I’m awesome. fuck everyone who tries to tell me differently.

god. never-fucking-mind. i am done chasing. i’m never gonna chase anything ever again.

i don’t want this anymore. life is too fucking hard.

i'm so angry all the time

getting self-destructive again. it's good, but it's not good.

whatever, you're not even trying anymore

why are you being such a fucking dick. stop thinking about only yourself.

i hate everybody

yea your life is really fucking hard. fuck you.

nights are worse than days. the thoughts get dark and cloudy. i can only think negative things and i can't calm myself down. so i'm stuck in a bedroom in a house with 5 roommates that all want to sleep when all i want to do is smoke 10 cigarettes and just be outside. but i don't want to get dressed and go outside the house. so i'm stuck, because i care too much about not being a burden to my roommates. so i'll be watching 6 episodes of mad men and hope i'll fall asleep. forever.