My name is The Nebula Paradox. You don't have to say the full name every time you can just say Nebula or Paradox. I would prefer you do switch it up plz. My actual name is Abel but I would only like for you to call me that if you're rly close or know me irl
Transmasc agender bxy + pangenderspace (pangenderspace means I ID with all space related xenogenders). You may use He/It/Xe + any space themed neoprounouns or space themed emojiself pronouns. I do prefer my pronouns capitalized because of alterhumanity but uncapitalized is okay.
My fandoms change every five seconds and I'm immune to consistency but I like all things horror in general. Mostly right now I like fnaf, the outsiders, and wordgirl. I also like seals a lot. However!!!! Do not my fooled. My real favorite animal is the axolotl
Who would want to be human anyway. Not this eldritch dragon god lol. I actually have a lot more theriotypes and ficitonkins other than just that but that's the main one
I'm not alone........... I am secretly just one of three cohosts of the River of Stars system actually. You were fooled. Muhahaha /j. Collectively, we go by either River or Droplet for short, and use sol/solar or faun/fauna prns collectively. We estimate somewhere around like.... a hundred members. We're almost entirely fictives be warned /sarc. My other cohosts are Necro (they/it) and Silver (she/it/ve/squeak/rot/sizzle/wither)
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Projects I have going on
Child of The Stars - An original work of fiction about Dominick Blackwood, the hybrid offspring of a human woman and one of the ancient eldritch gods
Be Gay, Do Crime - a WordGirl OC fanfiction that I have not updated in years but since I've gotten back into WordGirl I will get back to it
Breaking Pizza - A FNaF crack fic/shitpost where where to toy animatronics run a meth lab
Rapsitte Street Kids Remixed - a rewrite of the infamous so bad it's good (at least in my opinion) 2002 Christmas movie Rapsitte Street Kids: Believe in Santa
Your Son - edgy depressing horrid book of poetry
I would totally NOT love it if you guys asked me about my projects and my characters...... ohhh I would HATE that........ /sarcasm
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Some music artists I like: Creature Feature, Blitzkid, Gravediggas, Ashbury Heights, Oingo Boingo
PJ Masks: Zuri/Lioness, Scorpling and Fennec, Bloodmoon, Trixie the Moon Rabbit
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We have no DNI, but we block liberally. We are anti radqueer, anti proship, pluralpunk, pro endo and pro willo, anti zionist, anti cringe culture, and anti contact for harmful paraphilias. Transandrophobia and transmisogny are both real forms of discrimination. We believe anyone may identify themselves however they wish as long as they are not hurting anyone. Shipcourse is ridiculous and doesn't make any sense so we're not bothering with labels, just know we strongly object to the intentional romanization of pedophilic and incestuous ships and lolicon/shotacon content. Please follow your own DNI.
Do not involve us in syscourse, queer discourse, alter/nonhuman discourse, fandom discourse, or really any sort of discourse against our will. We do hold stances on these, and discoursers are welcome to interact and follow, but please do not involve us in it. Respectfully, ain't nobody in the River got time for that
We switch very quickly and very spontaneously. (Some people have accused us of faking switches in real life for this reason. I don't really get now that means faking but whatever dude)
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So the subplot ofĀ Holes is that Kate Barlow deals with the politically-sanctioned execution of her black boyfriendāwho unlawfully kissed a white woman who was in love with him!!!āby becoming a serial killer who targets racist/sexist white dudes who harassed her, were rejected, then went after her boyfriend as revenge from the depths of the āfriend zoneā.
Donāt forget the main plot was a damning satire of the brokenness and inherent racism of the American justice and prison systems! Louis Sachar does not fuck about
It always fuck me up that older people donāt understand how this story is as essential to most american children as Gone with the Wind or Mary Poppins was.
And the technical writing of Holes is perfect. Like, itās one of the most technically-perfect books ever written. Basically any plotting or pacing or characterization issue youāre having, read Holes and really study how Sachar did it. THE LIZARDS! THE LIZARDS.
its really darkly funny that so many public figures keep dying "of cardiac complications after a brief illness" like wow y'all are Never ever going to say the word COVID huh.
If your are an alterhuman who would like to do quads but cannot for reasons of chronic pain or mobility, may I suggest going to a pool or a beach, or just any body of water that is sufficiently safe and calm?
I went to the beach recently and realized that as long as I was in the shallows I could put my front paws on the ground and prance around like a dog without hurting myself. I used to this a lot as a kid but found new joy in it as an adult alterhuman.
Of course not a solution that works for everyone, but wanted to put it out there for anyone looking for solutions.
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all the rights that come with marriage you should be able to have without marriage btw. you should be able to designate a person who can visit you in the hospital regardless of your relationship to that person.
the stingrays at the touch tank just now were acting pretty cautious around the people reaching in, getting really close but staying juuuust too far for anyone to touch, and this ten year old boy in a fnaf tshirt told me, exasperated, "the stingrays are ragebaiting us!!"
I work with kids and sometimes we have to do safety lessons with them about like, not telling strangers on the internet your home address or something. And sometimes the kids wont understand why, so you have to impart upon them that, well, some adults want to hurt children. And thats kind of difficult to do, because you have to beat around the bush, both because you dont want to scare them (while still making them understand how serious it is) and because you might lose your job if you explain it too straight forward.
Luckily, for some reason, the villain of one of the most popular franchises with children for the last 10 years happens to be a serial child murderer. So when a kid asks why they shouldnt trust strangers, instead of hand wringing and humhawing my answer out, I can just say "we dont always know when a strange adult has good intentions with children, or when they are William Afton."
intellectual disability be singular diagnosis give to people who struggle with intellectual functioning & adaptive functioning (e.g living skills), rated from mild to profound. it affect everything every single aspect about person.
(UK: learning disability, not to be confused w specific learning disability or UK term learning difficulty. so far only find UK use this term difference.)
intellectual disability often comorbid with autism - different source n study say different things but many place say 30% or more autistic ppl have intellectual disability.
autism (& adhd, specific learning disability like dyslexia, down syndrome, cerebral palsy, etc) be part of wider umbrella called developmental disability (DD).
(technically, intellectual disability also a developmental disability. but because so many other developmental disability comorbid with ID, & ID affect everything single aspect of person, ppl often give it extra emphasis, abbreviating both of them as intellectual / developmental disability (I/DD))
intellectual disability experience & intellectual disability activism need center actual intellectually disabled people / people with intellectual disability. whenever autistic people without ID mistake autism as āan intellectual disability,ā it speak over people with ID. it decenter people with ID from their own word / experience / space.
people insulting & mistreating you as autistic person without ID by confuse you with or compare you to people with intellectual disability cry, are saying you ājust as badā, n not mean you affected in same way as people with intellectual disability.
things targeting people with intellectual disability target people with intellectual disability first. they be most affected.
you can (& should) advocate for group of people you not without claim to be one of them. but most of time when people do this, they not even advocating.
autistic people without ID (and people without ID in general) need stop derailing things about people with intellectual disability.
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always going to include queer muslims in my work because
1) well absolutely I'm just writing about the people around me who need more representation and have rich textured lives but also
2) so much of the wider queer community disregard Muslim dominant countries as backwards and inherently incapable of queer progress. They'd happily blame this solely on Muslims, completely ignoring non-Muslim folk in these countries are just as capable of queerphobic fear mongering and prejudice. It's much harder to acknowledge colonization set us all back while our colonizers get to reap the benefits.
bestie boo, let me fill you in on something: if you're going to take any part of 'good grammar' and randomly assign it to She's A Witch! AI, you might as well give up. It's over. You're cooked. Anyone who has spent the last decade or more learning to type properly, anyone who has spent any time writing articles/papers/essays that require you to use 'good grammar' is going to fall into that 'oh no it might be AI' trap.
Stop hunting like it's 1692. You're not going to find Goody Proctor at the ChatGPT sacrament. What you're going to do is exactly what happened back then: harming people who've done nothing wrong.
I was using a cane for a while but stopped because my physical therapist said I was too young and would only cause more damage by using it.
Now I have gotten significantly worse and can barely do anything on my own.
I feel like if I wasnāt told that, my condition wouldnāt have gotten as bad as it has.
This is ableism and neglect.
I say neglect because things like mobility aids can significantly slow down progression of symptoms. If you still have contact with that pt ask them if using a cane can cause damage then why do people with leg injuries utilize crutches? (Yes I know the aids are structured different, but the point is both take weight off a leg (or both) in order to lower pain and in the case of crutches in this context, prevent risk of further injury)
Update: Emergency Help my friend Calli family in motel due to domestic violence . Need $125 to help daughter with medical problems , its daughters birthday!
please Help them get water and meds for chronic pain ,insulin, and more. was unable to renew healthcareā vetting below
July 3 2026
Thank you so so much for all the help, we would have loved to use the funds on other basic needs but most got used up in motel rooms, meals and water. We were also able to pay rent, thanks so so much.
Yesterday our daughter showed bleeding while peeing, we're afraid the surgery she had last year might have been b[o]tched or there are new complications.
We really need to get her a specialist, the appointment is $125, already considered paypal fees+ instant transfer.
9:00Ā or 9:10Ā PMĀ CDTĀ generally time to go to bank or store before it closes due to walking (
Meds :$65 for sonās hormones, $150 for week of Calli's meds or $540 for a months worth.Ā Meds are half-off on mondays Jun 27 $20 collected 3 days ago
Help survive lack of water, replacing moldy insulin ,domestic violence, and get meds and T-shots for son! ā Vetted below.
update back from hotel (a reblog of this thead by them)
Need bottled water update back from hotel had to flee to after Father in law got dangerous (a reblog of this thead by them)
ā vetting: above Ā vouched for byĀ @/transgendzĀ who is vetted by scam-buster kyra 45 (pictures below). transcript below cut
And another campaign vouching, (ignore misgendering as English not first language)
3 ways to donate Donate by PAYPAL or KOFI or THRONE
Spanish lessons available!
dm @chingaderita to int title "offering spanish/english conversation classes, for $12 usd an hour one of us can be your conversation partner so you can practice." Most similar classes generally between $15 and $50 usd per hour
UPDATE JUNE 27TH
We've been 2 days in a motel, my father-in-law snapped again, he smashed some dishes. I got out with my kids for our safety.
We got enough for rent and other things but im regrettably using most of it to stay at the motel until my partner ends the arrangements so his dad visits his family 3 states away.
Im keeping this post up because we may need help affording transportation so we can be finally safe and back home and rent since living in a motel/hotel is more expensive than at home.
Someone got us the phones from our throne, thank you so much, i asked for a delayed delivery, hopefully things will be calmer so we can go back home.
UPDATES Jun 11
we're back home but [father in law] keeps pressing and screaming, we had to take refuge in the mold room with our kids, he kept screaming at me outside the room until way past 3am idk how safe we are with him around the worst is we have to check before going out of the room to either go eat/drink or if we need to use the restroom we also ran out of water, we can't flush the toilet or wash our hands he made my partner, his son, fall down after he pulled his cane from him, now his ankle hurts we have had no peace since we came back still unsure what we'll do we don't want to leave our home
June 10: we're still in need of help to afford breakfast, taxis and any extra support, our housing situation is still in the air things got pretty bad here idk what prompted this my partner i
May 23May 13, May 12
my last post, last emergencyĀ june 5 version of last thread before hotel, post of time in hotel Reblog at time of hotel
My artist friend Calli needs money for OVERDUE RENT Son's hrt , chronic illness medicine, taking care of family and and more (also had food trouble), and cat food and diabetic in-laws./ Spanish lessons also offered, . They have boosted many other peopleās own fundraisers in solidarity. may 23 update they usually earn $12 a day from spanish lessons
my last post on this blog, my last post on other blog while shadowbanned last emergencyĀ june 5 version of post before hotel, post of time in hotel Reblog at time of hotel
chingaderita June update
Trying to afford trans care for our trans son this pride month and bracing for the upcoming bills, plus got to get June's rent too.
š I'm so sorry
Thank you all who helped Barely make the overdue rent but now being asked for Junes rent.
Commissions
1)A friend has offered to help them raise funds to keep them afloat if you're interested in art commissions.
Friend is taking time off to finish commissions and rest
2)EDIT Update from May 3rd : dm @chingaderita to int title "offering spanish/english conversation classes, for $12 usd an hour one of us can be your conversation partner so you can practice." Most similar classes generally between $15 and $50 usd per hour
May 23 May 13, May 12
May 1, 2026, 01:52:55 PM (Friday)Ā āStill trying to afford testosterone and my meds Need help getting adult diapers, my partner hurt his back so bad he canāt stand up. No one here has the strength to lift him. Uhā¦ Might also need help taking him to the doctor.ā
Below past documentation of blog posts and background info, along with vouching transcript.
June domestic violence link
still has debilitating tooth pain. put onĀ hold due to flue emegency
June 7
Hola, just updating that we're safe still at the hotel, we overslept after managing to fall asleep around 5-6am
I made a call to my partner back home, he says it might be better if we stay here one more day or even two
Right now our kids have only eaten cookies and I need to either buy food here or get them something ready to eat since there is no kitchen in the room.
The room tonight is $110 considering paypal fees, i might just order a pizza for them I can eat the pineapple out of it
We got some donations while we were asleep, thank you
$150/$300
maybe a haircut for our girl since her grandpa managed to cut off some strands of hair in his attempt of making her a boy again fucking monster
need money to deep-clean houseĀ so safeĀ for MIL return post-surgery (mold still here)
Repairs for toilet needed
Son suffering dysphoria
Nov 23 My eldest son had one of the worst nights in his life. All I can say is we managed to keep him safe through the night, he is safe at home. He thought he could keep raw dogging his dysphoria but he clearly needs to start HRT and transitioning. He is very avoidant of asking for anything because knows we barely get the money for food and other basics. I don't want to lose my son because of money. I want him to have access to a happy life. What if I'm not there next time to stop him?"
about medicine
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"Usually I would just endure until next week to try to get my meds but every time I go without them I notice I don't last as much as before until I have to make a run to the hospital. [I remember their hospitalization, it was really scary]... I needed $125 to get them [monday] half price but every other day I need $250... We need $50 to take our eldest to the doctor for an abdominal pain after carrying grandma. $35 for the laundromat. $300 to cover food expenses for all 9 of us and the cats. $110 for my healthcare renewal. Everything else for clean supplies and other necessities....
Transcript: vouched for by transgendz
transgendz is vetted by scam-buster kyra 45
"I can vouch for CalliĀ @chingaderita! Ive known the family for several years now and theyāve consistently shown proof, was vetted by Kyra on my request when they first messaged, Iām quite sure, the search function on blogs is just awful and Iām having a hard time finding such an old post. But I talk to Calli often, weāve had conversations in English and Spanish, and everything they say tracks with the proof provided. I just thought Iād say something bc I know youāve been helping them too. Thank you for all you do.
About Calli
Calli, is a nonbinary parent dealing with chronic illness, chronic pain, unemployment and severe depression taking care of children, in-laws, and rescue cats . Calli is a kind person constantly boosting other peopleās campaigns despite their families situation and limited time at compute cafes Calli in posts has discussed: has tumors, problems with gallbladder and liver, chronic joint pain. And a horrible pain in jaw that
We really need meds soon, has not been able to afford them in weeks, and we donāt want another hospitalization
āMyĀ gallbladder and liver need constant medication to not get further fucked up, I have a bunch of untreated tumor/growthsĀ I hope my healthcare will deal with at some point, IĀ have chronic pain which affects my hips, back and left leg and sometimes my leg dislocates at random,Ā just this August Iāve had two periods in less than 28 days, this is a common occurrence almost every month, and Iāve beenĀ dealing with teeth pain so intense it causes headaches, hurts my jaw, neck and now I have pain inside my right ear I suspect itās related to my teeth pain.ā
Summary of problemsĀ overall
dec29 It's late, I'm exhausted, haven't had a good night sleep in ages. We have a bunch of chronic panic, chronic illnesses, the most able bodied at home is probably me even tho my left leg dislocates at random, my left leg has jolts of pain at random too and my gallbladder and liver are actively trying to kill me. Oh, did I forget to mention the tumor and the many growths on my legs? Or the tooth pain I still have, I need that molar removed or im going to do it myself. Just, help us get a bed, the one we got is too moldy I'm tired of having to cover it with plastic so we can take turns to sleep on it at floor level. Also, urgently need funds to get my son the his next appointment at the trans clinic see if we can get him HRT or we'll have to get him DIY. We need to get more adult diapers too considering all the mobility issues our elderly are going through. If I dare to ask also for $10 so I can get nuggets and a treat for our son, he turned 9yo 2 days ago and he just wanted some nuggets please.
*They have been helping boost many campaigns, gaza and otherwise (and have asked me to boost these three while their internet is unreliable):
(1) AHMEDāS [campaign] IS VERY FORGOTTEN, PLEASE, KEEP SHARING!!! āĀ @/chingaderitaĀ on TumblrĀ 2)Donate to Trapped Family in Gaza Appeals for Help to Survive, organized by Abdallah Alanqar
Ā (3)Ā HaniĀ ā¬5,688/ā¬25,000 āĀ @/chingaderitaĀ on Tumblr
āWe really REALLY need help with theĀ court fees and paperworkĀ [get done before aAugust.],Ā we just want to ensure our kids will be safe from my family in case I die, due to my deteriorating health.ā
now Personal health problems
Sep 7 tooth pain,Ā Couldnāt rest with this damn tooth pain pain pain soainIsbsk,ndl .zlz
Maybe I should have added this to the main body of the post but Iām on my second period in less than 30 days, cause my liver and gallbladder trying to kill me isnāt enough I have many tumors growing in different parts of my body.
Latest postĀ aug 24
Thank you I did pay my healthcare!!! I was hoping with the extra I could get my meds but we ended up using it for food and taking my MiL to the hospital because of gastrointestinal pain, she had to stay under supervision for a whole night and is scheduled for more tests on Tuesday. Weāre pushing her healthcare services to schedule her for a gastroenterologist as soon as possible, she has been unable to eat which has been a terrible combination with her diabetes. Can we ask for help affording her ensure bottles so she can at least eat that? Weāll need to do something about the humidity and mold soon, we get trapped in the rooms often, last night it took us over an hour to be able to reopen a door even with both my partner and me pushing. We need to get adult diapers btw.Ā Please, anything helps!!!!
You know, itās real nice that we got help to pay the vet bills andĀ helpĀ my kid keep his cat safe and healthy but wow. It is obvious we do not matter at all. The moment our cat needed help we got the goals, both times But Iāve been trying to get my meds for weeks or months at a time and nothing. Itās real hard not to fucking cry
I know itās hard for everyone but please, keep sharing, anything ANYTHING helps. Weāve been getting a bit of food and paying little by little what we owe at the corner store but the upcoming card payment is $190 and my meds are $130 and then letās not forget my healthcare renewal. I also bring bad news, weāre starting with water shortages just like last year, weāve gone from having 4 days of water a week to 1-2 if weāre lucky.Ā Our only toilet is busted and there are 9 people here who use it. My kid still needs attention for a UTI heās had for a couple of months now. And my partner has 3 ingrown nails and 2 big cuts on his feet heās kept unattended for weeks. Iād hate to up the goal but we need every help we can get!!
more documentation from 2023.
Went back on my blog to findĀ proof of the fireĀ where my in-laws lost everything,Ā this other one with picturesĀ and proof that Iāve been sick and struggling to get my medication sinceĀ August 2023. Just felt like having things organized and maybe make another blog to keep all proof I can save since we lost a lot of information and pictures/videos when we sold our phones and lost the computer.
June 16 update
Can't possibly help carrying water today cause im in incredible pain and we haven't got any money except for a class I gave yesterday I would love to get my medication so I can be more functional and in less pain, water so we can shower AND WE NEED TO REPLACE THE INSULIN THAT SPOILED BECAUSE OF THE BLACKOUT PLEASE!!!!
update june 15 night
Got water for today, we still need help with testosterone, meds, our daughter's gender affirming haircut and water tomorrow until the water supply starts again, I'm sorry we still don't know how long this shortage will be
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āthey never explicitly looked at the camera and said āi am experiencing immense griefā so how was i supposed to know??ā i donāt know what to tell you, man. if a story doesnāt spoon-feed you the character's internal emotional state like a jar of mashed peas, you guys just willingly starve. subtext is not a myth, i promise it won't bite you.
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