I don't really want to be the queen.

Sometimes I suspect we are all horrible people. Or at least, we are human people. Same thing. We are impatient, judgmental, irritating and irritated, grumpy, easily offended and the rest of it.

So how to be kinder if it doesn’t come naturally? 

Fake it. 

Fake it a little bit at a time. 

Because there isn’t actually any difference between doing something nice for someone because you are naturally saintly and perfect, and doing something nice for someone because you are secretly demonic and trying to cover it up. It’s still an act of kindness either way, and you still made their lives better.

Smile at people. Say hullo. Ask about their lives. Remember what they’ve told you about their lives. Do small things to try and help them. (They will not know you are horrible, do not worry. They will just perceive that you are helping.)

Give people the benefit of the doubt. Remember that it’s more often stupidity to blame than evil, that everyone can screw up (including you) and what’s important is learning from that.

Think “What would an actually kind person do now?” – and do that. Don’t beat yourself up when you fail. Just be as kind to yourself as you will be to others – even if you have to fake that.

Black lives still matter. 

Capitalism still kills. 

The earth is still on fire. 

LGBTQ+ rights are still at stake. 

Islamphobia and Antisemitism still exist. 

"i know your pizza order" "you have freckles on your ears" "you make this face when you're tired" "you order green tea on a good day black on a bad day" "you always make that face before you try something" "the tips of your ears turn red when you're angry" "i knew you'd say something" "you must be exhausted to miss the class" "your favorite pie is pumpkin, right?" "i know your phone number, don't worry" "you miss me, i can tell" "you fiddle with your pens when you're bored" "you don't like converse unless they're high tops" "your favorite cereal is cinnamon toast crunch and you first ate it when you were 8"

If you actually have a heart and a soul, you won’t scroll past this video.

*sigh*

Betsy DeVos, someone that our Cheeto in chief just elected as the head of education basically, pretty much just stated that when schools open this fall, that an estimated 0.02% of children will die from COVID 19. I’m not sure if that’s just children or just people total in the school system, but bear with me.

That is 14,000 kids that could die from COVID 19. Even just one child is too many. Trump has also threatened that if schools are not opened by November all their funding will be cut. Teachers also have to write death letters to send to parents for when a child has died due to COVID 19.