가는 말이 고와야 오는 말이 곱다

It’s been over 30 hours without you and I still can’t stop these tears. Truly one of the worst days of my life.

I have so much of you in my heart, how could I ever forget you 💔 I love and miss you my best buddy. I feel so heartbroken. It’s just waves of pain, then strength to hide it, then a new wave to reduce you back again. I was 20, I couldn’t even have a drink yet when you first came into our lives. Not shy at all, you were so sassy and loved your collar and doggie sweaters, not like a beagle what-so-ever haha. What kind of dog likes wearing a collar and doggie sweater?!

I wish I could have been there for you, I’m so sorry you suffered and it pains me so much to of had to see it, but I’m so happy you are in peace now and that your last moments were with us around the ones who loved you so much. We can never forget you my little buddy. I was with you in your last hour but not in the very last 5 minutes. You were with mom and dad, and I know you were probably looking for me to say goodbye when they told me you were taking your last bit of energy to search around before you collapsed. I ran as fast as I could when I heard, and I pray you got to hear my voice right before you passed: I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.

I pray you got to hear my voice so you know I didn’t leave you at all and I was still close by.

I miss you so much my little buddy 💔

It feels very empty knowing you aren’t there anymore. I wish I could take a photo and relive it. Having you happily enjoy the sun and watch the humming bird fly past us again.

I feel so very broken hearted, but I understand you couldn’t fight any longer. I’m glad you no longer are suffering and I know it would be selfish of me to want you to stay, you held on as long as you could and I and so grateful we got to say goodbye to you.