Never ending existential crisis

take the sadness out of saturday night is like. i am living in the shadow of my mother’s grief. i need to get out of my hometown. i want to fall in love. grief has cut me off from the good parts of the world for too long. the world is on fucking fire. i want to run. come home with me. my hometown looks beautiful with you in the passenger seat. i want to feel everything there is to feel. who will i be if i set down the grief that has shaped me? so many things are bad but this band is playing like it’s their last night on earth. i want to be so big that no one could ever miss me. the only person i ever want to look at me is you. this pain has overstayed its welcome. i loved your shadow and you ran. you’re still running. you’re a stranger i know best. i’m still on your side. i can’t believe i thought loving someone else’s shadow would be enough to save me from my own. this faith can’t fill the canyon grief carved in me, but it doesn’t run as deep anymore. i have so much hope. i don’t feel like i earned any of it. what do i do with it? i am going to hold on.

tumblr is such a bizarre kind of social interaction. like. the rules are so different here. I once unfollowed someone because they said prime numbers were ugly and that was simply the last straw for me. imagine hanging out with a friend and getting up from the table and never talking to them again because they told you they hated prime numbers. that’s what I did.

the fact that i can watch cmbyn…whenever i want…..wherever i want….as many times as i want….and no one can stop me…..blessed

i do think that unnecessarily bolding and CAPITALIZING and italicizing words is hilarious BUT furthermore i’ve found that with my ADHD it makes it easier to read large blocks of text for whatever reason. it feels like giving my brain something to hold onto, as opposed to those slippery unenhanced blocks of text that i just get lost in.

You seem to find it easier to read BLOCKS OF TEXT which are EMPHASIZED in KEY LOCATIONS. This habit likely stems from an UNKNOWN ELEMENT of your PAST, of which you have VAGUE MEMORIES.

hi please do not say that thanks 

I’m going to make a new font called Times New Bastard

It’s Times New Roman but every seventh letter is jarringly sans serif

With one line you activated every bone in my body and all of them are in attack mode

Memes are now meant to reach an audience of 3 people max

person with naturally good skin:in the morning i wash with peepee. at night i use poopoo and glossier milky jelly. simple is best :)

I will never forget this post until the day I die