Hey. This is a sideblog that I pretty much use as my main account at this point.
I'm Casper, a dude from somewhere vaguely in western America. I'm an artist/writer, and I occasionally dip my toes into the world of animation when I feel masochistic.
I currently donāt take drawing requests, but feel free to make āem anyway- thereās always a chance something will strike inspiration, yāknow? Also feel free to just talk/interact, I'm pretty much always down for talking lol
Some books + movies I like:
-The Stand
-The Outsiders
-After Hours
-ā¦and a lot more. Also just 80s movies in general honestly
-The Clash, The Pixies, Velvet Underground, The Magnetic Fields, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Tom Waitsā¦.really any older punk/classic rock music
Art boundaries:
-Folks can use if for profile pics if they credit me and tell me first
-Yāall can trace it for the sake of learning/practice so long as you donāt post it, yk?
-Ask me if youāre gonna put it in a fanfic! Iāll probably say yes, but definitely ask me first
Tags under the cut (for easier navigation lol)
Drawings & paintings Iāve done-> my art
Writing-> my writing
The Outsiders x Top Gun AU-> steve & mav half bros au
Outsiders x Tex x That Was Then, This is Now AU-> Dally Mark & Tex au
Long bits of text thatāre mainly personal thoughts but often have something to do w/ fandom-> rambling
Drawings of my personal life/experiences-> self portrait
Talking about my own art/tools/processes, and/or tutorials-> how i draw
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I know this is a niche thing BUT I really do love your take on the outsiders! A lot of your takes of each of them line up with how I view them. Even the girls! Which Iām gonna be honest: is a little rare!
Usually people donāt understand the greaser girls as well as the greaser boys. Which is why I REALLY love your account (speaking as a fellow girl)
All of this to say: I think youād be a perfect person to make an outsiders character quiz if you ever got bored due to how good your takes are!
oh man itās really funny that you say that b/c I actually just made a uquiz account like a week ago purely in order to make this:
itās not done yet, but yk, maybe it will be sometime? Idk Iāve never made a quiz before Iām not 100% sure what Iām doing lol
Whatās also funny tho is that I am. Very much not a fellow girl š Iām thrilled girls like how Iāve written girls though, thatās encouraging!
my brain has been stuck on analyzing the lost boys all day and y'know what I'm not afraid to say it. I think looking at this film and thinking the frog brothers are the real villains is just as surface level as thinking the lost boys are complete irredeemable monsters. like dead serious. to understand the lost boys are at the end of the day teenagers in an awful situation, you have to understand that it's the same with the frog brothers.
the frogs' hatred of vampirism isn't the only thing that puts them against the lost boys. there's actually so so so many things that puts them against each other that shouldn't be just dismissed as "these guys ARE the REAL monsters!" like I bet u think that reading is real deep but it's not.
hmmmm I wonder if there's some SYMBOLISM here to the fact that one side are older teenagers who literally CAN'T grow up while on the OTHER side are younger teenagers who have to FORCE themselves to GROW UP. I think there might be SOMETHING to look into HOW the younger teenagers WORKING A COMIC SHOP BY THEMSELVES harbor hatred towards the older teenagers PARTYING and being able to have IMMATURE FUN every night on the SAME BOARDWALK. maybe the ABSENCE of PARENTAL FIGURES in all these lives but on one end their parents are DRUG ABUSING HIPPIES and on the other end their father figure IS A SOBER CONSERVATIVE MAN says SOMETHING about HOW every parent is CAPABLE of being an ABUSER no matter their BACKGROUND. it's really INTERESTING how many LITERARY REFERENCES are used in this film such as the VAMPIRES being named THE LOST BOYS as a direct reference to PETER PAN while the VAMPIRE HUNTERS are literally named after EDGAR ALLEN POE.
Thinking about Nadine x Lloyd. Not that popular cause itās kind of insane but also because it requires a lot of finagling of the timeline to even be possible, but itās kind of genius. Who else could possibly understand what the other is going through? Their lives and personalities were so vastly different before Captain Trips, but theyāve ended up helplessly and irreparably bound to the same awful thing. They have this really interesting opposites attract principle. A dogged rule follower and a serial murderer. A school teacher and a guy who dropped out of the sixth grade, who writes in āscrawling, grammar school scriptā. But they both love kids. And struggle with having their minds irreparably changed by Flagg. They both have this undercurrent of regret and guilt and the desire to change that is trumped by the idea that they are in too deep, and that Flagg is now their only option. Every work Iāve seen this done in has been so tragic and haunting and well done. I love fan works that bring me pain ā¤ļøā¤ļø
My recs because Iām always trying to create Lloydine converts:
My absolutely favorite is Going Down, Down, Down by Fantastic Pants. The tags make this one sound like itās just smut but there is a lot more to it I promise. Itās a very genuine and tragic love story. The ending of this one is insane.
Come on Pilgrim, You Know He Loves You (by our friend @your-unfriendlyghost on tumblr) is SO awesome. The nature of Lloyd and Nadineās relationship is a little complicated in this one, but it really focuses on the parallels between them. Really good for Nadine fans, as it handles the intricacies of her character in a skilled and nuanced way. U should read this!!!!
How I Love To Love Nadine by Edonohana is technically not a ship, but still delves into their would-be relationship in an interesting way. The way they write Nadineās dynamic with Flagg here is also simultaneously unique and accurate. Itās short but a really good one.
Honestly Lloydine is so fuckin good. Theyāre such different people, but being subjected to Flagg made them very similar, yāknow? Like Lloyd grew more empathetic and thoughtful while arguably Nadine did the opposite, which makes them kinda aligned with each other morally by the end in a weird way? They sorta met in the middle.
In the rest of my outline for Come on Pilgrim, Lloyd and Nadine do escape, but I havenāt fully written it. It just felt like a happier ending than that version of them could ever achieve I fear š but hey maybe someday lolā¦
I always feel so self indulgent when I write them/draw them because they check off like all my ship boxes (which is hard to do!) But idk, if folks are in any capacity craving Lloydine, maybe I will finish my drawings of them lolāI love them so much
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Every part of Vegas feels like it's pulled out of fiction and is Incredibly off-putting. It's a major city in the middle of one of the world's most inhospitable deserts
Its famous for recreating other world landmarks on a small scale. It uses this as a trap to bait people into making life ruining decisions. It's motto is essentially "never speak of what happened here". Fucked up
guys this is so dumb I canāt lie š Also I havenāt thought through all the characters yet or really brought in the whole Captain Trips thing, so by all means, please chime in with more ideas if you have any! This au is deeply unserious, please have fun with it!
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-So itās Camp Boulder vs Camp Vegas
-Boulderās like locally owned, funded by residents, a beloved place for many people. Small operation, but staff is hardworking and campers love it
-Vegas is owned by a big corporation. (Cough North Central Positronics if youāre a Dark Tower fan lol cough) Flagg, who works there, is so hyped to have ācreative control over this project,ā which is to say he wants to make the worst camp ever and also kick out the Boulder camp so they can take Camp Boulderās land (it has a slightly nicer lake)
Lloyd & Flagg:
-Lloyd is a criminal drifter who accidentally hits and kills his buddy Poke on Camp Vegas land. While trying to hide the body, he gets trapped in a cave where he starves for days. As heās understandably freaking out over this situation, Flagg shows up, sets him free, and hides the body. This is his leverage for getting Lloyd to work there. If Lloyd slips up, Flagg will very easily reveal that heās guilty of murder.Ā
-So out of fear and also gratitude for saving his life, Lloyd allows Flagg to get away with some really awful shit (Flagg needed an employee that would allow this)
-It seriously disturbs him but heās convinced himself that if he quits Flagg will take it out on the kidsāas if Lloyd hasnāt been completely complacent with all the bad things Flagg is already doing to the kids
-Like Flagg has them physically fight, he wants to run his own little Lord of the Flies simulator or some shit this is hella fun for him
-Lloyd is a good counselor tho, the kids adore him. And he does manage to keep some semblance of order.Ā
-When Flagg is finally arrested, Lloyd goes down with him
-In the epilogue, Flagg is given a plea deal + a lighter sentence for turning Lloyd in for killing Poke. Plus his company pays his bail and heās basically allowed to walk free when all is said and done.
-Lloydās campers visit him in jail tho which is sorta nice he supposes
-Idk man Iād love for Lloyd to have a happy ending but it just doesnāt seem true to his character to give him one š
Larry:
-After getting one of his songs in the top 40, and also breaking up really badly with a girlfriend, Larry impulsively quit his job in LA and signed up to be the music counselor at some random summer camp where people will finally leave him alone
-Itās a point of contention that heās too selfish and impatient to work with others so heās all like āfuck you watch me become a bunch of kidsā favorite counselor eat my damn shortsā
-And then he gets there and hates it until the kids start to grow on him. By the end, he cares more about directing the kidsā band than he does about his own musical career, and is sorta shocked when he remembers that heās actually lowkey famous outside of this camp in the middle of nowhere
-Lucyās a nice, girl next door type counselor who he initially dismisses, but then discovers sheās actually really fun to work with and eventually grows pretty smittenĀ
Franny:Ā
-Working here to hide from her ex Jesse and also her mother
-Used to go to a different camp every summer, so itās very nostalgic and allows her to imagine some normalcy while sheās dealing with being pregnant and single and all.
-Harold is her friendās kid brother who signed up as a junior counselor just because he heard she was. He follows her around a lot, making her pretty goddamn uncomfortable
-She hides from Harold in the camp wood shop where Stu works, and they hang out
-She also becomes pretty close to Lucy and Larry. She refuses to believe Larry is The Famous Larry Underwood though, which is mostly just to ragebait him
Nick:
-Started out as an on-site odd jobs/handyman type, sorta accidentally right-place-right-timed his way into being a head counselor and is generally not sure how he got here, much like how he was deputized so fast in the bookĀ
-Heās awesome at it though. Heās great at connecting with people, which is ironic considering his condition, but true.
-Heās also one of the ones more initially riled up by Flagg and Camp Vegas. Everyone else is like āYo thatās not a big deal man they canāt actually get rid of us. Chillax.ā And then Flagg gets Harold and Nadine to damage camp property and Nick ends up with a broken arm and is extremely vindicatedĀ
-He fills a whole notebook with āI TOLD YOU SOā printed in all caps
-Nick also gets Tom Cullen a job at camp
Nadine:
-Worked at Camp Boulder for a long time before her boyfriend convinced her to work at his place insteadĀ
-Flagg manipulates her a lot and is generally The Worst. He fucks things up in the system so that it seems like everyone in Boulder hates Nadine when they very much donātālike setting it up so she works alone, sheās always doing jobs no one else wants, it just generally seems on her end like sheās being majorly excludedĀ
-Nadine tries to tell Larry about all the confusing stuff thatās happening to her, but he tells her he canāt handle it + she rejected him recently so she canāt just play around like thatĀ
-So feeling isolated and confused, Nadine agrees to help Harold ruin everyone elseās funĀ
-Once sheās in Camp Vegas, sheās technically co-director, but this is just a title. Mostly Flagg just has her hang out and do nothing, maybe read books to the kids. As she realizes how awful he is, she tries to resign, but Flagg wonāt let her. She ends up unearthing the murder problem, which she uses as leverage to force him to finally give in and fire her
-Lloyd actually got along with her really well until finding out that she did that, and in feeling betrayed by her, heās drawn closer to Flagg
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Anyway thatās all Iāve got for nowāIād have to reread the book again to come up with more detailed ideas, but as it is, this au is so open and if you have an idea just add it!! Thereās definitely parts of the book Iāve overlooked here that Iād love to touch on, like Dayna, Trashcan Man, plenty of other main characters, and more.
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After many years of writing without any semblance of talent. I mean, not even strictly just writing, but telling stories, making things up n the margins of notebooks, playing weirdly intense games with action figures, imagining things. I donāt know, Iām just wired to make things up. So I did, and after a while, it started to become stuff actually somewhat worth reading, yāknow?
I guess I didnāt realize I was any good at it though until these past couple years. I consistently write things that I think are pretty okay, and the folks that read em like em fine. Talent isnāt really a factor as much as stubbornness is, I think. Anyone can write a story. Itās just a matter of getting your brain to connect to your hands and putting words on paper, and being curious about people.
@soggyspongās tags under a post about Lloyd Henreid being a good camp counselorāI had to draw em oml
I love that that implies when Lloyd sleeps with Dayna he's under the impression that she's the guardian of one of the children he works with and goes for it anyway š
ā¬ļøhe spends the rest of the day wondering about each child are you the one with the hot mom?? and then being disturbed by the thought lol
ā¬ļøNo because heās so good w/ kids! He was proud of the educations they were able to give kids in Vegas even though he was a sixth grade dropoutā¦ If he were a bit more polished and all, heād make a great camp counselor and it hurts so bad š if only someone better than Flagg or Poke had taken him under their wing at some point
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One very interesting thing about Lloyd Henreidās story is that it leads the reader to consider that you donāt have to be inherently evil to be a bad person. Lloydās only paranormally induced change over the course of the story is his intelligence.
His issue, the reason he spends his life doing such horrible things, robbery and rape and murder, is that he is miserably stupid. He does not get particular pleasure out of doing these things just because they hurt other people, unlike Poke, who does and is set up to be his foil. Lloyd participates in these activities willingly because it seems not to have occurred to him that other people are people. What pre-Vegas Lloyd lacks is empathy. He does what he feels like or what the people with him tell him to, and doesnāt really think of how other people may be affected. āMurder was,ā as King says, āa trifle beyond their intellectual reachā. Take the Gorgeous George anecdote.
When Poke and Lloyd kill Gorgeous George, (what, you donāt remember GG? Donāt worry, I have enough tabs in my copy of the Complete and Uncut for the both of us) Lloyd feels slightly uncomfortable watching him suffocate. He seems to have a murky feeling that something here is wrong. But George flops around in a sort of funny way as he dies, and Lloyd chuckles, feeling āa bit cheered upā. He doesnāt seem to have the capacity to grasp the weight of his crimes.
This is why, when Flagg makes him smarter, he seems to the reader to become a better person. The text intentionally serves us a number of details that paint him in a different light. He is good with kids. He looks the other way to let his friends flee. He hates his job, but covers for people and helps them out when he can (āThatās what Iām here forā). He is visibly filled with guilt and horror at each crucifixion, and even makes clear efforts to restore his attitude to what it once was:
āJust tell yourself you donāt know him,ā Lloyd said, ā[ā¦] thatās what I always do. It makes it easier.ā
He attempts to cope with his guilt and fear by detaching himself from his victims and their feelings. It is a direct parallel to the Gorgeous George scene.
Itās also a sign that the change here is not that he has simply become a better person, but a smarter one. With intelligence comes empathy, and understanding the world as something other that what revolves around yourself. As a result, he cares about other people now.
This comes too late, of course. Flagg is making him smarter so he can run his empire, not take care of people. Itās clicked for him that all of this behavior is bad, but heās in no position to stop doing it anymore.
Lloyd was not inherently malicious. The thing that made pre-Captain Trips Lloyd such a bad person, it seems, was that he was too dumb to consider that he could try being a good one.
