Your Modern Ghost

Eyes shut and open, fluttering

Seconds tick by on rickety clocks

Strung on string so high, you anticipate the fall

Remember once.

You lived that.

You learned that.

You know.

Know this place.

You've been here before.

Remembering.

The way you looked.

The way you felt.

Inside or out.

Outside or in.

Remember once.

Rocks thrown in a pond hit fish on the head

The fish dies

But the wife rejoices

He's beaten her for years

Fish fin slaps to her eyes and gills

Her guilt for spawning children into the water

that look like him, wiggle like him, swim like him

She swims to the top

Flash light shine streaks under a bed and in the closet

Absence of eyes

Eyes watching feelings, and feelings watching eyes.

Headstones with souls lifted up into clouds.

How many paid the price of knowing a thing?

The body walks and talks, fifteen years too old, with eyes that witnessed too much.

The world couldn't handle it.

Your watching, your listening,

created cracks in the mirror.

Hints of reverence and calm seep through,

I tucked my soul away into a box

A gray box with gray walls and gray smiles

I handed it papers and said do your work

My soul looked at me

Intuition said lets run away

But i stared at it

The starring lasted so long

I forgot what we were doing

And when i looked back the box had rainbows and sunshines

Or to the gold?

Fingers tips touch gold

Only to have it crumble in the hands

The folds of your skin

Longing existed once

Its gone now

Gone with all the gold

Only the fool remains

And i, me, the fool

Thinking pain saw pain, and gain saw gain

But in the end

All that remains

Shrink down

Was it the blue or red pill again

Or big potion or little

Squeeze yourself until matter oozes from tightened box corners

Until nails pierce flesh and the blood runs

So small

I cant even see you

So small

I cant even be you

So small you cant even be you

Confusion onto who you even are

Personality traits patchworked to coping skills

Erase the chalk from the board

Erasing erasing erasing

Boards crack and cries whail

And pain hurts

So you sit and stare up with pleading eyes to the ones that love you

The care takers

The soothers

The mothers

The fathers

Brothers and daughters

One drop please can you spare some more?

A bit of approval somewhere

An offer smacked off the table so fast its almost like it was never there

Like you were never there

I will leave this place one day...

The accomodator

Commodore

Commander

Stands tall at attention

At the alter

At the ledge

At the sky

Medals shine

But for the accomodator?

Shrunken spines

Broken backs

Pleaded words

People pleaser becomes to please her

To please they

Words tumble like rocks

Roll off the tongue

I need this I say

Dismiss dismiss

Thrown a Ms's to the wind

I'm sorry but.......

Poison drops on my tongue

From his words

This conversation isn't productive I say

Dismiss

Dismissssssss

Missssssssssss

Misssssinnnggggg apologies

Misssinggggggggggg

Me missing this missing us

Miss becomes mourn as the tears fall

Mirrors do cartwheels until faces twirl and melt

The words

Unsolicited

Fall from many mouths, tongues wagging, teeth crunching

Do this

Do not (insert fear here, projectors onto you onto them)

Works spoken to you

Not for you

Not by you

Who are you?

I wanted you to slap my hand

Slap my hand away from that cookie jar

Tell me to stop

Tell me I shouldn't

But no one did

So i ate 1 cookie, and another

I am floating on clouds

And falling with raindrops

No fear, just stillness

I know the clouds will not catch me

And the ground too, may not

But this is okay