Hey. This is a sideblog that I pretty much use as my main account at this point.
I'm Casper, a dude from somewhere vaguely in western America. I'm an artist/writer, and I occasionally dip my toes into the world of animation when I feel masochistic.
I currently donāt take drawing requests, but feel free to make āem anyway- thereās always a chance something will strike inspiration, yāknow? Also feel free to just talk/interact, I'm pretty much always down for talking lol
Some books + movies I like:
-The Stand
-The Outsiders
-After Hours
-ā¦and a lot more. Also just 80s movies in general honestly
-The Clash, The Pixies, Velvet Underground, The Magnetic Fields, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Tom Waitsā¦.really any older punk/classic rock music
Art boundaries:
-Folks can use if for profile pics if they credit me and tell me first
-Yāall can trace it for the sake of learning/practice so long as you donāt post it, yk?
-Ask me if youāre gonna put it in a fanfic! Iāll probably say yes, but definitely ask me first
Tags under the cut (for easier navigation lol)
Drawings & paintings Iāve done-> my art
Writing-> my writing
The Outsiders x Top Gun AU-> steve & mav half bros au
Outsiders x Tex x That Was Then, This is Now AU-> Dally Mark & Tex au
Long bits of text thatāre mainly personal thoughts but often have something to do w/ fandom-> rambling
Drawings of my personal life/experiences-> self portrait
Talking about my own art/tools/processes, and/or tutorials-> how i draw
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Every part of Vegas feels like it's pulled out of fiction and is Incredibly off-putting. It's a major city in the middle of one of the world's most inhospitable deserts
Its famous for recreating other world landmarks on a small scale. It uses this as a trap to bait people into making life ruining decisions. It's motto is essentially "never speak of what happened here". Fucked up
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guys this is so dumb I canāt lie š Also I havenāt thought through all the characters yet or really brought in the whole Captain Trips thing, so by all means, please chime in with more ideas if you have any! This au is deeply unserious, please have fun with it!
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-So itās Camp Boulder vs Camp Vegas
-Boulderās like locally owned, funded by residents, a beloved place for many people. Small operation, but staff is hardworking and campers love it
-Vegas is owned by a big corporation. (Cough North Central Positronics if youāre a Dark Tower fan lol cough) Flagg, who works there, is so hyped to have ācreative control over this project,ā which is to say he wants to make the worst camp ever and also kick out the Boulder camp so they can take Camp Boulderās land (it has a slightly nicer lake)
Lloyd & Flagg:
-Lloyd is a criminal drifter who accidentally hits and kills his buddy Poke on Camp Vegas land. While trying to hide the body, he gets trapped in a cave where he starves for days. As heās understandably freaking out over this situation, Flagg shows up, sets him free, and hides the body. This is his leverage for getting Lloyd to work there. If Lloyd slips up, Flagg will very easily reveal that heās guilty of murder.Ā
-So out of fear and also gratitude for saving his life, Lloyd allows Flagg to get away with some really awful shit (Flagg needed an employee that would allow this)
-It seriously disturbs him but heās convinced himself that if he quits Flagg will take it out on the kidsāas if Lloyd hasnāt been completely complacent with all the bad things Flagg is already doing to the kids
-Like Flagg has them physically fight, he wants to run his own little Lord of the Flies simulator or some shit this is hella fun for him
-Lloyd is a good counselor tho, the kids adore him. And he does manage to keep some semblance of order.Ā
-When Flagg is finally arrested, Lloyd goes down with him
-In the epilogue, Flagg is given a plea deal + a lighter sentence for turning Lloyd in for killing Poke. Plus his company pays his bail and heās basically allowed to walk free when all is said and done.
-Lloydās campers visit him in jail tho which is sorta nice he supposes
-Idk man Iād love for Lloyd to have a happy ending but it just doesnāt seem true to his character to give him one š
Larry:
-After getting one of his songs in the top 40, and also breaking up really badly with a girlfriend, Larry impulsively quit his job in LA and signed up to be the music counselor at some random summer camp where people will finally leave him alone
-Itās a point of contention that heās too selfish and impatient to work with others so heās all like āfuck you watch me become a bunch of kidsā favorite counselor eat my damn shortsā
-And then he gets there and hates it until the kids start to grow on him. By the end, he cares more about directing the kidsā band than he does about his own musical career, and is sorta shocked when he remembers that heās actually lowkey famous outside of this camp in the middle of nowhere
-Lucyās a nice, girl next door type counselor who he initially dismisses, but then discovers sheās actually really fun to work with and eventually grows pretty smittenĀ
Franny:Ā
-Working here to hide from her ex Jesse and also her mother
-Used to go to a different camp every summer, so itās very nostalgic and allows her to imagine some normalcy while sheās dealing with being pregnant and single and all.
-Harold is her friendās kid brother who signed up as a junior counselor just because he heard she was. He follows her around a lot, making her pretty goddamn uncomfortable
-She hides from Harold in the camp wood shop where Stu works, and they hang out
-She also becomes pretty close to Lucy and Larry. She refuses to believe Larry is The Famous Larry Underwood though, which is mostly just to ragebait him
Nick:
-Started out as an on-site odd jobs/handyman type, sorta accidentally right-place-right-timed his way into being a head counselor and is generally not sure how he got here, much like how he was deputized so fast in the bookĀ
-Heās awesome at it though. Heās great at connecting with people, which is ironic considering his condition, but true.
-Heās also one of the ones more initially riled up by Flagg and Camp Vegas. Everyone else is like āYo thatās not a big deal man they canāt actually get rid of us. Chillax.ā And then Flagg gets Harold and Nadine to damage camp property and Nick ends up with a broken arm and is extremely vindicatedĀ
-He fills a whole notebook with āI TOLD YOU SOā printed in all caps
-Nick also gets Tom Cullen a job at camp
Nadine:
-Worked at Camp Boulder for a long time before her boyfriend convinced her to work at his place insteadĀ
-Flagg manipulates her a lot and is generally The Worst. He fucks things up in the system so that it seems like everyone in Boulder hates Nadine when they very much donātālike setting it up so she works alone, sheās always doing jobs no one else wants, it just generally seems on her end like sheās being majorly excludedĀ
-Nadine tries to tell Larry about all the confusing stuff thatās happening to her, but he tells her he canāt handle it + she rejected him recently so she canāt just play around like thatĀ
-So feeling isolated and confused, Nadine agrees to help Harold ruin everyone elseās funĀ
-Once sheās in Camp Vegas, sheās technically co-director, but this is just a title. Mostly Flagg just has her hang out and do nothing, maybe read books to the kids. As she realizes how awful he is, she tries to resign, but Flagg wonāt let her. She ends up unearthing the murder problem, which she uses as leverage to force him to finally give in and fire her
-Lloyd actually got along with her really well until finding out that she did that, and in feeling betrayed by her, heās drawn closer to Flagg
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Anyway thatās all Iāve got for nowāIād have to reread the book again to come up with more detailed ideas, but as it is, this au is so open and if you have an idea just add it!! Thereās definitely parts of the book Iāve overlooked here that Iād love to touch on, like Dayna, Trashcan Man, plenty of other main characters, and more.
After many years of writing without any semblance of talent. I mean, not even strictly just writing, but telling stories, making things up n the margins of notebooks, playing weirdly intense games with action figures, imagining things. I donāt know, Iām just wired to make things up. So I did, and after a while, it started to become stuff actually somewhat worth reading, yāknow?
I guess I didnāt realize I was any good at it though until these past couple years. I consistently write things that I think are pretty okay, and the folks that read em like em fine. Talent isnāt really a factor as much as stubbornness is, I think. Anyone can write a story. Itās just a matter of getting your brain to connect to your hands and putting words on paper, and being curious about people.
@soggyspongās tags under a post about Lloyd Henreid being a good camp counselorāI had to draw em oml
I love that that implies when Lloyd sleeps with Dayna he's under the impression that she's the guardian of one of the children he works with and goes for it anyway š
ā¬ļøhe spends the rest of the day wondering about each child are you the one with the hot mom?? and then being disturbed by the thought lol
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ā¬ļøNo because heās so good w/ kids! He was proud of the educations they were able to give kids in Vegas even though he was a sixth grade dropoutā¦ If he were a bit more polished and all, heād make a great camp counselor and it hurts so bad š if only someone better than Flagg or Poke had taken him under their wing at some point
One very interesting thing about Lloyd Henreidās story is that it leads the reader to consider that you donāt have to be inherently evil to be a bad person. Lloydās only paranormally induced change over the course of the story is his intelligence.
His issue, the reason he spends his life doing such horrible things, robbery and rape and murder, is that he is miserably stupid. He does not get particular pleasure out of doing these things just because they hurt other people, unlike Poke, who does and is set up to be his foil. Lloyd participates in these activities willingly because it seems not to have occurred to him that other people are people. What pre-Vegas Lloyd lacks is empathy. He does what he feels like or what the people with him tell him to, and doesnāt really think of how other people may be affected. āMurder was,ā as King says, āa trifle beyond their intellectual reachā. Take the Gorgeous George anecdote.
When Poke and Lloyd kill Gorgeous George, (what, you donāt remember GG? Donāt worry, I have enough tabs in my copy of the Complete and Uncut for the both of us) Lloyd feels slightly uncomfortable watching him suffocate. He seems to have a murky feeling that something here is wrong. But George flops around in a sort of funny way as he dies, and Lloyd chuckles, feeling āa bit cheered upā. He doesnāt seem to have the capacity to grasp the weight of his crimes.
This is why, when Flagg makes him smarter, he seems to the reader to become a better person. The text intentionally serves us a number of details that paint him in a different light. He is good with kids. He looks the other way to let his friends flee. He hates his job, but covers for people and helps them out when he can (āThatās what Iām here forā). He is visibly filled with guilt and horror at each crucifixion, and even makes clear efforts to restore his attitude to what it once was:
āJust tell yourself you donāt know him,ā Lloyd said, ā[ā¦] thatās what I always do. It makes it easier.ā
He attempts to cope with his guilt and fear by detaching himself from his victims and their feelings. It is a direct parallel to the Gorgeous George scene.
Itās also a sign that the change here is not that he has simply become a better person, but a smarter one. With intelligence comes empathy, and understanding the world as something other that what revolves around yourself. As a result, he cares about other people now.
This comes too late, of course. Flagg is making him smarter so he can run his empire, not take care of people. Itās clicked for him that all of this behavior is bad, but heās in no position to stop doing it anymore.
Lloyd was not inherently malicious. The thing that made pre-Captain Trips Lloyd such a bad person, it seems, was that he was too dumb to consider that he could try being a good one.
Iām watching that documentary āBefore Stonewallā about gay history pre-1969, and uncovered something which I think is interesting.
The documentary includes a brief clip of a 1954 televised newscast about the rise of homosexuality. The host of the program interviewed psychologists, a police officer, and one āknown homosexualā. The āknown homosexualā is 22 years old. He identifies himself as Curtis White, which is a pseudonym; his name is actually Dale Olson.
So I tracked down the newscast. According to what I can find, Dale Olson may have been the first gay man to appear openly on television and defend his sexual orientation. He explains that thereās nothing wrong with him mentally and heās never been arrested. When asked whether heād take a cure if it existed, he says no. When asked whether his family knows heās gay, he says that they didnāt up until tonight, but he guesses theyāre going to find out, and heāll probably be fired from his job as well. So of course the host is like ā¦why are you doing this interview then? and Dale Olson, cool as cucumber pie, says āI think that this way I can be a little useful to someone besides myself.ā
1954. 22 years old. Balls of pure titanium.
Despite the pseudonym, Daleās boss did indeed recognize him from the TV program, and he was promptly fired the next day. He wrote into ONE magazine six months later to reassure readers that he had gotten a new job at a higher salary.
Curious about what became of him, I looked into his life a little further. It turns out that he ultimately became a very successful publicity agent. He promoted the Rocky movies and Superman. Not only that, but get this: Dale represented Rock Hudson, and he was the person who convinced him to disclose that he had AIDS! He wrote the statement Rock read. And as we know, Rock Hudsonās disclosure had a very significant effect on the national conversation about AIDS in the U.S.
It appears that no one has made the connection between Dale Olson the publicity agent instrumental in the AIDS debate and Dale Olson the 22-year-old first openly gay man on TV. So I thought Iād make it. For Pride month, an unsung gay hero.
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