Your_Denis

Hey y'all! I'm Denis (he/him), and I'm nineteen!

I'm aro/ace, both romance and sex-repulsed, and I'm also a trans man!

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Requests List - Closed

Fandoms List (+ favorite characters)

The Outsiders: Dallas Winston, Steve Randle

+ Masterlist: pt 1, pt 2, pt 3, pt 4, pt 5, pt 6

One Piece: Roronoa Zoro

+ Masterlist: pt 1

BNHA/MHA: Todoroki Enji (Endeavor), Bakugou Katsuki

Demon Slayer: Sanemi Shinazugawa, Inosuke Hashibira, Akaza

Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss: Adam, Mammon

Yu-Gi-Oh Zexal: Shark/Reginald/Ryouga

TMNT (2012): Raphael

Camp Camp: Max

Shameless: Mickey Milkovich

Total Drama: Duncan

Stardew Valley: Shane

Captain Underpants (Show): Benjamin Krupp, Melvin Sneedly

School Babysitters: Kamitani

Past Fandoms (fell out of love)

Hamilton

Great Expectations SOMEONE FUCKING SEDATE ME!! I fucking LIVE for this damn song. When I heard it in person, I swear I ascended into the sky, it was SOOO GOOD. I LOVE ECHOING CHORUSES HOLY SHIITTTT!!! This is the song I've had on repeat since I watched the musical for the first time.

This is the song that made me kind of understand Pony fans. His musical version is WAY more sympathetic than his book version, and he's just a much more likeable character here.

(If i'm honest, I've been daydreaming the outsiders musical with the Shinazugawa family. Some sort of modern AU where their parents still died and Sanemi had to drop out of school to take care of the family. Now, all this unbearable pressure to succeed is put on Genya, and the entire family is depending on him. (Genya as Pony & Sanemi as Darry))

Little Brother What the fuck were you expecting? This is everyone's favorite song and for good reason. If Great Expectations was any less amazing, this one would be at the top. Dallas is and forever will be my absolute favorite character, and he so earned this damn solo song. His voice is so unbelievable, he sung his heart out and then some. Them high notes?? Kill me now.

The train will forever catch me off guard, but you all have read my thoughts on his death. The tempo build to the crescendo of his death is done so fucking well, the composers all deserve their dick's sucked NEOW. Overall, this song is so true to Dally's character, and I think it was the perfect way to end it off for him. (Also Dally dying thinking he failed Johnny :[[ )

Stay Gold He is NOT fitting all the writing on that tiny ass piece of paper. BUT This song is the perfect send off for Johnny, and it's fucking beautiful. All the little "my friend, stay gold" bits give me chills. There's a damn reason this book as stuck with so many people for all these years, and this song encompasses the exact reason why. The Outsiders is a timeless story. FUCK IM GONNA CRY

Justice for Tulsa You know how I said I don't like soc songs? I fucking LIED THIS IS SO GOOD!! This one gives Breathin' from the Warriors album and I love it so so much. The racism against Dallas and general prejudice is so obvious in this song, and I really adore it. I wish the musical in general leaned more into these themes.

Cherry's little solo about Bob was so sad and sweet. If I cared about the socs, he would definitely be my favorite characters. Unfortunately, this song also highlights how much RANDY DESERVED TO BE HERE!!! FREE MY MAN! The whole part where Cherry gets accused is so fucking chilling and just amazing. I get goosebumps every single time I hear it.

Grease Got a Hold Okay, this one is really fucking good. Am I absolutely pissed Steve the fucking KING OF GREASE didn't get a part in it? Yes. But, I can look past that because of how damn catchy it is, along with Pony's amazing vocals. I also believe this is the first song that little brother is referenced, which I love. Darry's part is 100% my favorite bit, and he's definitely one of my fav musical characters (behind Dally ofc). Darry and Dally's power struggle is SO fascinating to me, I could talk about them all day.

I genuinely adore the importance of grease in the musical, especially considering the majority person of color cast. Hair was very prominent in the book, but I felt like it fell to the wayside a bit.

Run Run Brother Big brother Dally, fucking amazing vocals, and the catchiest hook. I ADORE this damn song, and I think it's the perfect traveling vibes to move to the church. Like Tulsa '67, it's a lot of exposition, but I think this song does it in a much catchier way. Maybe that's just Dally's voice hypnotizing me, but yknow. SOONER OR LATER YOU'LL LEAARRNNN!! THIS SONG FUCKS!!!

Throwing in the Towel Darry this is why you're my favorite Curtis brother. He's so fucking tragic. He gives and gives and gives to his family, and yet he still feels like he's not good enough or he's messing up. He's twenty years old. I'll be his age soon, but that just seems so scary yknow?? I couldn't imagine taking care of two kids at his age. AND HIS MAJESTIC ASS VOICE!!! AAHHHH!

Soda appreciates Darry so much, and I adore their dynamic. He loves both his brother so fucking much, and he's always there to defend them to each other and push them all forward. Darry is the rock of the family, but Soda is their engine. He keeps them all going, and keeps everything from falling apart.

Death's at My Door This is the song that put me on Pony angst because whAT THE FUCK BRO. Death follows me everywhere?? Kill me. Someone fucking sedate me. ALSO Pony's voice?? Holy majestic. That man gives me fucking chills holy hell.

He and Johnny are so fucking gay specifically in the musical. Like this song is 100 times more romantic than Pony and Cherry's duets. "The reason I'm living is you"??? Do they know it's legal now???

Runs in the Family DARRYYY THE MAN THAT YOU ARE!!! He has every damn right to be bitter, and I fucking love that he's so mean in the musical. Not to mention his VOCALS. Like holy shit can this man sing. It's a shorter song, so there's less content to love, but what we have is so fucking good. This song is also so country, it reminds me that this whole thing is set in Tulsa. I love the headcanon that Darry's accent is the strongest of the gang.

Runs in the Family (Reprise) Similar feelings to the default version of this. I ADORE Darry crashing out like this, he really deserves it. I also love Soda's ad-libbing, but Pony is back to his book-accurately insufferable self in this one. Yes, Darry is angry in this one, but there's real pain in his voice. He's dedicated his life to his brothers and he gets zero appreciation. He's so fucking amazing man.

Plus this is the song that transitions into the cool as fuck slap scene!!

Hopeless War Cherry once again pissing me off just with her presence. Her actor is fantastic though, she sings the fuck outta this song. Pony also fucking kills this song, both their vocals go crazy. It's definitely way better than their last duet. The tempo build is so good, and it gave me insane shivers. I do wish this song was a little longer, at least longer than their other stupid duet.

Trouble Can you tell I love a good ensemble song? I so fucking wish this song was longer, because it would EASILY be one of my favorites. But, as it stands, I doesn't feel right putting it any higher than this. GOD IT WOULD BE SO GOOD IF IT WAS LONGER.

Friday at the Drive-in Yall..I'm gonna be so real..I don't like the soc songs. They just don't have the groove that the greaser songs have man idk. It's catchy in it's own way, but it's very basic. It's just one lyric over and over again, but it's not unbearable to listen to. It lack substance, but makes up for it with pure jazziest!

Far Away From Tulsa This one is...okay? It's kinda boring, and nothing really happens. It's a good transition song into the climax of act one, but it's just so nothing burger like?? I like Pony's solo near the end of the song—the climbing part where he moves into the Great Expectations call back, but I think that's just because I fucking love Great Expectations.

Finale (Tulsa '67) This one is higher just because of Pony's character development AND him reading from the book. It gives me total chills every time, especially Dally's part. He's depicted so much more softly in the musical and I love that. I also love how the story is focused on the Greasers instead of sympathizing with the socs so much like in the book. Maybe I'm just a sucker for finales idk??

Soda's Letter Soda I love you, and I love your country hick ass songs, but damn this song is boring. I'm glad it's shorter, and I'm really glad they included Soda's letter at all (although it would've been funnier if Pony mentioned his spelling but yknow). I love the little chorus, but it's just lowkey nothingburger.

Tulsa '67 It's a good introduction song! Basic, but basically all musicals start with a basic song. Even so, this one is still better than a lot of musical intros that I've heard. I fucking LIVE for a good chorus, so that part of the song always gives me shivers. Overall, it's just a summary of a bunch of information, but it's catchy!

Hoods Turned Heroes I just don't like this one. I know objectively this is a good song, but I'm just not vibing with the groove yknow?? I'm not stomping my hooves, I'm not shaking my tail. The jazz just ain't there, and it feels kinda out of place? Idk, I'm just not vibing.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Ponyboy Curtis/Steve Randle, Tim Shepard/Dallas Winston, Other Minor Relationships Characters: Ponyboy Curtis, Sodapop Curtis, Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr., Johnny Cade, Steve Randle, Two-Bit Mathews, Dallas Winston, Tim Shepard Additional Tags: Pride Parades, NYC Pride, to be specific, Gay Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr., Bisexual Sodapop Curtis, Hinted Sodapop Curtis/Johnny Cade, Hinted Two-Bit Mathews/Darrel Curtis, Aromantic Asexual Ponyboy Curtis, Gay Steve Randle, Bisexual Dallas Winston, Bisexual Tim Shepard, Married Tim Shepard & Dallas Winston, Post-Canon, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Johnny Cade and Dallas Winston Live, Post-Book, Disabled Dallas Winston, Disabled Johnny Cade, Steve Randle is a Dork, Ponyboy Curtis is a Dork, Love Confessions, Coming Out, Autistic Steve Randle Summary:

HAPPY PRIDE!! I figured I'd drop something to celebrate! This is a combination of a few of the requests!

How do you think Dallas feels about the doll house when he’s big? One of my thoughts is he hates to look at it and hides it, another thought is it brings him a weird sense of comfort? Idk I’m conflicted and want ur thoughts on it :3

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HELLO ANON!!!

Tbh I think it's a mix? At first Dally is humiliated and wants to burn the damn thing because 1) he's Dallas Winston and Dallas Winston doesn't play with dolls and 2) the gang is starting to find out shit he does not what them to know

Eventually he gets to a point where Darry doesn't have to hide it from him when he's big, but he's still embarrassed.

He does get a weird warm feeling when he sees it which is only more embarrassing to him. Why is this stupid dollhouse so comforting to him like??

It does really help him though! He gets to share and work through the stuff he went through in a safe environment where he's in control this time.

Autistic Sanemi! Does anyone headcanon this? His first instinct when faces with a problem is to beat it up, which might be the most autistic thing ever.

I think a lot about his first Hashira meeting, where he questioned the master (i cant spell the mfs name) and then was scolded for it. It's SO autistic to question authority like that, and it's even more relatable for him to be immediately yelled at for questioning that authority.

AND ANOTHER THING!! Rengoku's first Hashira meeting is objectively hilarious. Sanemi's expectations changed and so what did he do?? He beat the shit out of his problem, ie: Rengoku.

Demon Sanemi I have SO MANY ideas that will probably never be born into a fanfiction because that's a lotta work

I read wind-blown lilies and I fell in love with Sanemi and Akaza, especially tranfem Sanemi x her supportive demon boyfriend Akaza.

You know he worships the ground she walks on man. I just imagine him being the best simp husband to Koyuki, and then times that by ten because now he knows he can lose his love, and he wants to make the most of his time with Sanemi.

Pair that with Demon Sanemi? These two are fucking unstoppable. They are the most powerful duo the corps has ever witnessed.

I've been thinking about Sanemi's BDA a lot, and as much as I love the idea of them having a more brutal BDA, I just can't get blood out of my head.

Demon Sanemi who's BDA is something akin to blood-bending. (can you tell I just rewatched avatar?) He can control the blood inside someone's body, forcing them to bend to his will, or just destroying them from the inside.

Just imagine a demon exploding just because Sanemi willed it.

I also like the idea of him being able to bend his own blood outside of his body. Something like water-bending, but more solid. Being able to make weapons, platforms, and even shield people with his blood, because he's always used his blood to protect. He's never been scared to cut himself open, so it would make sense for his BDA to reflect his self-destructive, but well-meaning behaviors.

(sorry if you already have)

TW// Drug use & OD-ing, child abuse/neglect, death

Okay, so! Dallas was born premature to Michelle and I-don't-have-a-name-for-him Winston. Why was he born premature, you ask? Both his parents are crippling drug addicts.

I'm not talking green, I'm talking real heavy stuff. The kind of stuff that leaves your too-skinny body drooling on the couch for hours, leaving your tiny son to toddle around your disgusting apartment and hurt himself.

Dallas grew up watching his parents lose themselves to addictions. He's been around powder and needles and all the side-effects that come with it.

His parents—his mother, at least—tried to be there for him, whenever they weren't caught in the fog of their highs.

Oftentimes, he'd spend evenings in his mother's arms, letting her caress his hair while she was in la-la land.

I think his mom at least tried to get clean. She never succeeded, withdrawal dragging her back into the depths by her ankles, but he saw glimpses of what she could be.

But it was fine. Dallas could take care of himself. He didn't need any help.

That sentiment, of course, didn't make it easier when he—all of six years old—stumbled upon his mother's lifeless body, the needle that killed her still stuck in her arm.

what breathing style does everyone use?

AAAAhHHH!!!! I'm knawing on my computer..

Darry - Stone Breathing, like are we surprised? He's a protector, he's steady, and he's resilient. He's a mountain of a man and a mountain at heart

Soda - Love Breathing OR Sound breathing. I could very well picture Soda as Uzui or Mitsuri types. He loves the flash and the flare, but he's also made of love? Like he lives because he has so much love for life.

Pony - Water Breathing OR he can't use breathing techniques. No in between.

Two-Bit - Flame Breathing. He's loud, he's boisterous, and he'll burn your damn house to the ground, no questions asked.

Steve - Wind Breathing. He IS Sanemi. They are the same person. I imagine he has lots of scars on his body too.

Johnny - Mist Breathing. It just seems like him yknow? OOH!! Y'all know I love the Steve and Johnny dynamic, so Johnny was Steve's tsuguko

Dallas - Serpent Breathing because he's a sna—because he's slippery man. Idk I just see him as fast and flexible.

I was struggling not to just say Dallas is a demon because..cmon now, he's exactly the type of person that Muzan would prey on

OOF The Shepards as demons?? Tally forbidden romance??

Idk man, Johnny is just such a chill little, when he isn't having a panic attack or something

+ His favorite person in the world is Dallas, like cmon now

+ He's always asking for Dally when he's regressed, and he'll regress at Buck's with Dally sometimes

+ He regresses alongside Pony a lot. He generally loves acting as the big brother for once, so his favorite people to be little with are the baby regressors

+ His favorite activity ever when small is being read to

+ If he's bored, he will shove a book into the hands of whoever's watching him and silently demand to be read to

+ He's one of the littles that can and does speak, even using full sentences, he just prefers to be quiet if he can

+ He doesn't have a lot of little gear, since he isn't interested in much

+ Johnny is like Dallas in that he wears a lot of stolen clothes from the gang because it's comforting

+ He gets VERY easily spooked by loud noises, making Two-Bit the worst possible caregiver

+ Dally is his favorite caregiver, but since—like Pony—is prone to regressing around other littles, he barely babysits

+ Officially, Darry is his main caregiver, and Johnny just adores him

+ Johnny doesn't really like to be touched in littlespace. Sometimes he'll crawl into Dally's lap or something if he's sleepy, but he's not one for cuddles

+ This devastates Soda every single day

+ He gets pretty self-conscious when regressed around Pony, at least at the start. I think it's like that for everyone, though, because Pony is all their baby brother and it's weird to be younger than him

+ By far, his favorite playmate is Steve

Now why would you say this..what was the need..

Soda 100% took Pony leaving the hardest out of everyone in the gang, which is really saying something considering how devastated literally everyone was.

I imagine he and Darry took to sleeping in the same room, because both of them couldn't handle seeing the other so torn up

Soda is SUCH a cuddler, he always has to have someone with him. Pony has been subject to his death grip all the time, and he both hates and loves it.

Listen yall, just because Johnny doesn't prefer Pony as a caregiver, doesn't mean it don't happen if everyone else is busy/if they're in some sort of situation

+ They are SO awkward with each other at first

+ Pony really isn't used to babysitting, and Johnny doesn't do well with new people (even if he knows Pony when he's big, he's still new to little Johnny)

+ They read a lot! Like..a lot!

+ That's basically the only activity Pony knows, so they just read a bunch of books together

+ Johnny is a very quiet little, so Pony is always losing track of him

+ Pony is panicking and losing his mind because Johnny disappeared, only to realize Johnny was just going to the bathroom or something

+ He also has the tendency to slip too if someone else is small around him, so he only babysits for a few hours

+ Many times, the guys have come back home to Johnny acting as a big brother to Pony because Pony slipped while they were gone

+ They also cuddle kind of an obscene amount (which contributes to Pony slipping)

I think Johnny's canonically suicidal and I've had this lil scene thing brewing in my mind where Darry's carrying a sniffling Johnny while he makes dinner and Soda or Two-Bit walk in and is like "Why's Johnny upset?" and Darry just says "I took away his switchblade"

anyway i just wanted to see your thoughts on if any of the gang's sui or sh stuff carry into their regression

TW// Suicide, sh

Oof..that one hurt..

+ They remove any weapons off anyone's person when they're changes: Johnny and Dallas are by far the most worried/grumpy about this

+ Any self-harm behaviors or talk are corrected immediately, this has lead to many conversations that ended in tears and cuddles

+ Johnny self-harms unconciously, it's just a habit

+ Biting the skin around his fingers, scratching at old wounds, and sometimes even

+ Dally and Pony have much less coordination, but Pony also harms himself in little ways unconciously, and he needs a lot of comfort

+ During tantrums especially, Pony is prone to hitting himself or hitting his fists or head against the wall or other objects

+ He does cry about the bruises after (if someone doesn't stop him fast enough)

+ He also has a habit of pulling his hair, which, if it goes unchecked, he could also rip some out

+ Dally's self-harm behaviors have a lot to do with trauma, and they are completely concious behaviors (ie: he knows they will hurt him)

+ He often doesn't eat/refuses to eat at all, but the gang found bottles help a lot, and they also encourage him to play with his dollhouse to work through his feelings

+ (Lord, I love Dally's dollhouse, I gotta talk about that again)

+ Overall, the gang keeps track of which littles are prone to self-harm behaviors, and they keep close eyes on them

When their parents died all the Curtis brothers had COMPLETELY different reactions.

Darry was quiet. Not silent, but that quiet type of anger. He was angry, not at anyone, but FOR his parents. After they died he got a lot more snappy with his brothers, but don’t get me wrong he’d immediately feel guilty about it. Another thing I think caused his anger was the fact that he didn’t let himself grieve properly, he just immediately went into parent mode with his brothers. So I think I few weeks later when it all hit him, it HIT Him.

Soda was the loudest (ik that’s not the right word but I can’t think of it rn) about his grief. He cried a lot, for hours on end. He would cry until his chest ached and he was trembling. I think he also got a little clingy, trying to stay with Darry and follow him around because he didn’t want to be alone. Eventually Darry would snap at him for it and he would immediately start sobbing. He would also be very sentimental and do stuff like looking through old albums, looking at old videos of them, and just doing whatever he could to hold on to any part of their memory.

Pony also went quiet, but not the same quiet as Darry. For the first few days it was almost like he was on autopilot, all he really did was eat/drink (even then he probably didn’t do that as much as he should’ve) , sleep, and cry. He didn’t speak unless he absolutely needed to and half the time he didn’t even have the energy to listen to someone talk for more than 20 seconds. Don’t get me wrong he would still cry in front of his brothers, but he’d definitely try to hide it. This time was also when he started getting pissed at Darry more. They always butted heads because of how similar they are but it definitely got worse, most likely because Darry got more snappy.

Anyways that’s it. Srry for pelting you with angst love <3

and how Johnny would be the worst when it comes to punishments, but not because he'd try to fight them and be bratty about it, but because he'd cry if someone was mad at him or raised their voice

and no matter how much he gets reassured, he always assumes it's going to be like what his parents do so they'd always have to be EXTREMELY careful with their tone becuz Johnny has a hard time remembering and registering that he isn't with his parents and that he's safe

the first time he was in time-out was a disaster because after the cg explained it to him, johnny thought he'd be fine but he very much wasn't and ending up having a panic attack and silently working himself through it because he's convinced he deserves it and then he gets like lost in his head before one of the cgs come to get him and he breaks out sobbing

i think it also said that they had to make very specific rules on johnny's punishments and there'd be a maximum limit for how long he could be in time-out that's noticeably shorter than the other little's max limits, and his was i think 10 minutes with someone in the room with him, but if the person declaring he had to be in time-out was visibly mad, someone had to hold him while he was in time-out

thoughts/opinions on this? :3333

I mean, pretty much yeah.

I've said before, but "punishments" in the gang are SO light, they are barely punishments, but that's because the whole gang is so ill and traumatized. If they go any harsher than just time-outs, everyone is having a panic attack

I think Johnny is especially sensitive to it, since punishments to him have always meant pain. The others, like Steve and Dally, have a much less structured fear of "punishments" as a concept, if that makes sense?

Any thoughts on little Ponyboy post-canon? Something just came to my mind and now its infecting me

Pony hardly ever talks to the gang when he's big, imagine how bad it gets when he's little? He's already overwhelmed with so many emotions and he's still getting over the church and Johnny and Dally's deaths, and those feelings are all just amplified when he's small

I imagine that he's what he usually was when regressed, but x2. He's so much more emotional than he used to be and the tantrums and meltdowns get more common and harder to bring him down from, but he also gets even more spacey

And he doesn't talk to anyone. At all. He doesn't talk, he doesn't want to eat, he barley responds to anyone or just doesn't respond, and it breaks the caregivers' hearts because that's their baby, that's their brother and he's going through the worst

He gets twice as more bratty and twice as more zoned out and to the gang's dismay, there's hardly anything they could do about it and all Pony wants is Johnny and Dally

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There's a couple of these super long asks here, and I just have nothing to add but the world has to see them anyway