAT WAY IN REALITY SO WHY Y’ALL MAD?!?!?!” and you know how that sounds? ignorant as hell. just like this whole debate.

all i gotta say is...if you wish to use sexual assault as a secret for your muse, whether they are the victim or the perpetrator, do some goddamn research. i don’t get why anyone would WANT to write themselves as a rapist no matter the situation, but i’m in no position to judge i guess. writing the topic of rape is heavy, and it seems like most of y’all are failing to understand this because y’all aren’t getting past the fact that even though it is a real life problem, y’all writing out rape isn’t making it go away. especially not in high school, i mean tf?

and one more thing, y’all. stop acting like rph’s don’t do shit for you as soon as they disagree with your opinion. stop talking down on people who actually do shit with their lives outside of roleplay, but still find the fucking time to reblog the things that people may need and accept requests when asked. you generation of urban rpers sound childish and ungrateful as hell when you pull that, because when you want your damn theme makeovers and icons and gif icons, who will provide it to you when all you guys do is talk shit about them and discredit their work? uh, none, that’s who.