somewhere, far away

It’s spring, supposedly the time for good vibes and walks, right? Yeah, no… my mental health won’t let me relax.

In about a month, there’s going to be a performance — that comedy I wrote about last time. The more I think about how absurd the whole thing is, the funnier it gets. At least it’s funny, I guess.

I tried applying to volunteer at Fashion Week in my city, but sadly, I didn’t get selected. Feels bad. I really wanted to try myself in fashion industry. I just really want to find myself already…

And even though I’m only 18, I still feel like I’m missing out on so many opportunities. I feel worthless, like I can’t achieve anything. It makes me so sad. But I’m genuinely ready and willing to prove myself, at least in something… I just want to be noticed… please give me a chance…

I PLAYED. I JUST HAD MY STAGE DEBUT, I'm crying from happines. "Hail, Queen!" is a theatrical production dedicated to Elizabeth I of England, exploring complex issues of power, personal life, and femininity on the throne. The play reveals the dramatic story of the struggles and decision-making of a prominent historical figurehere are some moments.

Here are Mary of Scotts and her husband Lord Darnley.

Here is me as Rizzo. I really liked to play this character, still sad for his fate(

Our great Elithabet I

And my mini vlog of the day. you can also find my some interesting, maybe, videos😝 https://www.tiktok.com/@yuiiidoll?_r=1&_t=ZS-94AKclezTco

and other freaking think, I don't have a freaking electricity. and MY speciality is IT... I don't have any wifi and intrnet, and damn, I don't even have phone service in the dorm… I am definitely won't survive...

As a creative person, it’s really hard for me to accept that my dreams might just stay dreams, because that’s how the world is. In my country, unfortunately, it’s almost unreal, creative part don’t really develop, and you’re forced to adapt to reality.